Help!

My parents are sexually abusing me.  They made me go into sexual anti-convulsiosn.

I was just taking a break from feeling things, content at my day's work, looking forward to the next day.  Explained my present situation.  My dad seemed to be accepting of it.  I have a noisemaker that doesn't cover like music, though.  So, anyway, my mom cmoes into the laundry room.  She makes my right egg sack feel the reaction after the word "fart..."

My vagina feels like it's being masturbated, like turned inside out.  I think it's pulsing.

What sick parents.  Once I have fun, they turn my world inside out and upside down and don't let me feel my own due pleasure or independence in life.

So, they make me feel uncomfortable, and the medicine does not help.  I'd rather report my parents to authority, but I am too sick to work.  I don't want to live with my aunt.  The medicine made me lose my period for over a year, and now it's not as heavy.  I am very mad.  I got a very heavy period when I finally came home from college.  I almost didn't go to college.

I was feeling so good before, and I am so upset I was interrupted.  I think my dad is gay about me making any adverse noise when I feel inwardly agitated for no good reason and am treated like I'm crap, which I am in a way thanks to them.

No, I will not sit here and meditate on their mistakes in preparing food.  I don't like their ways.  Not in the way I like other people because they are who they are.

I feel sorta stimulated in my vagina to not feel pleasure but to feel stupid.

I was talking about fun things online and feel made fun of for no good reason, for the stupid n word thing.  I can't post about new kinds of things and cannot live my true dream because of it.  This makes no sense.  Leave me alone.  I will get you and authority.

Please stop skirting around me that maybe I have to experience good things but only once.  I can control myself pretty well.  What happened?  Why can't I h*rt you?  Then, you wouldn't be able to hurt me.

I feel so disettled.  I was asleep and reacted to when the light was turned on by my mom.

I'm already having problems because of girls with older moms!  And because I have an older dad!  I am being made fun of for liking younger people but not like the women born around 1960 are getting in trouble for it!

I felt my face change, and I think it's because of Tim Burton's son.

Oh, and I feel so bad, kinda dirty though I took a shower, a bit fat, too, from resting and not working out.

So, anyway, what was there was a trap for his son's face to be molested and go in convulsions, so I just sorta didn't react sexually but "pressed 'the button.'"  That was so insulting about my face.  I was thinking Ellen DeGeneres caused it, but who wants to think that about her?  Well, they've thought it others.

I feel irritated how my mom just got close to me.  She's like another race to me.

So, no, I didn't literally want to hurt him but feel clumsy and very mistreated and even said don't come near me.  I'm having trouble typing, for God's sake!