Story

There was a little girl in pain in a pink dress.  Her mother was a witch, and her daddy was a ghost.  She had an older brother and an older sister.

She had just come from a dream of being in Looking Glass Land with her pet kitten, a white and milky bluish, shiny kitten, with beady eyes.  It was easy to take care of.  You just leave it a creamy drink.  You give it your leftover sushi and other seafood.  It has a little house in her room, which is spacious.

Anyway, witches weren't being hanged for being witches, but people were hunting down other monsters, like zombies that supposedly existed.

(I just smelled a faint whiff of food and felt disturbed, unsure if I can focus, now.  I just had some of what we have left of bagels and some bread, too.  Hungry.  I sense a wrong suggestion, in the air.)

So, it was almost Halloween.  They lived in inland Southern England, and it was getting pretty cold outside.  Lots of things were happening, deaths from car accidents, paranormal sitings both here and abroad.  Little Lottie was scared.  Her mother comforted her, and her father protected them.  She had some friends who were a little older than her and helped care for the homeless.  She also saw some women who were robust yet shapely and in their 30s and 40s who had no children.  There were loads of gentlemen in the area into opera and even the ballet.  Lottie was too young for ballet.

So, things got dangerous, and Lottie had to go in and help in the town.  She was scared, and one of the ladies held her on her lap and made her feel good.  In the spirit of events, they decided to proceed still to a theme park that was a ways away, and Lottie went in a big covered caravan.  When it slowed up, she would run alongside.  They camped out, and when they saw a wolf, one of the ladies picked her up and put her in the caravan.  The rest of the children cowered to the parents.  So, they reached the grand carnival.  First, Lottie went on the ferris wheel alone.  It stopped a lot and was jerky and not that fun.  Other people were scared out of their wits or just sat and stared into space.  There was a historical ride that featured a recording of a prominent figure in the city.  She came from a successful family.  Some of the kids around her age were being carried the whole time and tried to be fed.  Some of the older ones were dancers and never tired out, the older ones.  There were some very interesting boat rides and tunnels of love and erotica.  She went on these alone.

Later, she went on a big camping trip with her family, relatives, and some others.  It was a lot of fun.  They "almost died."  She even saw a ghost but was not scared of this ghost.  It didn't do anything to her.

So, then, she was back home awaiting Halloween.  She ordered a costume.  She was going to be a wood fairy from inspiration of A Midsummer Night's Dream.  She even got a wand that lit up.

Lottie had a computer.  She used it to post online to whoever was brave enough to post whatever.

There was a lot of drama going on about witches.  Moreso, I think the drama was about sorcerors.  Witches were more common, like pirates.  Then, there were the Celtic philosophers and magicians and magic recluses.

One of Lottie's favorite pasttimes was the confidence she had around the young toddlers in the soup kitchen.  They were there because of their mental condition.  Most of them were homeless.

Lottie took a trip to Africa.

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So Uncool

Americans are weak.

They get so affected by not being popular yet are so uncool, you've got me so uncool, you've got me so uncool.  Look's like I'm so uncool...

I'm cooler.

So, I notice older people are acting the way people my age were bad thinking that was pretty sexy, sexily put together.

Glitch

Glitches

"Do you wanna know something really gay?  So, my dad got me a Nook.  I blog on the Apple browser because it's the only one working.  I can't right click and get the spelling of a word, anymore."

Unpopular

Why are some people so dischordant with one another, I mean disgusting people?  I mean, some people just go by what's popular in a bad way.  They try to relish things that are inrelishable.

Orlando

It really affects me.  I have guilt in my past, but I rectified it.

Like, physical feelings always overcome me and can affect my thinking and ability to control myself.  Oh, and I also stimulate myself.

Unwanted Attention

What do you think of people who experience unwanted attention?  Like, people get interested in them just because you were friends with them, but they try to "reach them."  They don't try to "reach" you and your needs in this life and world.  Why do they "reach" for others, like they pose as a threat?  That's what life's about, not giving them the time of day.

I think people are interesting, but why keep coming around for nothing?

Nobody is nothing, but some people just are a strange case.

I mean, I guess people exist.

Intelligent Attention

What do you think of people who simplify life and try to make unlikely people succeed over others?  Get my suggestions?  Like, someone will deserve pleasures and not get them.  Someone else, they will feed knowledge to and sorta butter them up.  They will have this fascination in their mind of being over the person who deserves the attention, and everyone seems to very much agree they deserve a certain kind of intelligent attention.

I guess you can get into intelligent intention.  It means that you give the person the right attention and not some twisted attention based on no morals nor fairness in life.  Did you know a big thing of the late 90s and earlier 00s was that life isn't fair?  It was literally shouted into our heads every time we tried to succeed.  Why did this topic come up recently?  Intelligent attention.  Hmph.  I thought maybe I had something.  I guess I never will, living in Orlando.

Those Times

What do you thnink of those times in the past, like the 90s and more earlier 00s, where life was stressful like on holding yourself together as a person, more physically, like the head bone's connected to the neck bone...

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Books

A Cool Person

So, I was looking up Finding Nemo 2 and noticed Ellen DeGeneres is a face you want to see.  So, she's been active since 1981, but I only know what she looked like in like 1984.  She seemed to look differente before that.  She really seems like a dream person to meet for young people.  It seems the same way with Kate Bush, except Kate Bush wasn't as big.  She got fat as an adult.  I mean Ellen was like a beutiful, pretty, smart, astute, sharp, very human yet very elated child.  She was a sweet baby.  She was also a sweet toddler.  So sweet.  :)  She seemed very nice, for instance.  She was very cute and smart.  She was pretty.  I guess I don't have a big vocabulary and need to get a storybook.  So, yea, and she changed as she got older.  When she was an older teenager|young adult, she was very mature and there for you and took on a whole new look.  She became the sexiest woman alive as an adult, not to mention became the most well-known.  Three cheers for Ellen DeGeneres, and have a good time with all that she is and her life's accomplishments.  She is the most accomplished person in the world, especially sexually.  =}  I'm learning a lot under her offerings.

Hot

It's really hot.

Leaping

My dad is a leaping loser.  He can't man the fact I asked him to buy me a Halloween costume.  I don't even know if he ordered it, yet.  I've been spending my money on songs on iTunes to sing karaoke.  I also got a noisemaker, 3 main complex personality sorter topic books ... what else? 8^|  No clothes.

Worried

I feel my dad wants to force rape on me.

They won't stop getting complex in my life and leaving messages that pile up, my dad, who is kinda intrusive, in a way.  He seemed happy, in real life, but we just don't stop him.

I felt my right egg sack like it was about to explode.  I heard some cars go by.  I think they're catching onto the very fact I had my dad buy me my costume for Halloween.  Why not?  What's the big deal?  I'm sure other people have their parents buy them stuff...

I thought of something really nasty and perverted, that people reading into my privacy maybe would be "embraced" by my dad, in a way I don't like, that "feels like rape."

Ever since the n word thing, he's lost his respect for me, like he was waiting for it, like an excuse.

I was thinking lots of people call people the n word.  PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE.  If you wanna get mad how Nell Burton was raised to look, you're ASKING THE WRONG GODDAMN PERSON.  :S  It seems someone is so antsy they can't take anything that reminds them of something, neither.  WHAT'S YOUR SORRY IDEA BARKING ON ME FOR THINGS I NEED, things I don't do often, neither?

Oh wow, I thought they all wanted me to do it.  She's a girl.  What does that mean?  Oh, were you so creative and stupid that you got that into my life yet ruined it?  People think also that calling someone who usually wouldn't be called it is better than calling someone on the streets that, but times have changed.

Now, I'm worried my dad is stupid enough to think he has to be the one to and that anyone would go out of their way to in a weird, complex way hurt a boy I talk to online from England...  He hasn't directly talked to me, in awhile.  He was suppoesd to.

So, what about it?  What's so special about this non-nigger girl?

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?

Stop making fun of my emotional life.

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Why did you just associate a thought with my brother and with being Asian?

WHAT'S YOUR GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM?

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Please leave me the Hell|fuck alone.  I just woke up to the bathroom #2 and got the message I wasn't white associated with the thought of like before you have sex.

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Flag Team ---u

I made it, but my friend didn't.  The boy I liked didn't stay, who the whole school wanted to stay.  So, I didn't do it.  I wish I did, but I shouldn't have auditioned.  It was stressful but may have been a learning experience.

I was thinking of band my 3rd year but couldn't play the oboe my 2nd year.

My Pleasure

Why do people think me doing an activity is a bad thing or doing anything at all that is pleasurable?

* ballet class *

I guess there aren't any special ballet classes I can find out about for actors in movies.

HEY! I DIDN'T DO BALLET!

What the Hell?

What the fuck?

Quit Tailing Me!

You can't tell me what to think and how to feel.

Lonely

I wanted to meet people.

Are you gay? 8|

So, you all wanted my family to be the only ones to interact with me?  Are you gay?

Bait

Why would Tim Burton bait people to get interested in him to just taunt them with the fact he's taunting everyone to get interested in him, but he, Johnny Depp, Ellen DeGeneres, and Orla Fallon admit that they are only dedicated to their immediate family?

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I did gymnastics at home for fun when I was only 1 - 1 1|2 and started class when I was 1 3|4 and did it off and on.  I took it once or twice a week until I was 8.  I noticed I looked ugly after I did gymnastics.  I should have been put in singing.  I was told I was a chatterbox, though.  I did art, too.  I think I was a cute person at 1 point.  When we went up north.  I don't have many pictures since the hurricane but used to have a bunch.  My head got big when I added gymnastics, and I never was good at remembering the moves.  I think most kids were babied in a different way.  It might not have been the most prestigious thing.  I should have gotten into more movies.  I don't know if I was allowed to listen to any music I wanted.  My mom's sister is in music.  Piano was fun.  It was very theraputic being so involved in the community via it.  Well, now, I am just singing popular songs I somehow found out about.  I saw this picture of a ballerina in Slidell.  http://www.nola.com/community/st-tammany/index.ssf/2010/12/segreti_featured_as_clara_in_t.html  I should have went to that school when we moved.  It looked too hard.  I just looked at a picture of a teen dancer, and she looked older than me, still.  http://orlandoballet.org/company/employment-opportunities/company-dancer-audition/  I don't know if I'm well fed enough for this.  Maybe, I'll do this: http://www.abt.org/education/nationalaudition.asp.

* Fishing *

Why should we wait for other people in order to do something we like?  What if they never do it?

Meeting People

THANKS A LOT.  NOW MY BIG CHANCE OF MEETING PEOPLE IS RUINED.

*What a joke*

Why do people joke around so much with me?  They're not going to do the right thing?

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I'm trying to narrow down my options.  I keep coming back for stuff.

I'll probably get tired of music, but I could keep coming back and singing old songs.  Eventually, I'd find new ones.

I can't concentrate well doing ballet all day.  I used to.

Just posting about Tim Burton, eventually I want to be an actor.

I tried to escape to music school but picked the wrong major.  Now, I'm too old.  After awhile, I didn't feel good and just felt too old.  I left the beginning of my junior year.  I also didn't get in a good major.  I guess it was a good thing I did what I did, might have been more relaxing some other way.  Now, I should think of getting out a CD.  Maybe, I should get a TV show on supernatural things.  And touching people.  That doesn't really match.  I still feel like a kid, though.  I like kids more and more, still.  I get to feeling like funny.  Maybe, I should be a singer.  I mean like Charlotte Church, except I am older and not from Europe.  I'm not looking forward to getting the rights.  I'm all over YouTube.  I didn't get much interaction there, but I'm there.  My voice isn't very strong.  It used to be, but it's better now.  I was supposed to make a Christmas CD a year ago.  I was gonna do it by the summer.  Maybe, I'll do some different songs and get a better background and do some dancing.  I wonder why other people don't sing.  Maybe, they want to see other people sing, first.  Something just escaped me.  I was gonna be a singer, then I decided to go to college, but I don't know why.  Now, I can't pick a major.  I looked at a college I was at and see I could go back and they offer Ballet IV.  They also took away Ballet I, which I never took at my college in New Orleans though was suggested to go back and do or maybe level II again.  :(  So, I could do Voice there.  I wish my parents would move there.  Oh well.  I guess I'm just worried about my health.  So, how do you watch TV at college?  I guess I could watch it online.  :)  I still feel kinda old to be seen in a college.  Maybe, I'll get a job at Disney.  I feel too old to be a performer nor be in the college program.  I could make a lot of money if I recorded a CD.  I'm not sure what I'll do if I don't go to college, but I don't like travelling around Orlando.  I just don't feel like working now.  The n word thing put me back, too.  It also handicapped me.

Thank you, so much, for your help and inspiration!  I still fail to see why Hollywood doesn't matter.  I'm tailgaiting Tim Burton.

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Hey, you could sit in my lap.  Why are you too big to sit in a lap as a tween?  I wonder why people think I'm small.  I used to have a big period when I came home from college, but the medicine made me lose it.  I'm eating a lot more, now, and that might make it come back faster.  I was even wearing senior diapers, all the time, and had up on my website that I always used wipes after using the bathroom, which I ended up using frequently.  I think my website was MySpace.  Sometimes, about other people, I have seriously thought on things like, I guess, you'd wonder, if I'd feel good sitting in their lap like when they touch me...  Funny when you're old enough to feel that, you're too big, and when you're younger I guess less social.  Maybe, it just took me awhile.  I grew up thinking you didn't necessarily experience those things.  I also grew up with the idea that you had to do something yourself to really do it others.  Also, we are all different, so it wouldn't be exactly the same.  I just get that feeling, honestly, when you bring that up, that I would want to sit in somebody's lap.  I find that popular people relate to me well.  So, it would be very possible, if I wanted to be small.  I'm trying to get big, now, and I could get small again.  Oh well, I don't know if I'll ever find the answer to my question because I'm 4 races.  I guess I have concluded that to like relate to someone you can't just be like big and bad.  You have to be like a good stature.  Eating a lot, you won't necessarily get too wide nor maybe tall..  I'm not sure how I'm structured, but I do seem to be fatter than I used to be and am certainly heavier since going up north and thinking my life was an experiment and having trouble trying to diet again.  I had fasted before and gained weight after that, as well.  I don't know why I'm still heavy.  I think I lack the good resources.  The food in Orlando is different.  When I moved to the New Orleans area, I had a fetish with Pizza Pockets, and then they didn't exist like before.  I used to watch Cats and have 2 lousy Pizza Pockets.  After awhile, they would lose their taste.  I also ate a lot of pasta, and my mom said it would make me fat.  I'm having a dessert fetish and may get diabetes.  I guess I can't diet.  I was gonna go eat now but I guess was excited to get on Twitter and may go to bed.  I found that older people tend to have a more physical stature, all the time, strange.  No one is smaller than me, totally, even my mom.  Her thumbnails are bigger than mine, and she's much smaller and shorter.  I think I'm bigger than all my aunts.  I bet my older one, who is shorter now, would carry me.  She never has.  Maybe when I was a baby.  Neither did the other one.  I don't remember sitting in my mom's lap except like on a plane.  I don't really remember much.  I remember her carrying me a lot when I was scared and hiding behind her skirt when I was a little older, 4 or 5.  After that, my life became very fake.  I think I remember how my mom felt when I was an infant.  She held me in a wrap.  It was just a big, overwhelming, not very feeling, feeling of bliss.  I think she's graduated, now that I'm 25|26.  That's how old she was when I was conceived.  8|  Maybe, you did, obviously, I'm sure find your way to those pictures I made, perhaps, I'm pretty sure, even, right away, of you fondling some people.  I find the practice stimulating, and it'd be nice to experience real life like that.  I'm finding that people are so robotic, but in the arts you find they're the kind you want.  I know you're pretty particular.  You have like well-behaved kids on your show, and you don't like touch people too much.  I am not sure why people in New Orleans don't touch much.  I know sometimes.  In Florida, I masturbated as a kid and thought of weird things first.  It was a little satisfying posting about Tim Burton.  When I was up north, I felt the most, but we don't live there.  I think I belong in the Midwest.  I'd like to find and help more people like you, though.  Well, both.  Wouldn't it be fun if we went there, unless you still just like your show and that's all and the people who go through it.  I'm just imagining stuff because I guess that's how I got into masturbating.  When I was up north, I didn't really relate to people physically, other than my relatives in Pennsylvania|New York.