Sunday, October 21, 2012

Getting Attention ;|

I, in some way, realized Ellen DeGeneres is just there attacking people for not being smart blonde public speakers.  She finds every little thing about you, mainly, that is wrong, and she doesn't really fix it but does something to compensate for it.  She finds reasons for them later, I know, but I don't.  It seems she really enjoys small things in life.  I don't understand why people relish in my submission.  I just know that I don't feel like everyone else just because she's different from most people.  She's nice, but she's very weird if you think about her implications, which I believe are obvious, for some reason.  I'm not even sure if she's really fully aware of this fact, just yet, in how she will, whereas lots of people are aware only of this.  It just tells me she not only has nothing original to say (ah hard to get into, I don't feel well! ah!) and that she's going off what she looked like before and "doesn't really do it" anymore though is encouraged to.  It doesn't make me like someone else more.  I'm not in a way as fixated as reveling in I think one particular picture of when she was little I may post later when I feel okay.  I'm not as bemused and bewildered as most.  In a way.  Whatever it is I'm thinking of doesn't affect me in a physical way to like think of pondering on because not much does.  I guess we should let her be and help people.  It's nice I guess when she meets someone who meshes, but I think it's about giving people opportunities.  I guess that makes her feel good.  She meets lots of neat people, and they're getting younger.  I'm used to meeting neat people and feel better when I do.  I've gotten over some of them for some reason.  Some no.  I guess people want to put her in line and not give her too much attention.  Maybe, they think she's sorta lose and laid back.  A lot of people are interested in living in certain ways more.  She's a nice healthy person.  I just worry about her, what she deserves and needs.  I know she sees her mom and is with a younger, Italian-Australian girl.  Maybe, she wants to know more adults.  I know I do.  I guess there's just not enough.  I have her, Tim Burton ... Johnny Depp, Orla Fallon, some people I used to know.  Who does she have?  No one.  I can't force anything on her, but it is a vial topic.  After she reaches a certain age, it could be too late because people get older.  She seems to always be catering to younger people now.  I admit she is older.  Maybe, her life wasn't exactly how she wanted and people weren't just right for her.  I don't quite understand her fascination with young people so much if we're always worrying about her relationship with older people.  Maybe, I'll get back to this, later.

Also, I'm looking up more people online, decided it was safe.  :)  People of different ages.  '}8)  Maybe, I can get them into Ellen DeGeneres?  Couldn't get them into Johnny Depp.
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Why don't you get to the point?

Ellen DeGeneres does not get to the point!  Ellen DeGeneres does not have a point!  What does that mean?  The same thing?  Maybe, I know everything about her.  '}:)

I need to talk to more people and get them to watch her show.  I'm creating a forum for her, as we speak.  :|  I just got interrupted by some niggerin'.

GO TO HELL!

Quit being a stupid retard because I'm Chinese.  Wait, why do we have the word "retard" in our vocabulary, so I don't say stupid?

You can't use me.  You think you're so cool and sexy, but you're just a Jewish nigger, and I'm Jewish and I'm not a Jewish nigger.

What the Hell?

I DON'T WANT HELENA BONHAM CARTER'S DAUGHTER AND ELLEN DEGENERES PAIRING UP LIKE THIS, LIKE NIGGERS, ABSOLUTE NIGGERS, which is the good way of using the word, just to teach you that lesson!  They planned this out on my blog!  80  If my dad had anything to do with it, I'll *beep* him.  Wait, how should I have said that??

ELLEN, YOU *BEEP* - Fine, see if she likes that.  See if she "likes" that.  '}:|  Why don't you just leave me alone?  I like talking to you, but you're so mean.  I SAID QUIT LISTENING TO MY FATHER.  I SAID I DIDN'T CARE IF JOHNNY DEPP *BEEP*ED BECAUSE HE LISTENS TO THE LIKES OF HIM.  I'LL SAY THE SAME FOR YOU SINCE YOU PROBABLY WILL ANYWAY.  AND THAT'S WHY!  Oh, but he probably knew everything.  How disgusting!  Why don't you just talk to him, pancake!  If you agreed to agree to something, you can't get back at me, you GODDAMN NIGGER!

NEWS FLASH!

Ellen DeGeneres and Helena Bonham Carter channeled bad energy.  I just got the image of them ransacking around my mom, unsure how you heard of the word.

They want to hurt the prettiest Chinese girl.  It's not really in me to hurt people, but I can't stop it from happening.

They don't seem to be so well off themselves.  They don't really seem to eat the best food.  They don't seem to know what good food tastes like.  I said it because I caught right away they were picking on my mom instead of me because of the food I ate.  I don't know why Helena Bonham Carter seems kinda American, and like it seems too American to me.

I find that they and Tim Burton are quite "niggers."  I just got the idea of them hurting my supposed future husband's sperm.  What do you think that means to me?  What if we caused Tim Burton's sperm to be created miserable?  What if we bothered my dad so he writhed in pain?  I don't want to, but I feel that's what I'm doing all the time.  :I  I don't think I will, and I won't on purpose.  He's kinda stupid and sensitive with suggestions, pretends he's really British but doesn't produce it in the meat for some reason.  He and Ellen DeGeneres are like niggers, pristine and in place but can't move because they're not white enough.  They don't have much substance, and they don't know their place.  They're weak in the world, like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, useless "Whores."

Kids!

If I don't have kids, I won't let it be because it ruined my eggs from taking my period away so much, for over a year, and now it's not heavy and was so heavy before when I came home from college and after we moved to the city, in Orlando.  The psychiatric medicine I didn't need.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

^ Indian ^

Wow, my dad really let it all out.  He thinks because I have Native American it counts though it's a little.  It's from hime, though!  ':0
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'8^, So, I'm the new Lily Rose.

What the Hell?

Why do I have to sit here and worry about death creeping up my egg sacks, like making my future children not what I want just because of the way I've been talking and made to talk?

Tim Burton

I just realized, I posted on the Pirates of the Caribbean 3 forum on MySpace before I went to other sites, but first I explored Facebook and MySpace, in other ways, became more advanced and got into Tim Burton.

Ellen DeGeneres

I guess she likes people who are 14 and will abandon you when you are 16.

Because she moved then.  I don't abandon people when they are a certain age.  Well, maybe college age.

These Young People

So, these young people post online and act like it's about them but don't tell you who they really are.

What's the use in suing?

Those psychiatrists gave me medicine I don't need!  It also made my period go away.  It came back but is way light compared to before, not very heavy.  It was very light the 3rd time.  It took 2 or 3 months to come back, possibly.  I can have kids, but I'm wondering if the eggs were affected.  I also was trying to grow before but was so excited online!  Now, I feel so hated and shitty.  For some reason '8I, the medicine made me "shoot up."

Trying to Act Cool

Why does Ellen DeGeneres try to act cool in a bad way just so she doesn't look wrong?

Ellen DeGeneres and Britney Spears

Ellen DeGeneres, as you may know, is from the same area as Britney Spears.  I don't know anyone else that famous who lived there a long time.  I surveyed the area, but I moved there when I was 12.  I lived there all as a teenager.  So, I guess Ellen DeGeneres and Britney Spears left when they were a teenager but came back and went to school.  It's interesting to see them together.  I see Britney Spears looks different now.  I know when I lived there I had the same problem.  I looked like I wanted to be cool and not cute, but that changed.  I changed twice.  I'm not sure about people in Orlando, why the young girls, some of them, have very round heads, like it swirls around and around.  I wonder if people are like that from the New Orleans area.  Britney Spears moved around the area and also lived in Mississippi, but it's very New Orleans feel...  I haven't been there a lot, but I've been there maybe 5 times or more, not sure what was there.  Anyway, Ellen DeGeneres lived in Texas, too.  I guess they can relate in that way.  ChloĆ« Moretz is from Georgia.  So, I guess they can get along from being from a rural area in the South that's more major.  I went to Georgia with my aunt and in-laws and wandered around sometime between Christmas and New Years.  So, yea, oooh.  I think I walked around for hours, alone, because I thought my aunt was gonna kill me, but I mean she wouldn't physically.  My cousin was so annoying, and I stopped when the police chased us and the other kids.  It was her fault.  She's always very bad, but now she's more withheld.  She's nothing like her mom.  I don't know why.  Her eyes aren't even blue, and her mom had such sparkly eyes.  She wears contacts.  I think she's an amazing person, as is everyone...  It's funny how different people are different weights, too.  Like, thin people never feel enough, and neither do the bigger ones.  When I lived in the area, in the end, I had a lot of power.  I met people from New Orleans, and, as I got more New Orleans influence, I had power over people.  I don't have the same kind of power in Orlando, just the power to hurt people's feelings.  So, that caroling video on YouTube was cute.  Why don't they do more of that?  '8^I

Finish Your Thought

I know I can never finish a thought, but I finish it more than most people!

Ugh!  Why are we talking about when we were 7 or 8?  I mean what year were you 7 or 8?  I loved baton when I was 7.  Oh, I started stimulating myself, then.  I started having weird thoughts at 6.  At 4|5, I became unhealthy.  That's when I found out my mom was pregnant.  They cut my hair.  I didn't like where I lived in pre-school, neither, and had a hard time with my family and extended family just because I was mixed as a fact.  They treat me like I'm precious, though.

Kinda Trashy

Ellen DeGeneres reminds me of ChloĆ« Moretz.  They are pampered by their moms, and their fathers are divorced.  Well, it's not the action but the idea that reverberates.  I'm not sure what people think.  It's like all these people with moms or dads who seem more European let off their reserve.  Yet, they want to be American and modern, at the same time.  I heard America was cooler, but I don't know.  It's kinda trashy.

Americans

Why do people in the U.S. praise English people over Americans, as for other Europeans, and then say well you're not American and your family didn't go through what I went through?

Imagine Ellen DeGeneres.  So, her dad is supposedly not from the U.S., but her mom is.  So, she "is" important, like that's who she is, precious, whereas like I'm not, pretty much, just shit.  I'm not sure if I'm an okay example for comparison, in that way, because I'm different in too many ways.  It's funny, I guess I can connect to people in the U.S. with a European mom.  I mean, I have a hard time connecting to a lot of people, in the U.S.  I can only think of one, now.  I don't remember any others well and never did.  I get pretty annoyed at people in Europe with an American father and a European mom, for some reason, people in the U.S. with a non-American dad, people with a European dad and an American mom, and child stars.

That reminds me of when I watched the David Letterman show.  I saw someone on there, and I thought the show was neat and was gonna watch it but was calling my grandma.  :p  I guess 3 months later, I started watching Ellen.  Oh well.  :6

So, all these people with more "real world" European "experience" are really annoying.  Then, there's people like Helena Bonham Carter in Europe who are mixed who everyone like protects.  Kate Bush, however, seems publicized more secretly.  Helena is part Jewish.

These people think they "are" important, as do many, many Americans.  They think they don't have some opportunity they deserve, still.  I don't know.  Americans get along with me pretty well.