Thursday, October 18, 2012

* * * What a nigger. * * *

My dad is such a useless pervert.  He thinks he can call me a nigger and cater to Nell Burton when he wanted me to call her one.  Just shut up, you stupid, good for nothing.

Hm, I almost used ( ( ( , which was used on Delphi Forums, which I was on all day once when a yoga teacher from Canada was here.  I posted myself watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," a famous guy who was with Johnny Depp who made his own movies as his character and looked cute with his eyebrows raised out, like that youngest girl in Beethoven, named Ricky Gervais, and recently, yesterday, Emma Watson.  Her name was Kate Potter.

I had made a point, which apparently he betalized, that lots of people call people niggers.  I think he just killed himself.  IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS GIVEN SIGHNS ONLY SHE WANTED IT FOR FUN.  I EVEN HESITATED TIMES IN ADVANCE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BE CALLED ONE, MYSELF, BY HER, NOR ANYONE!  WHY?  NO ONE EVER REALLY WOULD.

Oh, and to make matters worse, a girl from Orlando was on today.  I told her she was going to die.  I think her mom was sorry for me because the medicine made my period lighter.  I also threatened in a way my mom would go to the mental hospital instead of me but indirectly was able to type that.  There was another couple from Orlando with 2 kids, today, and one was an infant.  The mom looked Spanish.  I don't know why they seemed the same as me, just to be nice.  I saw a couple at the doctor, when I filmed myself outside and left my mom and my phone broke.  Well, I saw the dad, Spanish, and the mom was Cuaucasian.  The kids looked Asian.  They were reading a book and seemed to think I was smart, like for talking to Johnny Depp.  It's funny, I went to the bathroom, and the show came back on, supposed to bring their kids on.  I heard a rapping at the window.  I came in late, for some reason, after looking up something on the internet.

JUST *BEEP* HIM

HE'S MESSING UP MY BLOG, THAT STUPID PIECE OF SHIT!  I WAS GOING TO A MOVIE SOON!  '8^0

LEAVE ME ALONE WITH THIS ... MRS. ELLEN DEGENERES!  I CAN GET HIM TO BUY ME MY HALLOWEEN COSTUME.  FINE, BE INTERESTEED...  WAIT, WHY?  WHAT'S THE IDEA?  FEED YOUR PET PARAKEET.  CATER TO LILY ROSE OR NELL.  CARE FOR THE ELDERLY.  '8^0  WOW, I HOPE THAT PEOPLE EVEN TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES.  I BET YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY.

OH, AND THE POLICE WRITE IN ALL CAPS.  MY AUNT WAS A POLICE.

I'm calling the police! '8^0

Kick these people until they're in a rested miseray.  '8^.

*My Nigger Dad*

I think he just suggested I was supposed to be the kid of someone my aunt's age and that I was a nigger to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Just *beep* him.  I just got up to go to the bathroom.  Oh, and I kicked my brother's family tree.  He seems to think I should be taken to the mental hospital and that I'm a NIGGER.  JUST *BEEP* THAT PIECE OF SHIT.  Oh, and I associated the word "nigger" with him when I thought the influence of Renee Fleming made me turn on him.

What overcame that nigger?  I was feeling good and rested and getting more solid.  I don't want any pointers.  First, my mom had the door with the blue in the back.  Then, he had it slightly opened.  Now, it's open wide and yellow.  He's been waking up earlier, again, too.  Now, my stomach kinda hurts, like I ate too much, but I didn't eat that much.

* Nighty Night *

Good night for now.  I don't even feel like using the bathroom right now but may...  8|  I hope I have a restful, somewhat stimulating night..

Vibes

I hope I didn't send bad vibes to my dad.  I was a bit rough, but I don't know if I technically made any noises loud enough to have bothered him.

Mad

So, I didn't bother my dad, but I realized he was sleeping and he realizes sometimes I'm just there.

Also, I splashed water on Tim Burton's face.  8|

My mom is precious! 80

Don't chop her up!

And don't chop up anyone else, neither!  '80

It wasn't a strong feeling.

*Shit*

Not Funny

So, it seems my mom had to go ahead and make me feel like I was simple shit and didn't care for my future baby girl.  It was just a little feeling, reminded me of an orbiting webcam I want.  Like my right egg sack.  Then, I felt it being polished, like rubbed with a cloth.  Like a thin cloth.  Sorta, warm and tingly but shitty.

HEY! }={

There's no views on my YouTubes.  Does that mean no one has looked them up nor is online?  8'|

"I ain't dumb."

You can't get mad at me just because you think you won't get mad at Ellen DeGeneres, just right now.  That's obviously not gonna work.  "I ain't dumb."

VERY MAD

I was mad at Ellen DeGeneres's impersonation of Kate Bush, just because.  I was thinking that ... wait, what?

Ellen DeGeneres is sarcastic but sometimes is in a lame way.

She really has a smug about her, like because of the stupid n word thing..  She thinks I deserve to be tortured, when I deserved respect, before.  She shouldn't mind this because she thinks I should suffer.  She's just hiding her weaknesses to older people in relation to me...  Like, she doesn't want them to hurt her for being nice to me.  See what I mean?  That was very easy to soak in, like a white person.  *gasp*  Why talk to her?  She just complains, in her head, about having a baby with Portia, and people don't talk to Portia like she's another Ellen DeGeneres mor someone like Johnny Depp mor Tim Burton mor Nell Burton.

So, yea, you could delve into it more, as though she were more white, and then you'd end up thinking, likewise, that ... wait now I forget.  Well, I forget!  ;0

ELLEN DEGENERES

I don't care what other people think that I don't know about.  You shouldn't fast forward my life into thinking that people don't mean anything to me.

Want me to explain the implications behind my first sentence?  I don't care about it if I don't want to think about it.  I can't convince them to be the way I want to be.  Why am I not like that?  Maybe, I am in some way, but maybe I have problems, caused by my family but also the world, doi.  '86

Glitches

Glitches

"When I blog, I have to go back and delete an Enter before the text because I paste it in from Notepad."

Seeing Things

I thought I saw a reddish block behind my text.  8^0

Born 8|

Oh, and, Ellen DeGeneres, sending in more stupid messages because of the n word thing.  You surely don't believe that people a little older than you are are all, at any age, much cooler?  What about Olivia Newton-John?  I found her very warm but cynical.  She seemed more warm at first, from a distance.

It seems that people think I'm a toy.  I've been wound up to "not be" some thing.  I have certain goals and fetishes.  I do not understand the detail thing.  Maybe, being Chinese just takes its toll.  Still, I obviously have come a long way and am always making certain kinds of changes until I reach a certain pinnical.

I am so disgusted that people think only the people born around 1960 can be supple, in a certain way.  Supple yet strong.  Stimulated, important, well-loved.  Why won't people admit they decided to curse me for who I am and not for what I do, that I have to be something that suffers?

People born around 1960 are so spoiled.  They were made to be that way, like people born in the 70s and 80s were made to be a certain way if they're all white, though they don't have any care nor appreciation at all for it.  We all know that.  It's been calculated, and you can't take back that fact that it was admitted to be that way and things were acted upon that fact.  I'm not sure how nor when that idea particularly died out.  True, people born in the 70s can look like shit.  They think it's stimulating to people born around 1950 ... oh, and in the 1940s.

People born in 1960 were born, apparently, with straight yet stimulated, sorta in a curvy way, legs.  People born in 1961 were funky and thick like people born in 1959.  People born in 1958 are probably the most stimulating, generally.  People born in 1957 are like a god.

My dad was born in 1950.  I see women born in 1951 as young, but I like my mom's generation a lot.

I don't know what I'd do if no one knew my mom was a lot younger than my dad and a year and a half younger than Ellen DeGeneres.  =}

People born in 1960 are spoiled.  They are allowed to look better than everyone else, for no good reason.  Then, they grow up and are inhibited and knock people out with their confidence.  They have that thick, strong look, which everyone desires, and people are all told they are shit because of it.  I'm not entirely making them up, but I think you see my point.  Like I said, it's hard for me to think because I'm mixed race, that my mom is not Caucasian.  I'm still alive!  3p

So, I guess you notice that people born in 1962 like Jodie Foster are stimulated by being lose goose, not really molded out, yet still thick.  Then, the next generation is simply thick with no form, like people born in 1959, who probably stimulate people a lot if successful like people born around them.  86

Why do people born in 1960 complain so much?  Just shut the hell up!  8^0  Or, is it, as I've been thinking, that others are complaing for them?  I know I envy their style.  I respect that.  8|  It's just that it's all against us, people born in 1958-1961.

Ellen DeGeneres

You can't channel in Kate Bush in private and then hurt my mom.

I hope you don't have your next accident like that.  :p  You hurt my mom!  :o  Stop being racist!  Leave Kate Bush alone!

Chow Time! 8^D