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There's always a time for change, but I might return.

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Taken to suggestions lately?

Who says you can come in and tell me what to do!

Lame Joke

Are you still obsessed over the n word thing?

Why are you so shovey?

Is now a bad time to call?

wittoo bunny foofoo

So, pretty much the thing to do is to bring up something supposedly negative and then say something positive but to do it all the time?

I'm having French toast. p;

My dad's on the phone with his mom. ^0^

wtf?

I used to have more a distance with my family, especially my immediate ones.. and now everything is about them!  :0  ...  WTF does that say about the past?

^ * think think think * ^

If I did think, no one would let me think how I want.

hoo u rili r

Why don't people like Ellen DeGeneres, Tim Burton, Kate Bush ... Johnny Depp ... just submit to the people they worship?  They sit here and tell me I have to think about them, too, I feel.  It would just prove who they really are.

I - am - a - rro-bot

Ellen makes a big deal of little things and then forgets the big picture but for real.  Didn't you know people aren't robots!!!!

I wanna walk like you, talk like you! Boo-oo-oo!

What do you think of people who get certain opportunities, like to be like certain people and then get away with it?

dads

Why do some people try to associate you more with your dad?

shut up!

Do you think people born in 1958 and before or with a mom born then should be able to not shut up when you want them to?

*there's no point!*

What do you think of people who don't have a point?

Reflection

Did you ever reflect on the pains people take to impress attractive, white, young females?

Tweet @TheEllenShow

That reminds me of a Halloween party I went to at an apartment where an older English lady was in charge.  I was the Oriental Elizabeth Swann, which was like teal and orange-red.  It was at a pool.  There was this little fat guy singing songs the whole time, including "The Candy Man."  It was so cool...  I was talking on the phone to a long time friend, who informed me she was scared of Willy Wonka, the new one, and didn't watch it, though she and her friend were fanatic over PotC.

Enflamed

Why are Tim Burton and Johnny Depp so mean?  Let's just be mean, back.  Wait, isn't it other people who try to be like them?  They aren't really normal.  I can see their ways, but they don't really explain it.  I'm not sure what's wrong with mine.

Talking 8|

Ever notice some people just don't want you to talk?

Should I just toss it?

Why?  Nothing's important.  '8|  Didn't you know that already!!!

Germans

Ugh!  I'm so annoyed by mixed Germans.  What I hate most is when everyone but the people I don't like or some people whom I have not met act like they're in a relationship with me yet don't want to be.

Some people have really bothered me.  For instance, I have to live with my parents.

Dream

I was getting a shot.  They made a big hole in my arm.  It was about like the size of a tip of a crayon or a little bigger than a sunflower seed tip.  I was trying to disinfect what would be the hole, which was covered like with a sleeve.  The man squirted it down the hole.  I got my shot, whatever it was.  They poked a small feathery needle in me at the top of my flesh then dug it in all the way to the bottom.  For some reason, I was feeling something else sharp.  Anyway, after the shot, there was a little fountain of gooey blood that kept reproducing but nt flooding.  I got a picture of two and a dark video of it when it stopped overflowing as much.  We were on a plane.  There were some old ladies still behind us.  We were making sure we didn't leave anything.  For some reason, my boxed set of the Little House books and a large set of American Girl books, a set of like maybe checkered books of a set of like 5 with one missing, another set with I don't remember at the moment.  My mom said to leave then, but I'm not sure why.

Johnny Depp

What's been barking up his tree?

I noticed a trend in his actions.  I just get certain messages from his vibes.  Like, he makes you feel so guilty if you're imperfect.  He thinks he's more from Florida, but he's not.  Tim Burton made him believe this.

Back 2 Bed 8)

Say what you mean and mean what you say.

Why can't you idiots even say what you mean in the first place.

Stop acting all cool getting in my face like you're even something.  Literally, you're attacking me right in my brain.  It's possible.

Why do you so hope that someone is right just because they're older than you?  You really can't protect the desire to attack me, unless I'm with people I don't know well.

Someone was tending to me when I was with my brother and maybe someone else.  I was depressed, I think about my brother.

I'm also worried because I have to channel in thoughts of others, and I know it makes people who know them very mad.  I don't know if they'll completely understand.

Stop!

Stop pretending and roping off stupid ideas!

Stop!

...  You can't just keep reacting to me in private, every time I make a fighting point.  I have a right to defend myself.  Someone call 911!

The problem is psychologists won't do anything.  My dad backed off when I said I'd get a psychiatrist ... my parents gaped at me like I was shit and I stood corrected.

I need my parents for money and stuff.  I don't drive.  Then, I will proceed to arrest Ellen DeGeneres, along with Jimmy Fallon, Jay Leno, David Letterman, Bethenny Frankel ... Johnny Depp!

Don't bark at me!

So what if I said r*******?  I already meant to say that.  That's what I meant.  I can say it.  80  You can't hurt me for using a word.  If you're wondering, it shouldn't rub off on me, if you attempt to use it at me.

Dream

Ah, yes, my younger aunt was there.  I told my grandma I was like her.  That wasn't good.

Gay R******

Why do some people like bark and circle at you ... your thoughts ... you find they've been overly prepared and have no substance.  They are so enraptured and think they're all so cool to you but that you're taking their time.  ^o^  *vulture lands*  It's not literally something you did.  In fact, it's not even something I desire.  I guess a thought that would come up would be what would happen otherwise.  Well, I'd deal with it.  I suppose people want to take away my ability to feel, but I would have gotten that, anyway.  I think.

So, like, these people are totally in your mind and don't let you develop your thoughts, give you no freedom.  It's loud and annoying in thought.  It tells you you're retarded.

Dream

With the boy, it was like bleak but colorful bleak.  Maybe, the car, it was a convertible, kinda cartoony but not really.  I saw a shadow of his dad with like a curly wisp of hair saying there'd be no thoughts around the house or something.

Dream

So, I was talking to my dad, too.  He was just showing off.  I said to call 911!  I went in a room with my brother when he was like 4, and I found a little cell phone and called.  It had purple light up in the background.  I'm not sure what happened.

I was taking some pictures with me as I left.  People were getting them for me.  They were in plastic wrappings.

So, yea, there were knives flying through windows.  My dad was thinking, "You cannot get me."  He was lying on the ground after one knife we threw.

In case you didn't notice, he wasn't fighting my mom, but she was just lying on the floor and decided to get serious and I guess threw a knife straight at him.  It probably inadvertently missed.  I think she was in a room, a new looking room, kinda like off kitty cornered.

So, I'm annoyed because that was really taxing for maybe 10 minutes.  I was keeping him from punching me.  Sometimes or once I physically got him and got behind him.

I'm not sure what ticked him so.

Ellen DeGeneres

Why does she impress you and like act like she has to be mean to you for not being literal?  It's become rather violent.  It really bothers me.  I'm not even talking to her.

I'm annoyed.

My dad thinks he's cool because he thinks his dad comes from a vicious background.

Dream

Hello?

I was dodging constantly and physically fighting my dad's desire to knock me out.  My mom and I were even fighting with him with knives and something else.

There was a scene when I was with her as a little girl.

I dreamed that my thumb had been partially cut off, something I'd known before.  My brother had cut off his 2 middle fingers.

I was fighting my dad for a long time.  It was very hard and very stressful, but I knew it wasn't real but was very annoyed and managed to keep up with the thought of him.

Some people picked me up as we left, one girl with a mom born in 1958, and an older woman.  I was leaving with a boy, immediately, who was shy of his father.

It was so stressful fighting my dad.  We had to let him know we wouldn't really hurt him.

Something ... I forget.  Ah, yes, my grandma.  She was there at the beginning, a bit nasty, but left.

Y O Y

Every time I get under the covers, I get so stimulated?  What's gonna happen in my dream now?

Aw Foo Fooy

I couldn't get out of my sofa.

I take heart pillz. 8|

Story - Ellen's Infamous Misadventures

Once there was a lady named Ellen with a daughter named Teresa.  She was 13 or 14.  She had a sister who was 15 named Chloe.  Ellen hired a babysitter named Christina.  She paid her enough money to get 3 meals a day.  Christina did her homework while she babysitted and then went out to eat and then went to bed.

Ellen was a rich, famous, and powerful witch.  She liked to wear pink, droppy robes with a green sash with a large, ornate clip in the center of it.  Sometimes, she wore a hat and wore boots.  She came home and picked up her youngest daughter and sent her to bed.  She cast a spell on the house and proceeded out with Chloe.  They were investigating a murder.  The criminal was nowhere to be found.  Some demonic birds flew away as they reached the scene.

Christina got a buzz on her computer at 3 A.M. on a Friday, Teresa howling in agony, a pity, poor thing, so meek and squeaky!  She rushed over in the night in her cheap, black sportscar.  Someone jumped out in front of her.  She slammed the breaks and rushed the other way as the person followed.  A local police rode by and caught the victim red-handed.

She reached Ellen's house and brought with her some soup and hot fish.  Then, Teresa ran to the door, when her mother came home, apparently knowing the situation.  Chloe went up to her room.  They all ended up sleeping in Teresa's room.

Christina lived in a little shack on the side of her parents's house.  She helped them with the chores and went to school, taking a low courseload.  She was majoring in Journalism.  Her dad was a banker, and her mom was a cook.  She had a grandmother who knitted clothes but lived far away.

Ellen decided to move where it was safer and invited Christina to come.  Christina kissed her parents good-bye and the chores and went, at least for awhile..  8|

They rode in a covered wagon.  Christina trailed behind with the dog, a silver, fluffy wolf, whose tail wagged like a bell.  They stopped in the midway of a forest in the dead of the night.  Ellen was busy cuddling her youngest daughter, while Chloe looked on..  A big black bear with glowing red eyes appeared, unexpectedly.  Christina threw a log of fire at it.  The other girls flew up a tree.  Christina pushed the bear into the fire until it died.  She proceeded to cut it up and store it for a treat, later.

Ellen gave Teresa a special gift, a silver flute.  She learned to play it.  Chloe had a clarinet.  Christina had a small harp.  Ellen could play the organ.

After 2 weeks of this, they reached their destination.  They were in an urban town in the middle of a salty mass of water.  They found a large cottage to call their home.  Christina had a little place in the bottom by the laundry room.  She set her computer up and finished her General Studies courses online.  She learned to cook for the Rodhines.  She gladly did their towels and fluffed up their beds and sprayed the rooms.  Ellen got a lot of work done.  She worked with the city on hard-to-crack cases.  Her children learned at home for now, but Chloe soon went out and went to a real school.  Teresa went to a Mormon school, where studying was always conducive.  She played flute in the chamber orchestra and was a cheerleader.  They had a big football team.  Chloe played clarinet in the band and took Talented Art.

Work called Ellen away from the city, and she traveled in a hi class method of transportation, a snow rover.  They lived in a cottage like where they used to.  They went to a witch sabbatical, where Ellen was given a proper introduction.  She brought Teresa with her and wrapped her up in a blanket, where she fell asleep.  When she went home, she noticed on the way there was a messed up, run-through area.  Teresa was still asleep, and they ran home safely.  Christina had an assignment and reported on the issue and found out what happened.  Some vampire zombies had roved through looking for something, but they didn't know what.  She had a friend in criminal justice who decided to find the criminals.  Chloe had a concert, and Ellen was watching.  They heard some rummaging outside.  When they went outside, they ran into the zombie vampires.  They ran back in and locked the doors.  "Somebody call the police!" someone said.

Night fell heavy, they turned out the lights, and everyone fell asleep.  They woke up, and the criminals were gone.  The police were on their case.

Christina decided to go home to her parents.  Chloe ended up going to boarding school.  Teresa was getting into her first year of high school.  Ellen kept a close vigil over her.

Ellen went to work one day, and some guys came up to her and she was shocked.  Some people passed by and stopped.  The people went away.

Ellen was a witch, as were a lot of women, but she also was a genuine magician.  She was a lot of other things, too, like a humanitarian, a politician, and a philosopher.  She got into lots of meaty topics nad was quite an activist.  However, she was 53 1|2.  She was still spritely and was attentive to the community, the young, the old, the poor.  She knew lots of people and went to lots of parties but wasn't quite wasted.  She was at a ball one day, and people were all looking at a strange guest.  She took an inkling but passed by.

One day, she went into a house with a lot of older women who judged her and talked to her, and she did fine.  She was wearing tighter clothes of different colors, too.

She went on a retreat with adults her age and younger mostly, and reflected on her life as she took water from the pool.  She was conquering the world.  She appeared in many publications and was the choice name.

She "worked on" her daughter and went to school with her, comforted her about her good performances at concerts.  She let her go alone as a cheerleader.  It always tickled her to have a daughter do something like this.  She went to the final football game and had a corndog.  Her daughter also went to dances and had a nice, glittery lime shirt that draped over and black, soft pants and boots.  She had lighter hair than her.  Her eyes were also lighter and very sparkly.  She was petite.  She went home and sung pop songs on the radio until she fell asleep with her cat, mittens-blu, with pointy ears and a fuzzy body and a foxlike tail and silvery bluish moon eyes that peered into the atmosphere, like the moon over a lake full of swans, with people in the background partying.

Ellen decided to take some courses for a major.  She was majoring in Media Production.

Tweet @TheEllenShow That'll do. ^--^ ~

You should consider looking for a daughter to adopt who is 13 or 14.  You'd have to find one with a mother you like, too.  That must be possible, but they'd have to also have a husband you like.  If you can still have kids, I hope you find a man out there.  I found some interesting ones on MySpace, but they were randomly online.  I think you could do well with just a daughter.

'8|

What do you really think of Florida?

Hurt

I'm literally getting messages that Ellen has to hurt me.  Now, my heart is hurting and I forgot to do my vitamins.

Tweet @TheEllenShow - "Where We Are"

Hey, isn't it important that us people online know what kind of relationship you want with us?  Pressing.  In the silence of the night, because of my parents and the world and you, I get passing fancies that aren't so pleasant because I thought Helena Bonham Carter and people in like an experiment with me wanted me to call her daughter the n word, to make the word seem friendly, and they had called their son gay in public, on the bonus features of Sweeney Todd, well technically Helena saying Tim told her that because he listens to Judy Garland...

I did venture out and see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  I never really watched talk shows.  I didn't think they were something you did all the time.  It's like with fucking Nightmare Before Christmas, people at like you have to be ready like you and Tim Burton are better than everyone else just because you're from the class of 1957-1958.

On another note, no, I don't want to play like it's okay to hurt me because of that n word thing.  My life is already ruined, and I don't think I'll get it back unless by a good chance or the passing of my fate.  This goes to everyone!  :0

Well, yes, I did see the good movies that were out.  I didn't know about the minor ones.  I never had time, when I got that age and we moved.

Your show is rather obscure to me, but somehow I got drift of the nature of it and its magnitude or convenience..  ':|  I guess I'm just like everyone else compared to you and Tim Burton.  Too bad he isn't old enough to be your husband.  '8|  It wouldn't be very romantic.  He already has 2 kids.  I don't know why, but I like them.  I mean, he's a little edgy.  It's become quite public and quite an issue, his private life.  I've seen the signs..

So, I made a board for you because I got interested in your show, and I have one section that ropes of oldies from newbies.  I posted in the newbie part.  There's also a section for wannabe actors, where I'd want to post.  I'm just not ready.  I'd been having problems, with my health..  8|  I was thinking of waiting, before.  I'm not really sure how to get back to where I was, so I might just go jump of a cliff.

YOU'RE NOT GETTING AWAY WITH THIS, AS THOUGH YOU DIDN'T DO IT

I was mad and the word nigger came up.

I was thinking of my dad and thought of bonking him on the head, just to get it out, and realized that's what he did to me, knocked me out.

I came online and I got the thought of me being like pervertedly channeled knocked out.

My Grandma and My Aunt

I know lately they've been making me feel uncomfortable in my day-to-day acitivities.

Something My Aunt Has in Common With My Cousin

Hey, hey, do you want me to bother you some more?  I'll creep up on you when we visit.

My Aunt

My aunt comes off as kinda mean.  Always been called bossy.  Intruding.

Wow.

I just tried to stimulate myself, but it didn't happen.  8|

My Brother

I thought maybe my brother wanted me to put up the best picture of him I could find.  I found him on my YouTube, too.  But that's not important.  You may run into it.

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People Who Have Watched Her Show the Most fans! 8D

ellen

Leave me alone!

How dare you?  How important do you think you are?

Message in a Bottle

You know, your messages will build up.

What do you think of always getting useless messages?

I tagged my last post.

*Nasty*

What do you think of people who are constantly nasty to you?

Deal

What do you think of people who don't know how to deal with things?

How Gay?

Someone really can't get a grip.  I've totally like lost my connection with my thoughts.  No use getting on my case like some gay phony.

Disgusting :p

It looks like you've arranged yourself unfairly around me to make me attest to certain things that shouldn't be.

One Direction

What do you think of noticing certain extremities of generations that don't really match specifically and saying it doesn't apply to another?

Tim Burton!

Ever since Tim Burton was popular, people expected like everything to be perfect for them, no matter what they were and that everything didn't matter and now it does.  =0

Undercover

Do you know people who go undercover and pop up later?

Dream

I remember now in the one earlier today, the frog|cat was saying think I can't pick you up by your feet a few times and stimulated me a few times there and then I felt like a baton.

Who do you think you are?

Who goes by and pieces together the feeling of some sensation that shouldn't be?  And then uses it to govern the mood and doings?  Just to abuse one person, clearly, over others.  We all make mistakes.  Who do you think you are?

Website

I added back the pages on Highlights and Updates

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So, I'm kinda tired.. :/

I just had some sweets, too.  I need to eat a better variety of food.  Pizza?

Hey!

I'm having problems thinking of something special to me!  What uptight-

So, are you okay?

I just was upset.  I don't think I meant to curse certain people out, but I guess something happened.  Wait, maybe, it did really happen.  It might not have been on purpose  :|

...

I try not to curse at you again but probably will in some way.  I just hope nothing happens to make me want to.  It's my blog.  It's my privacy.

Cursing is not the center of attention.  It's something people do to be funny and when they don't know what to say and when they're used to it.  I know I didn't go to the grocery store one week and was eating a lot of hamburgers and then got mad on my blog.  :(  I think I had cursed before, in general.

I see now I didn't do anything nasty like call anyone shit outright, recently.  I said I was being treated like shit.  :|

Well, the proof is in the pudding, try to erase the memory.  :|

Dream

I don't remember it all at the moment, but Celine Dion was in it.  Ah yes.  I was wrapping Christmas presents.  So far, I just had thin slices of chocolate.  I went off to some place to look at like a stand that you rotate of goods.  My mom advised me and someone like my grandma was there to help me.  Ah yes, I was in like a church and someone was singing like Celine Dion, and sometimes I sang along.  Celine Dion was watching.  I think it was "Call the Man."  I got attention, and she handed something to me, like in a chapel on the side, to let me in on like a joke of what I really wanted to do.  That and the singing were the peak.  Supposedly, I was a really good singer.  The rotating thing was outside.  It had something to do with putting things in cards, too, red ones with like red and green and white cards.

A snack and back to bed maybe.

}:0 What's your problem?

Yes, I got up!  I got up to say I don't want to feel my father nor disgusting people when I'm trying to feel in bed!  What's your problem?

Proven Stupid

I got the idea that, blatantly, my dad thought he was like right and better than everyone else or something I forget oh yea and he doesn't care how he treats other people, like pointing out nice ones, thinking he's smart and moving things along.  I'm so sick of this.  I wanted to grow up in the west, in Hollywood.  I don't throw away my experiences.  }:)  Like, he thinks that like I'm worse than shit and it seems others think I'm not even a nigger, but that's not true and that didn't have to happen.  Like, I get the feeling he's staring others down, and he doesn't know it.  We shouldn't give in to shit like that.  I hate you all!  I'm just gonna *beep* you!

I need to fix my site.

Halp!

I'm going through the thought of broken up from what I imagined like a concentration on the eyes, in relation to a picture of a girl with white hair with seedy, lazy eyes I put on on my Twitter.  }80

Back to Bed 8)

The Good Feeling in My Arm

I know I think I could feel it, but I guess watching a girl after talking about Tim Burton helped.  The influence of a girl who wants to touch me more personally always helps.  :|

Yea, the feeling was so strong.  I felt it so long but sorta broken up.

What?

Why do I keep getting these sassy messages?  I'm being treated like shit, like holding out, with no respect.  You think I have no discipline, but I've tried to be disciplined since I can remember.  Well, maybe since my mom disciplined me, too.  I think I was before, though.  Peopel always said I was outta this world like too shy and good.  How dare you make such racist suggestions!  If something happens and there's a reason, by other people that means I'm right.  You'll find there are more than one reason.  It does make me uncomfortable.  :|

Halp!

I'm being bombarded with messages, like associating things together that I don't like that will come up later.  I'm being born into to like think when I'm tired, and it's not hard to wonder why I'm tired of thinking!  ':0

What's going on?

Why do I keep getting messages of things being physical and literal but having no meaning?

Dream

So, I still had a place open where I could find out about singing.  Tim got Johnny there, and I couldn't open him, a silver thing in a bottomless abyss.  I walked down a hallway and decided not to fly, and the people saw me.  They were saying I was dead.

A girl had come in and ate lunch.  I said that I bloated and couldn't feel good lying on my stomach or something when I didn't eat.  Someone else was eating, too.  I had a bar.  I even had a container of bars.  There were some bars sitting in a container somewhere else.  The ones somewhere else were jelly.  The ones in my bag were chocolate.  I got some other kind.  I think the other girls had something like jelly.

I'm not sure if it was a pirate song.  I think I imagined myself singing it.  It was with a choir.  I was simply a skilled or pleasant singer.  I'm not really, but I put in a lot of effort.

It was interesting when the teacher came in and seemed so dreamy and adamant about me for some, strange reason.  She was rather petite yet gross and not really appealing.  Well, she was in front, but her attitude was sly.  I mean on the surface!

N Word Thing

I'm thinking, oh well, at least that's over, but you know, it's not okay.  This all happened since the n word thing.

The Real Deal

I'm tired of the fascinations of others in the world like that England and L.A. do the real thing as in torturing you, and they're perverted, demented individuals.

White People

Do they have to go through assimilating to other non-white cultures?

Weird

I noticed that some people get mad they can't do things others do, racially, and then that they get mad when you want to do what they do, like as something new in your life.

"Problems"

You can't go wild like an animal thinking you have to do all these things no one else does.

You literally don't have shit on the n word thing.

You can't like get really mad about someone saying something smart that makes me feel smart, say it's okay, and then say it's not okay.

You can't act all goofy and submissive to someone chosing a punishment for me.

You know, this person is really gay about how the world treats them.  They say they were nice, but everyone knows they're not.  They'll bark back a simple answer because they're stupid about family and probably other things...

8|

What's with all the showing off about being from the more west part of the U.S.?

Dream

I guess most people would be interested, when I was going into convulsions it was so gross and so horrific and realistic.

Also, when my arm was being felt for over like a long period of time, it was hard to describe, maybe what you'd expect.  I know it was very warm and physical and distant.  I was really standing up somewhere else.  I guess you get the picture?  It's not realy about sitting there and having someone give you pleasure, and that's the idea I'm getting you're thinking.  It's about something with meaning, like a clasic book.

Also, I woke up with the feeling of lots of tiny cries of horror about their babies being ruined but with people caring, actually.

Dream

I was imagining the frog|cat being a girl with sculpted pearly hair, and in the end I felt better.  I was trying to imagine how she was stimulated and got cut off.

Before I went to bed, I think I got mad and turned over thinking hysterically but not really that everyone else's eggs should be ruined, and I kept getting the reverberating feeling that people cared.  I'm still left with that feeling.

Dream

I was singing a pirate song in like a theater group.  I guess there was a leader like Ellen, but it wasn't like really her, just for some reason was becoming like her.  I was eating lunch.  For some reason, I was laying on the ground, with my left arm stretched out and my palm facing the floor.  It was interesting.  I guess the teacher was like a frog.  I could feel as though someone was like strangely putting their hands all over my arm from the hand up to my shoulder getting me to wake up to do the singing.  I didn't wake up.  That's happened to me before.

So, the bad thing is when I woke up, I had the strange sensation my left egg sack, which I thought was for a boy, was splitting up like little black seeds.  Someone really has a problem.  You know, I don't really care about different people and their first encounter moving to a place where I have original heritage.  You can't corner me in my bedroom while I'm trying to relax and soak in feelings.  All this happened because of the n word thing..  I don't care about the things you make up and htat you think you're all hovering over me and supposedly smarter and worth ... whatever I just got interrupted by the text moving.  Anyway, I waslying on my couch and heard a tick and felt that my right egg sack eggs were like blowing up like balloons.  How gay!  Just because I was teasing on my blog.  You couldn't handle it, none of you, and seeped into my private relations, sending me messages.  Some of you I don't want this relationship with.  8I  Then, I got the idea of someone under the guise of someone else saying something like, "Just doo it to do it."  Then, I felt that the eggs were little black seeds.  I don't care what you feel for my dad.  Whatever.

So, then, for some reason I had to propel myself further in my dream to imagine this frog, which turned into like an orange striped cat, kinda ugly and fake, picking me up with my hips secreuly loded at its side.  The gross part was then like I was on the floor again and it tried to stimulate me by picking me up at my neck.  It carried me away and then did something else even more perverted I don't remember.  I just was't moving.

Anyway, I woke up.  I felt as though I was in like a knit pink top, squirming around in horror suddenly at the vivid detail of the eggs, as though I were a kid.  I was really lying still.

So, I'm worried about the eggs in my egg sack.  I sorta felt the feeling like in front of it.  I was thinking of killing myself, not that I'd do it.

The gross thing that happened to me I guess was that I got an image of the evil cat walking away with me, small, on a gray path and background.  I stayed in my bed, despite the attack.  I just kept feeling stimulated at my private.

Advice

(Remember to get equipment.  I have dumbbells for my main workout DVD, and often a band or block is needed.)

Tweet @TheEllenShow 80 Wanna know a secret...

Do you wanna know a secret?  I was gonna eat more healthily, and then I got mad and punched my wall and my mom took me to get my blackheads taken out and it ruined my brain.  I never got the schedule going.

When People Raise From the Dead

Did you ever think of the repercussions of what happens after your actions?

I want to figure out what it was.

Who killed my grandma? *<=0

Halp!

I keep getting pangs of artificial bossiness and rubbing in of related ideas.

Halp!

My aunt keeps coming up.

Chloe Moretz

She is weird online.  8I

All Negativity

Now, everything in my life is negative because of the hysterics of the older adults in my life!  :0

Private Facebooks

That would be one way of sharing media.  }:)  Why not sell it?  I guess we can't copyright it.

Music on the Net

I have one understanding that it's legal.  I know some karaoke companies have taken down my work.  I mean, we could load our videos like onto Flickr.

Judgemental

Ellen: taunting, sassing, judgemental.

Who'd have known?  Why does she think she's right?  She's a bit on the dry side.  :p

My dad is a sicko.

He thinks that he has to do something important and life-changing like his youngest sister to prove his worth to an Asian.  Don't even get started with the sister who is older than her.

Sensations

Who doesn't believe in experiencing a totally different sensation at different times, that things you thought were true weren't, like in different ways?  Why do I get that feeling?  What culture can it be attributed to?  Mostly the New Orleans area, but it's nice and sheltered here in Orlando.  New Olreans or the area is pretty sheltered, too.

wtf?

Why would you have to be a certain person to do something good?  Who thinks being attractive is prematurely overrated and dead?

Tweet @TheEllenShow Emergency!

Ellen!  :0  Take a loot, or somebody, ... yea.  Look at this.  I was famous for posting to Johnny Depp and then Tim Burton and this attractive boy from England.. and then I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word!  :0  Look at this, a real human being, moved fresh for a few years, trapped in her room, from the New Orleans area, where Ellen is from.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YrU46x_1MzY&feature=share&list=PLA20D6DC196532325

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iSJQN8dxMRY&feature=share&list=PLA20D6DC196532325

So, just act stupid?

So, just act stupid randomly and that's productive?

Tweet @delena000fan @TheEllenShow - Twitter Like A Bird

I don't remember for sure.  I think I started on Twitter just to get an account.  Here's my first account: http://twitter.com/ChrstinaBarrett.  I think I later might have posted for fun but maybe not.  I looked up Chloe Moretz after I saw Justin Bieber on "The David Letterman Show."  Eventually, I found Ellen.  I guess I've taken to it.

Tweet - What were you for Halloween?

0 - nothing
1 - nothing
2 - ?
3 - pumpkin
4 - elephant
5 - butterfly? - homemade costume used for school
6 - bat - just pants and a shirt with material under the arms and a picture on the front of like a moon with little bats, glow-in-the-dark, used to wear it to bed until it got too small, not too too long after
7 - dragon
8 - pumpkin
9 - indian (old costume from Thanksgiving festival, couldn't see my belly)
10 - Dorothy (jean jumper, white T-shirt, straw hat from dress I think, & I think basket from nearby shop in nation's oldest continuing city in Northeastern Florida)
11 - Dorothy (different jean jumper, white T-shirt, straw hat from dress I think, & I think basket from nearby shop in nation's oldest continuing city in Northeastern Florida)
12 - cat-witch (shirt I wore to Frankenweeenie & mini skirt I bought with partial pigtails & regular makeup with very red lipstick, black casual socks with lines & mini boots - I liked wearing boots a lot since I became old-fashioned when I was 9 in 1995, stopped when I became 20)
13 - probably the same thing
14 - not sure, maybe an indian
15 - fairy costume I had just finished with a green patterned cotton material and long sleeves slit up the sides, short dress wtih zig zags
16 - probably an indian
17 - ?
18 - nothing?
19 - my red hood
20 - glow-in-the-dark skeleton - was supposed to go to a step class in my costume, raving for events since..
21 - Elizabeth Swann, the Asian costume, colorful, like I think turquoise and red with maybe beady things, with a hat, probably wore sneakers or something - reached all the apartments in a building and some others but not my own, was so tired when I was done and stopped going out after that forever! until I went to the mental hospital...
22 - probably nothing
23 - probably nothing
24 - I forget. :(
25 - a short yellow dress with a cap like a milkmaid I got locally with my dad, think he paid for it

My mom goes trick-or-treating with me.  :|

RE4 8D

*link*

Tweet @TheEllenShow Madonna

Wow, she's probably one of the most accomplished names, out there..  Johnny Depp is the best-kept secret. }:)  Chloe Moretz worked with him.  It seems scary to work with someone born around 1957-1961.  Tim Burton is scary because he's from L.A., well, Burbank.  My dad worked at banks named Barnett and Hibernia, until moving to Orlando.  My friend didn't like me when she found my last name was Barrett.  I've heard it's a popular last name.  My other last names are Barrett-Donahue-Noon, Barber-Work, Barber-Burkhart-Kifer, Work-Mortimer, Work-Long & Work-Shultz, Rickard.   Ugh!  Maybe, I'll put up links to their origins...  Anyway, Madonna is pretty clean.  She's fun yet uptight.  I don't know.  I was brave enough to approach Tim Burton.

* Lovely *

link

So, she's like up to 12?

*Haphazard!* Aha! Ha! Ha! 8D

So, you do things without thinking and then find it is a big deal later and that you don't really do things like that much.

^ Twitter ^

So, I wonder if I should change my heading, sometime.  Nah.  Well, maybe someday?

FB

After-Effect

What do you think about getting a message and later it having an after-effect?  8|

Ah! Finished IMDb! 3D

So, I caught up on some posts.  8|

testing

Dream

It's hard to remember my whole dream.  At the end, there was a German boy, tall and thin, with reddish blonde hair and blue eyes and white skin, a long face.  We were in an audience.  He was mad at Tim Burton not for being nice to someone who was Asian but for presenting the world with it in an Asian way.  He had a stack of pancakes in front of him.  Authorities were locking him away.  He seemed so nice to be nice to the Asian and was so adamant he was correct.  There were other German girls in my dream and on TV and like filming speaking in English accents.  I was catching something that was a spin off Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and recording it.  It was also about going to the grocery store with mind ad and relatives.  In the final scene, I think we were singing.  Everyone got a guitar in front of them, I think people who could play, like attached to the ceiling somehow.  I went down to the bathroom and was thinking of how I did piano and things related to it and marched back out to see them.  Also, I earlier, I was fitting in size 4 pants with my aunt.  It was my 2nd try.  I was going to different bathrooms, like I'd dreamed of them before.  I finally found one open in a back section witha  man and girl cleaning in front.  Oh yes, and at the end, my mom was walzing to get me for my father like a police.  She didn't seem presentable but was still her.  She was but not like physically.  I was annoyed because I liked the German boy but not like as in specially to want to marry him nor be his girlfriend.

Sick! 80

Too much bad food.  I did do lower, upper, and mid core workouts and jogged.  Time for bed.

Hey, back off! You can't do that. '}:[

If I call you a nigger, which I don't, you can't like molest my children.

Niggers

Who thinks everything has to be like painstakingly planned out, like every inch of your body is gayly calculated, and like only you're apparently on target?  It's in a weird way.  Like, you start out a lard of fat or something, literally.  Or bearing that in mind, for some reason.  Ah, yes, my point was that nothing is like robotic.  No one is perfect, and we all have a right to do what we've been doing.  I'm pretty much tired of all the discipline from the n word thing.

Afterthoughts

Ellen is really weird.

Or who all is?

I got the message that someone says something and then you deal with it.  You deal with other things in life, and therefore this takes its place, though it doesn't.  Then, after awhile, you get in trouble.  It's as though you did something minutely imperfect.  It's not really exciting, neither.  You know, it's not funny to play that I'm wrong.

Jewish Ethnicity

I guess Ellen is a weird Jewish mix, but lots of people have a mom with a Jewish last name.

Tim Burton :|

Why does Ellen like to act cool and make things seem extreme?  Is it a part of her past?  Just some way to be and show off yet not be able to relate and therefore have problems you hide?  Burton is like that.  :|

Wtf?

Why did people baby people born 1957-1961?  I feel like flying outta my chair!

Isn't it annoying?

Always sassing people back?

I feel kinda like I'm going crazy.  I'm not sure why, neither.

What's your problem?

Why are people cozying up to Nell Burton?

From now on...

Excuse me, miss know-it-all?  From now on, if anything happens, it's your fault.

Details

People who weren't born in Florida, don't care about details.

Jimmy Fallon 8D

link

Wow, that was interesting.  He's pretty hot compared to Ellen, but it doesn't make Ellen appear any hotter.  I guess I have to start recording his show, but I like watching them in my room and am waiting for a recording device.

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facebook

What Goes Bump in the Night

So, how do you keep from ruining egg sacks?  You don't know what goes bump in the night.

Being Low

Why does Ellen like to be so low?

Ugh!

Did you know Ellen is obsessed with that her mom's last name is Jewish?

Website Update

My Babies! =0

I liked a boy my freshman year of high school, and he never kept in contact with me.  I met a boy online, but now he's not gonna get with me.

Wait, why do I keep thinking everything is her fault?

Ellen is violent.  She can't keep promises.  Oh, and I guess some people don't keep secrets.  I don't have any respect.  People are gay over the little times I'm not perfect.

"Ew!" "Wait, what?"

So, Ellen, ... is she so smart she figures everything out?  Stuff anyone could figure out.  Things that are bound to happen.  Wait, shouldn't I delete that?  I don't know why I shouldn't.  People will know I thought it, I know.

Anyway, I realized my brother is technically fairer but doesn't seem inherently so because older babies need more stimulation from the mom.

Halp!

In the end, Ellen will ruin your babies.

She just sucks up to older Baby Boomer men.

Website Update

Old Antsy Farts

I'm tired of this bullshit.  (I meant to say old, antsy people, but I don't know why I said, "farts."  I know it's a word...)

WILL YOU SHUT UP, WHOEVER YOU ARE?

Right now, I blame Ellen.  No, I'm not gonna talk to ugly people because you're too *beep* about me calling someone the n word because they wanted me to, I thought and still think.

I'm GONNA *BEEP*

I'm sitting here all day, talking to Baby Boomers about their crap with me.  '}:[

I WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE!

Go ruin someone else's egg sack.

I added that to my website.

Why I Said That

I meant to say old, antsy people, but I don't know why I said, "farts."  I know it's a word.

Website Update - Highlights

Highlights

Never Reaching a Point

When I reach a point, people are randomly reacting meanly to me.

Why is Ellen so violent?

Also, now, the topic is how are parents are better than us.

Website Updates - Highlights

Highlights

Old Antsy Farts

I'm tired of this bullshit.

Website Update - Highlights

Highlights


Chemical Reaction

I notice people are always throwing me in and making me think of all sorts of things to make problems more complicated and more boring.

*lights - camera - action! :0*

This is me typing.  I like to type.  :)  Do you like to type, too?  How much do you like to type?  :)

Website Update - Highlights

Highlights

On Guard

I'm constantly on guard for feeling in certain areas and in certain ways, physical like bubbles of energy.  I've felt the presence of a lot of pressure though myself do not feel the actual pressure itself.  It's often difficult to contain and control and takes a lot of effort and work.  Sometimes, I forget about it.

Website Update - Highlights

Highlights


Johnny Depp & Tim Burton

I'm not gonna be testy like the people he worked with on "21 Jump Street."

Tim Burton thinks he's onto me, and people think he "can't do it, too."

*Strength*

Don't you think it's better to have the strength of being white?

Website Update - Advice

Advice

I recommend jogging regularly to keep up your health.  You also need a workout DVD and|or workouts at the gym for your upper body strength and body toning.  I can't imagine people who never do this.

Nu Website Update - Highlights

Highlights


Catching People Naked

Can you believe the liberty people are taking since the n word thing?

Website Update - Highlights

Highlights

Website Updates!

Updates

Highlights

Insane

My dad is really going insane.  He thinks his work and kids aren't worth it.

People are barking and thinking kids who are younger than me deserve more respect for what they do for some reason.

They think everything says they're cool and others aren't, like it's impossible for anyone to make a breakthrough in this day and age.

New Page of Updates

Updates

Update on My Writing

Website

Nu Videos of Me Being Uploaded

1 done & 5 of me eating

YouTube

}:D

Baby Boomers -00-

So, no matter what you do, Baby Boomers are better.

Overly Bearing }:D

People are so protective, like knights, over people born 1957-1961.

These designs are $130.

*link*

You aren't cool.

Stop being so flashy.

Tim Burton ^--^

What did Tim Burton ever do to deserve anything?

Wow, you're really nasty.

You just can't stop feeling good, huh?

Leave me alone! :0

So, go ahead and save your kids but leave me alone!

Your Kids

So, why do you think your kids's generation suffers things from mine but is better in every way?

Gay

Should we avoid people born around 1960 and 1950?

WTF is your probbob! :0

Why get mad at me for getting mad I've been made to be shit?

Mystery in Life

Some people are left with no mysteries.  They think you have to concretely think some thing and then it happens.  WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?  Wait.  '8|  You think this is funny?  That's not the way it is, that's just what you think.  You haven't proved any facts.  Maybe, you people don't think and act.  I don't want to be made fun of for having an imagination because I think lots of people have something of an imagination.  Why are you so into what I did in the past and like admitting things and that I'm not all that?  Why do you believe that people deserve things like class?  You think that we're all to be as poor as we ever were or something?

AH!

I keep getting taunted by people with older parents and born around 1960!  I want to *beep* you!  Why?  Oh, that idea was put in my head.  Why don't you notice what I write?  Who the Hell is taking this in?

I don't think people born in 1960 are sacred, in that way, nor that anyone thinks they should be.

Oh, and stop being gay.

Why do I keep hearing that I'm shit??

Please stop.

Please stop being prejudiced against my health because of my generation.  My dad is born in 1950.  Why should I go into this crap?  You've created fantasies where I'm supposed to be shit for you.  I hear it in the silence of the night.  If it's so interesting, maybe that "says" something I think I hope it wouldn't say.  You wouldn't do this to your own kids.

Off.

I'm aware people born in 1949, men, can be sexy, but I don't know about females born in 1948, rather show-offs.  Honestly...

See, you still think I'm shit, no matter what I say.  You think that you're really smart and powerful.  You think you know everything about me, but you make me have a bad life.

Wow, I'm really mad at the people born around 1960 getting everything.  What can I say for people born in 1950?  It's probably not their fault, but like they could have been different.

Tweet @TheEllenShow

Ah!  I just wrote this, but it's kinda stupid.

So, I thought my life was an experiment.  (Ah, I'm antsy and agitated for a certain reason but will post about this for now.  :|  )  It went well, at first.  I felt like really smart and it was really fascinating.  I learned later that it had been an experiment all along and that I was to have a new life.  I never had that life.  I got madder and madder because I didn't have that life and my privacy was being taken.  I didn't really like anyone.  I grew to learn that well I would and that the world was more complex and magic, pretty much, very vast and multi-faceted, like maybe endless.  I didn't think people were real, and some sorta paranormal things happened to me.  I couldn't do the music history course up north.  So, I was sent home.  The next semester, the construction workers bothered me.  I wasn't given a refund and all right away.  Before, I wanted a chance to redo my courses, but no such luck.  Then, I felt tortured by clicks in my ear as I was walking like I would commit suicide.  I didn't tell anyone but about similar things.  This was the next semester.  When I was in 11th grade, I didn't think to get out of the class enough to convince myself to do it.  They acted like I wasn't good enough, and I wouldn't have as good a teacher.  That wasn't why I stayed.  I thought each night I'd get my homework done in time but didn't.  I stayed up way late.  So, I was kicked out of singing and music education to begin with, and that's why I couldn't concentrate.  It's like I was called a nigger.  Also, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  So, I was in general studies, which was harder than honors.  I went into Pre-Med Chem to be a Psychiatrist.  Biology was hard, with an Asian teacher.  Physics was the easiest, like Philosophy, which was way easy.  Well, the Physics labs were easiest.  So were the Chemistry labs.  There were no Biology labs.  I wish I did Biology II instead of Chemistry in high school.  I don't know if anyone did that as a substitute.  So, yea, I guess I began to deppreciate it.  In the end, I was just being brutalized by everyone I knew not telling me why.  I think it was for flunking, but my major was taken away.  I was crawling up to the Loyola office to get back, but they were mean and racist and stupid.  That was what I wanted.  True, I was thinking of not even going to college in the back of my mind when I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was coming out.  I was thinking of changing majors after a year, but I couldn't concentrate when my major was taken away forcibly.  They said I was sneaky, the music education person from Wisconsin.  I didn't make the first audition, for maybe music composition on piano and voice.  I wasn't prepared for voice and was trembling a lot.  I snatched back my resume.  I got in the 2nd time for piano and later organ.  I got the 2nd highest scholarship academically.  I started off a 4.0 student but had that bad semester.  I didn't really do as well in 12th grade.  I got a 4.0 at the Baptist school, though.  So, yea, I can't read what I just wrote, but you get the picture.

How gay! Why is everyone torturing me for not being perfect?

Dream

There was a huge school.  I was wandering around a gift shop with some African American girls working who were set there.  I was looking at all these things.  I found a small watch for $4 that was pink and black and fuzzy.  It changed in the end.  It had like a skinny square head.  I also was thinking of getting a purse for like $9 that was a backpack that changed the Disney characters, like once was like Goofy and Pluto.  It was like dark green and checkered.

It was dangerous.  We were being chased when we didn't get out of the store and to class.  We made it, me and a friend.  I was trying to imagine seeing Ellen as the teacher, but it was hard.  I imagined lots of other people in the way I see details on my own.  It was kinda colorful, bright, like a sherbert, bright pastel.  It was like a game show.

Well, for some reason, I was still having weird thoughts, but nothing weird happened.

There was more to this dream, but I don't remember.

My thoughts weren't really too weird... maybe, but I was trying to suppress them.  I was just concentrating on making it interesting.  I guess the most interesting part was being attacked.  I imagined the monster was there and I was just sitting there 80 like oh no.  I imagined some perverted things, like an attack, and shapeshifting until something was an Oriental dragon but not too unattractive.  There was another shapeshifting part that wasn't bad.  I think there was also a part where we were eating.  It was like a big cafe at school.  I don't remember it well, this time, but I've dreamed of school cafes that were nice, a lot.

Why do people get so mad at me feeling good!

Tweet @TheEllenShow

The reason I'm eating so much is because I was thinking of my aunt and other people when they ate lots of juicy, good food.

Also, I should add my body feels kinda hollow but also in a weird way I don't like.  It seemed okay, eating just some healthy food.  When I got off track, eating like that felt disgusting.  So, now, I added bread.  I still just put one spice on my meat and vegetable.  I'm also eating sweets.  I went for like 2 years not really always eating sweets much at all and no snacks except like I guess that my parents left out Cheez-Its and also pretzels.  I guess I started picking out unhealty burgers.  Also, I was eating at Cracker Barrel a few weeks ago, and I realized I wanted to keep eating like that and so did.  That was the big change, the real reason.  I like the biscuits most and also the cornbread.  Last time I ate there, it was easier to eat because I was mad, but I didn't taste the food so much.  Also, I never liked milk and when I was mad I didn't taste it.  I was with my dad both times.  Well, I like chocolate milk but sometimes didn't.

Tweet @TheEllenShow

I do enjoy your show a lot day to day.

Tweet @TheEllenShow cont.

I guess I'm gonna try to go to bed earlier.  I'm not sure what would keep me up other than being restless.  I also want to watch some Halloween shows or at least paranormal shows, maybe more paranormal shows I want to watch.  I did want to go to Halloween parties.  I have been since 2006.  I could have gone to a step class for Halloween that year but didn't.  I was a glow-in-the-dark skeleton.  I was gonna get a Halloween or ghost book but have to wait to put money on my credit card if I do get one.  I was supposed to go out tonight but am not.  However, my dad is getting me food.  :|  I mean, don't plan on me watching your show.  I proably will watch it every day again starting Monday and watching the recordings if they recorded.  I will still read your posts online.  I also plan to improve my online life and talk to the other people who post to you.

Tweet @TheEllenShow Sick!

I didn't watch your show on Monday|Tuesday, thinking it was a rerun.  I realized maybe you filmed it sometime last week.  Same with Wednesday.  Thursday, I wasn't feeling well and slept in.  Today, I guess I slept in, again.  I'm finding, going to sleep at around 4|5|6 A.M., now, for some reason, I'm waking up not around 3 P.M. but around 12|13 hours later and then not feeling like doing anything important...  :|  Like, I'll just have some bagels and maybe a meal.  Somehow, my night wears on.  The thing is I'm supposed to be getting a device in which I can record your show in my own room, but I don't know when it'll arrive yet and will ask my dad.  So, I'll go to the grocery store or something, apparently, or be eating out and then come home, maybe post myself on YouTube and exercise.  I'll be ready to go to bed but stay up all night on Twitter or something, like I used to, and IMDb some, depending.  So, I hope to catch up on your shows, at least watch what's online.  Maybe, my schedule will change and I'll feel better.  I just realized I'm eating more now and that's why I feel tired.  I'm not really much bigger.  Gotta go!

Back to Bed

Dream

I was sitting in a light room.  There was a lady asking questions.  It was catering to ballerinas.  She never picked on me.

Also, I was upset at my dad and aunt.  I was having something done to my eyes.  The lady put liquid in her nose and then put it in my eyes.  Then, she never put in the eye drops, just that dark goo.  Then, a girl came in without a top.  I was getting the picture I was being punished and something about not being communicated to in the right way.

I was in the room with people answering questions based on what it's like to do ballet.  I was with my dad.  It was a light room with dainty tables.  We were about to go on a ride.

Before that, I was in a scene with a professor, like talking to him on Twitter.  I told him philosophy was easy for me.  He was talking about someone with my name.

Why O Why O Why

My dad won't stop making everything I think painful.  Well, he's nice sometimes, but I know my mom uses that as a trap.  Why are people able to wave a magic wand with me, particularly him?

Halp!

I'm still haunted by an ad I saw, thinking of Ellen DeGeneres, of a creepy tall, thin black lady like folding up a laptop!

Why is there so much focus on how I'm a nigger-

it wuz

the wrong page, showed up that way

fixed the link

Songs 30

*link*

A Foo'!

Why am I dictated a foo' to have a father bo'n in 1950!

Cleaning

So, I was just cleaning up some things, might get rid of things, too.  Maybe, find a place to put things, like in my old bedroom in the closet.  I'm looking forward to Halloween.  =^,,^=~

Being Physical

People only trust people from physical places like northern U.S. and from the Baby Boom era.  You have to be in the moment, like fighting all these things on the inside from the outside and covering every thought somehow, maybe pinpointing things.

How I Used to Eat :|

Well, when I was like 12, 13, 14, I used to have 1 or 2 bagels with butter for breakfast.  Now, I have like 4 with a good amount of cream cheese.  It's onion bagels with flavored cream cheese.  I'm this week having beef and squash or spinach.  I have biscuits available.  I'm having swirly, yummy Italian ice.  I have other desserts, quite a variety, but it's not a gingerbread house, exactly.  =}  I guess I'll get more fish next time.  I like the big fish with the skin you peel off.  I have some other leftover fish I need to freeze.  xp  I also have to go out and iron.  The laundry's stopped up, I think.

...

I just cleaned the food from my room, today|yesterday.

Now, I just have the rest to clean, maybe even get rid of stuff, again, have to social network better.  I'm pretty sure I'm staying on Blogger, but the categories is nice and for some reason I like to keep updates in a section.  The free website makers are unreliable.

New Video of Me Talking W|o Makeup 8|

Showing you my disgusting toes.  Oh, and w|o a bra.

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*crackle*

Oohhh xp

I cut my toe shaving!  80  I feel kinda disgusting.  I'm a bit fat.  I mean, I'm working out every day, again.  I started eating bagels and cream cheese. '8|  Also, now it's beef stuff and squash or spinach.

I'm loading a video of me talking and you'll see, but I'm not wearing a bra!  80

*See you all, a little later...*

Hair Color

As I was going about the grocery store, I realized I was strong because I had black hair.  I saw a brunette, later.

*nu video of me talking*

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5 of Me Singing Coming Up

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Halloween Costume

I got my Halloween costume, but it didn't come with the boots.  :|  It came with things to snap on your legs, but they'd fall off, well velcrow.  I'm lucky I finally snug the hat.  It's a Medium|Large and fits me just right|tight but not too tight.  I guess I should keep doing core workouts, maybe find a special DVD on it.  :D

People up North Who Move Down South

Why do they go by a "feeling" and when that "feeling" hits as and feels true, why do they deny any reasoning?  Is that feeling really true because it seems only ideal for them.  8|

Show-Offs

People from up north show off and don't tell you the whole story.  They just present you with a problem.  If you have a problem, shouldn't you contact authorities or medical professionals?  I'm worried, for real.  This is my life!  :0  I'm going to eat.

What do you think?

What do you think of the fact that agreeing to enter a relationship you deserve respect more than people checking in on you for talking to someone you don't like?  And I do mean being nasty because you feel antsy and think maybe people will brutalize them anyway, though it's your fault it happened.  In my case, I'm concerned, that when certain people post online, people become suggestive and stimulating in a bad way, how undignified!

Dream

It wasn't too interesting.  I was in bed stimulating myself, and someone said to my dad a Vietnamese boy wants to come in and sit on your shoulders.  I was left alone, and the back door I was hoping was closed.  I didn't feel like getting up so really felt stimulated in a bad way.  It was a long time.  Then, someone picked me up, like a little girl, and I felt better.

Worthy of Their Mother

Do you know anyone who is worthy of their mother, who is not a fat turd?

R - E - S - P - E - C - T 80

It used to be my life was Tim Burton, and my parents had a reserve.  Since the n word thing, they've come into it in both cool and annoying ways, now relentlessly by my dad, rather than the sacredness of my mom.

I post online. 8|

I found a hub posting about Johnny Depp and Tim Burton for years, all day.

TV

Well, I was busy doing homework.

I also was connected to being authentic in various ways, which consumed me!  BD

Right to Watch a Show

I wonder how much other people have watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I mean, it seems people have claimed to watch her show every day since it started.  It worries me because I don't think they've posted online.

Get Real

Why would you make a mistake if you didn't really have a problem?

Ellen runs the risk of her right to look cool, fairly.

Why are Baby Boomers so in the moment?  They don't know how to disconnect themselves from the environment, become a person, and think about something and figure out details and solve tings!

Really Annoyed

f someone does something tacky, I don't want to get the repercussions of it.  Nor does anyone else want it to creep up on them in private.

Stupid, Gay, Retarded Niggaz B{

People are antsing me about my every whim.

What do you think of their covering others as shit?

Oh, and let's think about this with the topic... I had a sequence on IMDb that might be related to the smiley, has something to do with cats and being the same, books, cars, Chevrolet, and another kind of car.

*Issues!* 8I

What do you think of people who are imperfect you want you to be too careful?

Also, why do people get so tested and threatened or something, like stared down, forced, hypnotized, and punished and brutalized and tortured by the likes of my dad, who makes excuses to his mom about how he treats me and how my brother is?

I need a fan. 8|

My Face

Someone gave us a square, pink bowl, and it made my face weird.  This is so unnecessary.  I've pretty much been killed but am still finding excitement in life, unsure what it will be if I'm through with Ellen.

The Conspiracy

My dad made my life a certain way, but others want to make it even harder.  Isn't that gay and stupid?

Repercussions

Did you ever think of the repercussions of calling someone a nigger just in case someone else does?

What do you think of being restricted and disrespected and reconstricted?

What's Ellen's problem?

She's trying to look cool but is just being tacky and then complaining about it.

My Dad's Threat, Looming

He thinks that he's made the rules clear and will no longer reinforce them.  In case you don't know what those rules are, he thinks I have to like constantly suffer because I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word.

How Many Times to I Have to Make Myself Clear.... 8I

I don't approve of being mean to people nor making them do unnecessary things nor that they have to, especially in this day and age.

Back Off

Ellen, if you wanna look disgusting, don't blame me.

*giggles*

Bad People

I can tell they are being sarcastic at me and don't want me to do anything about it, but it bothers me.  They'll just keep at me and do something mean to me next.  I think it's a waste of time and uncool and unfair.

However, when I think about it, it doesn't really matter.  Wait, today, something kinda serious happened.  I guess Ellen is gay over Nell.

Ellen's Extremities o---o

I guess Ellen worships Helena Bonham Carter to a pulp.

Horse Shit 8|

I keep getting disgusting reverberations from certain someone, of late, and I don't know why nor do I really care...  I hear horseshit, deep and low.

Baby Boomers

They want to recite how they suck up to people born the age of their parents.

Changes

What do you think of someone who used to think quietly in the background but now seems to control the universe?

Gay, Retarded Niggers 08

They won't quit, these Goddamn Baby Boomers!

Disgusting

These clicks are now disgusting.  It used to be cool with Tim Burton.

Respect

I'm not being respected in private and keep being interrupted with clicks and maybe other stuff.  I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word a few years ago who was almost 2, and bad words pop up in my head because of what others make me think and then I get in trouble.

Interruptions

 keep hearing clicks at certain moments that like totally rearrange my face.  Of course, other stuff must happen.

I also got the message that because I ate the spinach I have to think retardedly about my future husband not picking up our future children.

I don't wanna sit here all day and here women pee in their parents over my father.

Just Did Some Core Work-Outs

*GOOD NIGHT, SWEETY* (8

*Aw, this is so cute!* 8D

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Not Feeeling Anything

So, why do you have to be messed up to feel?

Ellen's Nose Etc.

Ellen had a pimple like a witch.  I wrote a story about a girl whose mom was a witch, but it wasn't a big part of the story, which was very short.

What do you think of Ellen receiving the award?

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*shit*

So, Helena Bonham Carter thinks I'm just here for a spectacle yet mean nothing essentially?

I blame Ellen.

I can't feel the world lifting me, anymore.

Dissect Me

I feel funny.  My head is tight yet hollow and falling apart, hard on the outside yet not firm.  I blame Helena Bonham Carter.  I got a feeling from her and lost the firmness in my head.  What a self-righteous being.

Spinach

I'm feeling upset because my parents invited me to have their vegetables.  I could have had the broccoli, instead.

My life is really lame.

Thanks to the reverberations of Kate Bush and Ellen DeGeneres, feeling antsy I thought someone wanted me to call them the n word.

I don't remember if it was Ellen DeGeneres echoing the likes of Kate Bush, for some reason.  I think so.

^ Born ^

It seems that people born around 1960 want kids born around 1985 to have simple lives.

Story

There was a woman named Ellen with 2 kids.  The kids didn't know if they were her real kids, but the younger one was probably.  The younger one was 13 1|2.  She had small hips and was still short.  The older one was named Christina, and she was big and already 26.  Some of her friends were courting boys and playing in the frosty snow outside.  They all gathered around in a warm room with a fireside and sang songs and ate good food.  The young girl, who had always been with her mother, was laying in her bed, with dreams of Christmas.

Carnival

Once, there was a girl named Drew who was 11.  She had some friends.  One was Chloe, age 8, another was Lisa age 12, another was Joni age 17, and then she hung out with a bunch of ladies, many who did not have families of their own nor were married nor engaged.  She played with her friend Chloe a lot.  Joni helped her with a lot of things.  There were a lot of paranormal occurrences.  Still, they were going to a festival.  Drew went with a bunch of girls her age.  Other people came, as well, and there were so many strangers there.  People went insane in the tunnel of love, screaming.  Chloe came out with her face white and said, "Oh my God!"  Then, there was the ferris wheel, which was attacked by a ghost murderer and left one cart at the top squeaking dripping blood in the cold night.  Drew couldn't stand it but knew there were many deaths in the world.  The festival continued, for some reason.  People, police, were wary for the ghost.  There was the boat ride that swung back and forth.  Drew went on it and sat at the end and had a blast.  Everyone else moaned.  Then, there was the hayride.  Drew went on it with Chloe and Joni.  They stopped and picked berries and then went back.  There was a lady there named Ellen who was 50.  She thought there would be no interesting ride.  She went on a demented ride about toys and chopping people's heads off and rode through a torture chamber of wax figures, while most people screamed and covered their eyes.  Then, a bunch of spooky things popped out, as they rid along.  There were some sharp but not long drops that were pretty swift but not straight down.  Then, there was happy, sappy music, and even a death on the ride.  Meanwhile, Drew was on the kayaks in the lake, which was large and dark by now.  She made it through alright alone, following the caravan.  It wasn't the best carnival that existed, but it was interesting.

Christmas Classic

Once upon a time, there was a little girl named Lisa, and she was 8 years old and just getting into boys more in real life.  She had a boyfriend named Tom.  She still flirted with other boys named Greg and Mark and Drew.

The year was 1940.  She lived in the Midwest.  She was bringing in logs to the fire, when her mother told her to get ready quickly, danger was lurking about.

She was left behind, in the snow, and met a man named Charlie who ran a train.  She rid in it.

She stepped outside, and the train left.  In the mist, she saw a ghost coming toward her named Ellen.  She stopped over and picked her up.  When she woke up, she was in a cottage full of people.  She was the youngest, except for a baby.  A lady named Isabelle took her upstairs and she found some girls to play with.  Night fell, and she wondered how she would get out.  She climbed out of a window.  She walked awhile and ran into Ellen.  She was no longer a ghost.  Ellen was gay and didn't have a boyfriend.  She started running, and Ellen chased her and grabbed her.  She cried in the air, but she became Ellen's adopted daughter.  She felt like a baby.  So, she went back, and Ellen left her alone.  She wandered about a ghost town, which was interesting.  She found an old amusement park.  She walked through it and saw something she had not seen before.  She saw a dog with glowing red eyes pulling chains, warning her to go home.  Lisa didn't listen.  She ran away from Ellen, but Ellen found her.  This time, however, she found Tom, and Tom and her ran away.

Conspiracy

What are you gonna do when people realize you've been mean to them and that the people you were mean to didn't mean any harm?

L.A.

Why do people who aren't from L.A. have to go through things, like act stupid?

Dream

I don't remember most of it.  There was one part where I was in a car with someone, not Ellen DeGeneres, and she kissed me wet on the lips and it felt so good and I guess I thought of her putting her arms around me.  This was the end of the dream.  It sorta faded out in bits.

Also, last night, when I got in bed, I saw quite physically the figure from Scream running in front of me and some other things.

Manners

I don't accept people being impolite and rude because of the n word thing nor anything that happned before, such as me flunking out of college or being cranky|weird in something I did at home.

Ne Height & Race

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5'2" Some Extra Baggage | White|Caucasian

So

Do you really care about Ellen DeGeneres?

Bright Blu Di

Twinkle, twinkle, way up high
Like a diamond in the sjy
Up above the world you fly
Like a tea tray, in the shy

When the bright, blue sjy is gone
When it nothing shines upon
Up in Heaven you appear
Like Grandma's reindeer

In the black of night you fly
Like a firefly in the sjy
O'er mountains, hill, and dale
On the crashing waves you'd sail

Up above the world you fly
Like a diamond in the sky
Though I know not what you are
Twinkle, TWinkle, little star!

Story

I told my brother and others this story in the car when I was younger, and it took like an hour or so.  I just kept ad libbing.  I used to ad lib singing when I was even younger when we went up north to see my grandma for Christmas.

So, there was I dunno a guy who wanted whaaaaite bread.  He didn't want brown bread!  8p  (This went on somehow.)

Then, I think there was like a chicken strattling across the lights of the road.  You know, when I was little, I thought and was told at the table, when I was like 2, that the red light meant go and the green light meant stop.  Then, they said I was wrong.  I kept asking about it, before and after.

There was a joke about crossing the road and being scared and stuck at the light.  Oh, when I was 5, I think, or possibly 6 or 4, someone asked me why did the chicken cross the road - first time - and I said to get to the other side.  I told Ellen DeGeneres, already.  I lived in Southeastern Florida, too.

I think there was something about or I'm thinking now at least dashing to the other side.

So, then, someone needed a quarter, I think, for whaaaaite bread.  However, all the quarters were in jail.  I was like :p hysterical about why they didn't go through the bars ... and GET OUT ~ 80  I'm pretty sure it ended there.  My dad used to stroll me around with my mom at the bank's March of Dimes.  It was named Barnett Bank, and then we moved and went to Hibernia.  My friend didn't like me after she found out my last name wasn't Barnett..  She had white hair, was short, and had parents who were 45 years older, born in 1941, the dad older.  Her sisters and brother|s were 16+ years older, I think 1 on her mom's side.

Ugly Photos of My Hands

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Ha! Ha! Ha!

I don't check my aunt's Facebook, only did a few times.

So! '}8)

You thought that everything had a reason!  No, suckerz!!!  8p  That's it.  You have hit *rock bottom*  8|

Tweet @TheEllenShow How I Changed the World

I almost stepped on a kid!

Ooh, wait, before, I flunked out of college.  I think things were cool in summer of '05.  Wait, that's when I flunked out at CUA in Washington, D.C., Catholic University of America.

Wait, I stomped at the kid!  8D  They thought they were more tickled and stimulated by people born around when you were but were ugly and too like slick and droopy.  Not my probbob!  I'm in enough pain, as it is, but no not real worst pain.

Also, did you know Tim Burton's daughter is fascinated with dirt and crevices?  She also cackles|crackles when she's stimulated.  Shit!  8|

New Photos

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Tweet @TheEllenShow

When I moved to where you're from, I hated it more than anyone hated anything but really care about the people.  Everyone knew, but I was quiet around people a lot.

Did you see this?

So, people born around 1960 were boned out as European, but these people born in 1960 claim they cater to people who are younger but really ones young enough to be their youngest child and rush people through life like you can't be that European.

Oh, wait, I probably got this idea from other people.

Ooooh! 8D

I just got the idea of Ellen DeGeneres masturbating like Miss Nell Burton, crackling!  Nell Burton is dirty and was a dirty baby, fascinated or rather stimulated by dirt, fat, and crevices.

Worth

So, why does Ellen DeGeneres like to secretly twist your worth like she's worth something?

Is anyone out there? 80

Now, I felt my mouth flip over.

Don't you tell me my future daughter will...

masturbate.  I wasn't suggesting you go do it as an innocent person, you dummy, good-for-nothing.  I meant you kept sending me these messages, whoever...  through various methods.  }:D

CAN YOU SHUT UP YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF TRASH AND NIGGER :D D D

I just got the message that I'm nothing to people who are born older than my dad, though I am, and mean people are.  Why don't you go masturbate!

Ah! Help!

I think I got mad and Julie Andrews made my left leg swirl while I was walking.  Then, I got bothered more, as though things were still being compensated with me.  People won't leave me alone!  Well, the top of my left leg.

I think my whole life these good-for-nothing people have been teasing me for thinking they should have no power over me and how I wanted to look young...

Videos of Me Being Uploaded Tonight

Labels

I added a note to "Potiphar" and before another song that uploaded and reuploaded.

* Potiphar 1:40-1:42

My Face

I feel a bunch of like hard like soft, smooth stone hard bone forming around my eye, probably both, on the side, like the side of my head.  I always feel that stuff around my face.  I should put that on my website.  I'm not sure if I will now.  I might think about it.  Wait, why do you care?  Because you don't want to know!

Dolled Up

Howcome with me it turns out everything is alright in the end with what I do but not how I'm treated?..  Like, I was thinking of how my ancestors are from Pennsylvania.  My dad lived in New York state sometimes as a kid, by Pennsylvania, on the west.  Then, I thought of Ellen DeGeneres with her eyelashes and singing like kinda metally and it made me think of living in Florida.  I lived in the area she's from as a teenager.  So, I was thinking of "what" that would make me.  So, I'm dolled up.

Crazy 8p

Why do people just want you to go crazy?  Someone's really wound up.

Rescuing Kids

So, kids today think they're bad in ways like kids before, like their parents were, people born around 1960 to people born around 1950?  What's there to understand?  It's not my fault they did that, not look like their parents.  Just because I suffer doesn't mean others have to.  I am suffering.  What do you want me to do?  Well, I'm not suffering like having myself be cut into nor disesembled|dismembered nor ruined.  I'm not okay completely, though.  So, what are people my age supposed to do?  I thought I was nice.  I'm trying to get better.  Supposedly, I'm not worth it because I'm Chinese, like what I did wasn't real.  It's weird.  It's like I did it, but then I'm Chinese and it was all a mistake in some minute far to reach place.  Can people really make mistakes and be forgiven?  Also, why think something different is bad, when you weren't considered in with other people though you tried hard like beyond belief in some way?  Remember in the late 90s and early 00s when different was overly encouraged?  I guess trying to push us off a cliff and not be considered okay, after all, because we want to be better than other people.  It sounds like Italians think that of Chinese, want them to mess up, but Jews are overly caring.  Then, Caucasians|whites kill you for the Jews feeling sorry for you and marry them.  Stop separating us from what's cool.  I guess you're feeling sorry for the Vietnamese.

Hey, why can't anyone be nice to me?  That's so gay.  Lots of people should be nice to me.  I'm gonna *beep* you if you think that's "what" I am.  My mom isn't like that.  My dad gets treated like he's human but worn away.  =|  Okay, maybe I won't think of doing something to you, but I had to startle you, for some reason.  Wish I knew another way.  Go ask me to erase it if you want, though, I don't care.  I don't think you mind the word *beep*  I dunno...  :|  Why do you think that's "what" I am?  How tacky?  Trying to be cool and round up an idea, something you didn't have the right idea about to begin with.  You can't be mean to people like that.  Why do I have to go through this, anyway?  What happend to my dreamland!  80

Did I leave off on something?  8|  Oh well, I'm tired.

Kids

So, you wish we didn't exist ... so we couldn't make you look good by looking bad and your kids?

Jew

So, us kids feel we don't deserve to live because we're not Jew or our last name isn't Jew or our mom isn't Jew?

Getting It Out

Why do people born around 1960 want you to get it out?  I have lots of thoughts on this.  Their childhoods were pampered.  They're thick and strong and stimulated in a good way....  So, they spend their lives leading people born later.  They make fun of people who often at that age have older parents and if the youngest child.  8|

What Set Me Off

People thought I was like the Ting or something.  Is that because I went on a diet and then didn't eat enough in the end?

We're all victims of its follies.

I figured that people were too inhibited, so I started making statements.

Also, I realized that they just babied one generation from creation.  We're all victims of its follies.

Important Things

I just explained on my blog how different things are important and cause other things.

Trip

Supposedly, my whole trip was caused by the likes of one person.  I was interrupted and didn't shower, slept for awhile, need to do my nails.

D8

Yes, I thought of knocking people out, but I'm just 26, and I did it to people who are supposed to be old enough to be my parents, but I guess they're not-

Are you okay now?

My Egg Sack

I feel like my egg sack is going to be ripped out, the right girl one.

It's like more than the world is like pulling and sucking at it.

Well, no, not literally, but maybe it's strong.

Hard to Breath

I got mad!

I stomped my foot at Cracker Barrel and got mad.  I kept talking.  Someone called me a nigger!  Well, he said it.  I think my dad got mad.  Anyway, those people get friendly after they get over their initial shock.  A store worker said hi to me.  A thick Spanish waitress said my purse was on the floor.  It's like a grayish brownish greenish, you can't tell.  Well, I stomped my foot when no one was out there but my dad..  A nice blonde, kinda girlish with medium straight hair and bangs just got in her car..

So.

Think of the word baby and then think of yourself and not yourself as a baby.  8}

Aw, how cute!

ARE YOU STUPID?

So in Line

You're so in line and make me respect people for being lesser than me.

Another Good for Nothing

Just because someone does something nice for me doesn't mean you can sit there like a worthless piece of trash and make me go through it in a tacky way.

Mad

I think that someone has a problem because I got mad at this person talking to my dad.  Then, he was mad around me and I was attacked today privately and publicly online by some people.  So, I went out to eat with him, and I got mad because he was being mean to me.  I couldn't give the time of day for the likes of this!  Just stop being so stupid!  Don't be so stupid as to think you're supposed to be too serious, like, too.  And don't make fun of me because I don't feel like I can even sit still anymore!  80

The N Word Thing 8|

Because people have collectively, my mom, my psychiatrist, and a boy, made me think of curse words, as well as probably the public by calling me them in their thoughts when I go out, my dad has been offed in my getting better from his negligence to my well-being since flunking and the n word thing, but my life was supposed to be just an experiment.  Also, I don't think the psychologist believes I should have been punished for 2 1|2 years for the n word thing.  People won't stop skirting around me being uncomfortable, to extremes, depending on who it is.  8|  It's because I was talking to my grandma too much, and now nothing's the same!  Why did my aunt come on my birthday?  I can say that if I want!

How I Feel 8|

I just ate at Cracker Barrel and feel a bit hurt and agitated.  Some people hurt me and even called me a nigger.  My dad said he was on the phone...

My hand hurts because of Renee Fleming and Julie Andrews. 8|

Anyway, I had a neat time at the mall, better make a video about it and post it here.

I know there was this one old guy who was kinda big who seemed to somehow get the message downstairs at the end that people would start seeing fantasy simplified circles representing frogs, like.  8|

Check out me dancing to the Jellicle Ball if you want..

New Videos of Me Being Uploaded on YouTube

2 Quite Short Ones

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New Pictures of Me

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*cooled down but upset it happened*

STOP! 80

Now, I felt the outsides of my head like my dad's nose and my grandma's face, which they molded, like a Native American indian, except mine is smooth with grooves but not straight.  I'm not mean!  Quit ruining my life.  What about other people's lives?  They are not bothered like this, I hope.

I GOTTA GO!

WILL YOU STOP BOTHERING ME!

I GOTTA GO!

I heard a sick car swerving and thought of my brother, who I accidentally ended up posting baby pictures of before.

It sounded kinda metally, made me think of the trash can and my mom..

STOP IT YOU WORTHLESS NIGGERS, i SAID!.

Just because of the n word thing and that things pop in my head ... and stuff ... you think you can ruin my life.

SHUT UP NIGGER

WHAT THE FUCK?  MY BACKGROUND JUST PAUSED AS BLACK.  YOU GAY WORTHLESS FOOL.

CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP YOU WORTHLESS NIGGERS

SHUT UP NIGGERS

I GOTTA GO

WHAT'S MY DAD GONNA THINK NOW?

*BEEP*

JUST *BEEP* YOURSELVES YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PIECES OF TRASH

I GOTTA GO

NIGGERS

STOP

TOP

STOP IT YOU NIGGER

I was trying to have fun on the computer and I GOTTA GO NOW!

I SAID STOP!

Stop making me not seem special!  I GOTTA GO!

PLEASE. STOP. IDIOT.

I don't care about Ellen DeGeneres.  You're just jealous I follow her.

STOP IT! SHUT UP! QUIT BEING mean TO ME!

I GOTTA GO!

Also

I noticed the picture of the little girl from NY...

HEY!  A bunch of stuff just popped up on my screen!

I gotta get ready to go.

Hey!  Now what?  The messages won't stop!!!!  Why now?  Anyway?

Going Crazy

80  That picture of the thin long black woman with the laptop is haunting me!

And I just noticed the orange in the background of a link I posted.

Psychologist 8I

She's gonna talk to my dad.  Last time, they talked about money.

Universal Horror Nights

My dad said my mom was gonna ask my brother to go.  He doesn't want to.  My dad will probably take me.  I was supposed to look it up last night.  We missed Beauty and the Beast.  I don't remember what else I was gonna say.

Dream

Okay, I was in a big class with Ellen DeGeneres, who somehow affected me, and there were 2 fat ladies who came in.

The other one was long, longer.  I got in a little trouble, oh yea, later.  Oh wait.  Before.  I said something because I thought the teacher was being mean, my homeroom teacher in 12th grade, who did the senior play, mentioned her in a prior dream related to drama but forgot to say she was my senior play director...  I think people just decided not to audition, now.  I wouldn't have done it if I went back.  So, then she rubbed my head with a paper, and it felt good.  Hey, I look like her and my college piano teacher, who I am pretty sure is the younger sister of my 12th grade band director, who had a daughter in the 1st year of high school.  Her daughter had fuzzy, crimped gold hair, very voluminous.  My piano teacher was very bubbly with reddish brown, medium bright hair, with a triangle-ish nose like my homeroom teacher.  So, then I had to step outside and got in trouble but not real, big trouble, just kinda there.

I was feeling good last night.  I guess I felt best when my head was rubbed.  It was saying something in words to me.

Hey, I just realized these dreams were both at school.  I realized Ellen DeGeneres was saying fat ladies picking you up and like touching you was not her point in life.  Well, good.  Now, I just wonder what Tim Burton's is, well probably like her, born the same time.  I guess my point is a little different. different generation but not submissive to just being stimulated, if you know what I mean...  People who were young in the 80s were about being stimulated and not just classical like people born around 1960, and you can gues the rest, that a lot of kids had moms and dads born around 1950 or 1953 and that the ones born later were for some reason submissive to pleasure in a more 90s, sorta basic molded way, if you know what I mean...  I gotta go, soon.  I guess, later, like people born around 1998, were more awake to physical handling.  8|

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My Best Experience in Music

It was playing in the band in college.  I tried out some percussion, I think a crash cymbal or something and maybe a drum, dunno, maybe not.  I tried maybe 2 bell sets and had to lug around my own.  I could also play violin tunes.  I think I was better than all the string majors.  8I  I did band in 12th grade at my 3rd high school, during a lunch break.  It was a small band but okay.  Not really satisfying other than musically.

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Ellen DeGeneres

Is Ellen DeGeneres here to overturn my reputation?

I have some good pictures.  I wonder why she was so able to mold herself.

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I don't have any inborn qualm against anyone.

This just in.

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Ellen DeGeneres

Stop teasing me! D8'

People won't stop teasing me that everything is supposed to hurt me.

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WHAT?

STOP!  You think because I'm nice I'm just trying to be better and am bad and you're racist!

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I am not a nigger!

Someone is being annoying!  I can have friends, too.  I am not a nigger!

I just got mad.

I just got mad.  Like someone else.  Before Frankenweenie.  Looking at clothes.  And for some reason I thought of the number "2" in the reactions under my blog post...  I felt I was shouting like air, like my dad was knocking me out, like I thought when he might had been driving, thinking of his mom, saying "Oh," reminds me of having a little hole in the middle of your lips.

It was about putting an outfit together someone made.  (My mom's mom was a tailor and partly a nun.)  She gave me a black dress with sequins I posted about that I don't ... wait a picture of me in sequins I don't have a picture of.  Something on a minor social networking site.  Pinterest..

SHUT UP YOU "IDIOT"

I thought of a computing math thing in my butt.  That was in the story I wrote.

Oh, and Ellen DeGeneres is receiving an award today, where I went to school in the summer... and flunked out, had problems eating, under a church where I walked, elsehwere at a cafe, took an organ lesson after a concert.

I'm so mad I have to jot this down for help.  I want people to help and get him to stop, shove him out of the cave hole.  I'm trying to relax.  He's eating lunch.  I don't know if he just opened the fdorr!  Oh, someone named Doris-a, who posts about music and food, answered me just now.  She told me she had flabby arms, and I think her hands look African now.

WHY WON'T MY DAD STOP?

HE'S SO GAY!

He's sexing up Ellen DeGeneres for being nice to me and because I thought Helena Bonham Carter wanted me to call her daughter the n word, along with others.

And I was just thinking of one of the people actually carrying someone.

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When I did the coloring in my last post, it made me think of Helena Bonham Carter...

I edited my last post.

What I Found Out

I just went to the bathroom and found if you wait you can poo more.  That you'll have to soon sometimes.

Well, it was soft like the tacos.  I hope that doesn't matter.  }:|  It might.  Well, later, it could.  :|

Selecting

Apparently, they're selecting to bore things into our heads until no tomorrow, so that we can't like unravel it all, like with the help of others.

Mad

I don't like being stimulated like I have to think of something that has to do with nothing just because something is different.

Do the math.

My dad just thought of something really weird.

I heard a noise and thought of math.

Threat?

What do you mean you're gonna fool me into meeting you?

How mean!

Can you believe how mean people will be to you?

Sick!

If you think someone with a young mom is special, don't have to make everyone else suffer what you did.  :I

Authorities!

The police came in here and took me away to the mental hospital, no arguing, no believing me.  What if I called on my parents?  They'd trace my mental record.  If I get really mad, they do that, and now they won't have me back.

Also, I was recommended medicine that took away my period.  It's light now I've stopped.  I also know I didn't need the medicine.  I was prescribed it at 16, but I got off it.

Leading Ellen Astray

I don't know about always being with Portia and her mom in her spare time.  She just followed suit in L.A. like Tim Burton when he left.  I wonder what's so weird about him.  ☂

SPAM!

I don't really care how creative you are.  Well, I should because I'm an artist.  Well, I've done art, in a good way.  :I  Um, excuse me?  Leave me alone!  I just got a message on IMDb about Obama.  I get a sense of foreboding.  Of what's to cum.  I just find that like my family are very tacky and nasty.  They spam me.  They spam my life.