Thursday, October 18, 2012
More
When I watch a video on YouTube, usually mine, I see the bar pop up at the bottom sometimes 5 times a song.
f.y.i.
She did it to my brother's future daughter first, explained at some point in my blog. Ah, yes, when we were at Epcot, my brother shoved the Chinese food at my dad, probably because he was being mean to him about feeling it was special he got his wisdom teeth removed. Then, my dad went haywire. He doesn't seem to do this to other people. I can't stand people who think they're good but play with if other people are really good. It's like they don't want to be friends and don't want them to make friends.
How Worthless
I get hints of being menialized by my aunt. I think she just called my future son stupid and my brother's and I's future daughters invalids. I said something about stupid animals, big, clunky, stupid animals.
I also said that lots of people call people the n word. It doesn't matter because I thought someone wanted me to do it. Why does it matter how old you are?
I also said that lots of people call people the n word. It doesn't matter because I thought someone wanted me to do it. Why does it matter how old you are?
More Sad News
When I load a profile picture to Twitter, if I load it in the original size, it says I didn't load a picture.
Opera
When I load my singing to YouTube, when I go to edit the boxes as I load, the mouse butterflies over it, like the Chinese|Oriental story opera, Madame Butterfly.
Didn't have to.
I didn't have to edit the last one.
Also, when I copy my posts, frequently, I have to get the first letter|s again, from Notepad-
Stupid English People ~ I am not Johnny frickin' Depp.
Why do they have to get it out with me? I am not Johnny frickin' Depp.
Blogger and YouTube
http://christina-fl86.blogspot.com/2012/10/blogger.html
http://christina-fl86.blogspot.com/2012/10/blogger-is-weird.html
When I load on YouTube, I have to load each song, individually.
I get the vibe it's because of people older than me tackily sucking up to my grandma, who was a storekeeper or booker at her brother's craft store, where she was fired from when having an operation. My dad went to the hospital recently for kidney stones, and my 2nd cousin did at one point. She has 2 kids, and her son is half African.
http://christina-fl86.blogspot.com/2012/10/blogger-is-weird.html
When I load on YouTube, I have to load each song, individually.
I get the vibe it's because of people older than me tackily sucking up to my grandma, who was a storekeeper or booker at her brother's craft store, where she was fired from when having an operation. My dad went to the hospital recently for kidney stones, and my 2nd cousin did at one point. She has 2 kids, and her son is half African.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
My Weird Life
About Me
"I've had a rather weird life. I did lots of activities in school, this one or these 2 years, high school. I've always done something or some things. I've liked drawing since I was 3 and gymnastics since I was 1 3|4. I did tennis with my brother at 11 and my friend until I moved at 12 and did it until after I started college, same with martial arts but since age 12. I started these 2 things after my brother. I also did modeling at JCPenney with my tennis teacher's wife. He was probably in his early 70s. My piano teacher I finally got was probably in her 70s, Italian, and from the Bronx, I think, and got certificates at Juilliard. She used to play, and people in the neighborhood heard her. Her husband didn't want her to play, so she stopped. She was really like automatic, like I was crap. I was highly esteemed in piano, since I started at 9 1|2 and played at church until I moved and then played organ. I also majored in organ. It was my secondary instrument, and then I made it my major instrument after I was kicked out of piano and voice and my major in Music Education and went up north. I took special art classes at 9, walked after school, in the nation's oldest continuing city, which was Spanish, until my grandma gave us her car and I did piano. There was no ballet, and that's why I quit gymnastics. I wanted a harder ballet school and thought they were racist when we lived in not so south Southeastern Florida but near where I'm from originally... My mom never found another school. I said I wanted to get out, though, when she asked after I informed her of my intentions. I did ballet when we moved to the New Orleans area at 12, starting when I was 12 1|2. I looked at a modern school first and was upset it was once a week. They wanted me to wait, but I didn't. It fixed my scoliosis I just got. I noticed my back went back, and I seemed fatter, before we moved. I didn't seem as detailed when we moved. The reason I became feminine was from reading books of people in America from a long time ago, but that was just American Girls and before the Little House Books. I got up to the Long Winter but have looked through the books ahead. I used to read Zoo Books from front to cover when I was 8. Well, I'm gonna go, now, to take a shower and do something else, I think."
"I've had a rather weird life. I did lots of activities in school, this one or these 2 years, high school. I've always done something or some things. I've liked drawing since I was 3 and gymnastics since I was 1 3|4. I did tennis with my brother at 11 and my friend until I moved at 12 and did it until after I started college, same with martial arts but since age 12. I started these 2 things after my brother. I also did modeling at JCPenney with my tennis teacher's wife. He was probably in his early 70s. My piano teacher I finally got was probably in her 70s, Italian, and from the Bronx, I think, and got certificates at Juilliard. She used to play, and people in the neighborhood heard her. Her husband didn't want her to play, so she stopped. She was really like automatic, like I was crap. I was highly esteemed in piano, since I started at 9 1|2 and played at church until I moved and then played organ. I also majored in organ. It was my secondary instrument, and then I made it my major instrument after I was kicked out of piano and voice and my major in Music Education and went up north. I took special art classes at 9, walked after school, in the nation's oldest continuing city, which was Spanish, until my grandma gave us her car and I did piano. There was no ballet, and that's why I quit gymnastics. I wanted a harder ballet school and thought they were racist when we lived in not so south Southeastern Florida but near where I'm from originally... My mom never found another school. I said I wanted to get out, though, when she asked after I informed her of my intentions. I did ballet when we moved to the New Orleans area at 12, starting when I was 12 1|2. I looked at a modern school first and was upset it was once a week. They wanted me to wait, but I didn't. It fixed my scoliosis I just got. I noticed my back went back, and I seemed fatter, before we moved. I didn't seem as detailed when we moved. The reason I became feminine was from reading books of people in America from a long time ago, but that was just American Girls and before the Little House Books. I got up to the Long Winter but have looked through the books ahead. I used to read Zoo Books from front to cover when I was 8. Well, I'm gonna go, now, to take a shower and do something else, I think."
Halloween
About Me
"I was Dorothy for Halloween when I was 10 and 11. I wore a different jean jumper over a white T-shirt. I had a basket. My friend with white hair got a real costume of it one Halloween, which was weird in the nation's oldest continuing city, weird to find.
When I lived in the nation's oldest continuing city, I went to a Woolsworth that closed. I wanted a striped small backpack, probably blue, probably navy blue. I had money for my birthday, maybe from my older aunt. My mom seemed to like me to get a purse. I got a leather, patched black one, downtown, old buildings. Woolsworth soon shut down, and I had spent my money. My favorite restaurants there closed down, Pizza Garden, which had thick Sicilian pizza, and it was of high quality, very neat, with a place to eat outside, in the outskirts of downtown, an old Spanish city. It's from 1565, I think. Also, there was the Heritage Walkway on Saint George Street, which I passed when I walked to school sometimes, with my mom and brother. You go down a line of shops and there's a bar. I got a little pizza that was really good an often got lemonade. I didn't like it when I was little but first shared it with my dad at a festival. I loved it so much. It was so substantial and complex. I was 7, I think. I remember seeing younger boys with cheap plastic cups of beer, and it horrified me. My dad worked the kiddie stuff in 2 places. In the 1st, we even had a Thanksgiving festival. I saw someone do a somersault in the air there, an older boy I think, and I couldn't believe it. My dad broke or rather did something to his knee when we moved again when he worked a basketball booth, in the New Orleans area, his first injury, the 2nd being the other knee when we moved to Orlando. He got surgery again, and I spent money on my store cards that they're not paying, ever. Something else interesting is in the Wax Museum, which I lost the video of with my computer and probably made private on YouTube, I'm pretty sure, for some reason, or deleted, they had a substantial block set for Michael Jackson I remember leaning over in a graveyard, which might have been 20 feet. There was this sinister music that featured crackling laughing at the end, and it made me like jump out of my skin that they'd be that retarded. My dad told me it was one of his songs. Speaking of which, when I lived there, there was a place for retired nuns, and it was so funny when someone thought it was "retarded" as we walked to something, not sure what, maybe church. We lived at the oldest parish in the nation, Catholic, which was burned down. We walked to church once a week. I was in choir then, too, and once a week on Sundays. Before, I was at church every week and an alter server, did gymnastics once a week and baton. I wasn't allowed to carry the cross under one older lady and was so enraged. I was 7, I think. I couldn't be an alter server if I was in choir next. There was no choir for kids in the New Orleans area. They made a Youth Choir, though, and I played keyboard in it. It was an old-looking church. It was kinda exciting. I did Youth Group, too. I liked touring, walking around the churches in New Orleans. I saw the Saint Louis Cathedral. When I went to arts school in New Orleans, my teacher had red hair, a guy, and he played guitar. He played there. He played the end song with the girl and Nutcracker, too, and it inspired me so much because I did ballet. It just overcame me. I went there one year on Saturdays and before with everyone else in the summer and got the highest award, along with another girl with strawberry hair dyed red, who stayed in a hotel, while I was in the nice dorms of my future college, which were the only ones I couldn't stay in because I didn't have a group. That girl got to play Titanic with others, piano, and I did the duet with her, the performance. I played that, the real version, when I was 11|12, in 1998, starting at age 9 1|2. I was very advanced. I practiced the same stuff before I started, and I never told my teacher. She did get mad at me later. I did an easy version of Moonlight Sonata. I wanted to play for the senior play my first year of high school, was recommended by someone knowing I was trying out for Talented Music for the first semester of my second year. My mom didn't know about trying out that much in advance. The teacher ended up playing. She took out the hard stuff, but this boy I liked was impressed I could do Moonlight Sonata, the beginning and probably an easy version but maybe not. When I didn't get an A in American History Gifted, the music teacher from before came back and counseled me but didn't convince me out of the class. I think my aunt gave me the music I played before for my first piano lessons."
"I was Dorothy for Halloween when I was 10 and 11. I wore a different jean jumper over a white T-shirt. I had a basket. My friend with white hair got a real costume of it one Halloween, which was weird in the nation's oldest continuing city, weird to find.
When I lived in the nation's oldest continuing city, I went to a Woolsworth that closed. I wanted a striped small backpack, probably blue, probably navy blue. I had money for my birthday, maybe from my older aunt. My mom seemed to like me to get a purse. I got a leather, patched black one, downtown, old buildings. Woolsworth soon shut down, and I had spent my money. My favorite restaurants there closed down, Pizza Garden, which had thick Sicilian pizza, and it was of high quality, very neat, with a place to eat outside, in the outskirts of downtown, an old Spanish city. It's from 1565, I think. Also, there was the Heritage Walkway on Saint George Street, which I passed when I walked to school sometimes, with my mom and brother. You go down a line of shops and there's a bar. I got a little pizza that was really good an often got lemonade. I didn't like it when I was little but first shared it with my dad at a festival. I loved it so much. It was so substantial and complex. I was 7, I think. I remember seeing younger boys with cheap plastic cups of beer, and it horrified me. My dad worked the kiddie stuff in 2 places. In the 1st, we even had a Thanksgiving festival. I saw someone do a somersault in the air there, an older boy I think, and I couldn't believe it. My dad broke or rather did something to his knee when we moved again when he worked a basketball booth, in the New Orleans area, his first injury, the 2nd being the other knee when we moved to Orlando. He got surgery again, and I spent money on my store cards that they're not paying, ever. Something else interesting is in the Wax Museum, which I lost the video of with my computer and probably made private on YouTube, I'm pretty sure, for some reason, or deleted, they had a substantial block set for Michael Jackson I remember leaning over in a graveyard, which might have been 20 feet. There was this sinister music that featured crackling laughing at the end, and it made me like jump out of my skin that they'd be that retarded. My dad told me it was one of his songs. Speaking of which, when I lived there, there was a place for retired nuns, and it was so funny when someone thought it was "retarded" as we walked to something, not sure what, maybe church. We lived at the oldest parish in the nation, Catholic, which was burned down. We walked to church once a week. I was in choir then, too, and once a week on Sundays. Before, I was at church every week and an alter server, did gymnastics once a week and baton. I wasn't allowed to carry the cross under one older lady and was so enraged. I was 7, I think. I couldn't be an alter server if I was in choir next. There was no choir for kids in the New Orleans area. They made a Youth Choir, though, and I played keyboard in it. It was an old-looking church. It was kinda exciting. I did Youth Group, too. I liked touring, walking around the churches in New Orleans. I saw the Saint Louis Cathedral. When I went to arts school in New Orleans, my teacher had red hair, a guy, and he played guitar. He played there. He played the end song with the girl and Nutcracker, too, and it inspired me so much because I did ballet. It just overcame me. I went there one year on Saturdays and before with everyone else in the summer and got the highest award, along with another girl with strawberry hair dyed red, who stayed in a hotel, while I was in the nice dorms of my future college, which were the only ones I couldn't stay in because I didn't have a group. That girl got to play Titanic with others, piano, and I did the duet with her, the performance. I played that, the real version, when I was 11|12, in 1998, starting at age 9 1|2. I was very advanced. I practiced the same stuff before I started, and I never told my teacher. She did get mad at me later. I did an easy version of Moonlight Sonata. I wanted to play for the senior play my first year of high school, was recommended by someone knowing I was trying out for Talented Music for the first semester of my second year. My mom didn't know about trying out that much in advance. The teacher ended up playing. She took out the hard stuff, but this boy I liked was impressed I could do Moonlight Sonata, the beginning and probably an easy version but maybe not. When I didn't get an A in American History Gifted, the music teacher from before came back and counseled me but didn't convince me out of the class. I think my aunt gave me the music I played before for my first piano lessons."
Ellen DeGeneres
So, first we go to Epcot and my brother gets antsy about something, well kinda sharp. Then, my aunt contends that my dad is older and in authority, after she picks this idea up from a boy from England I talk to. She acts like my brother's daughter will be gay. Well, same for you and for her likes, if that's okay, though it shouldn't be necessary... I don't mean it literally, but I am mixed and don't know how to get across my thoughts, I hope you knew... :( Then, she acts like my daughter will be an invalid. I just find that simply bad because of the n word thing, on top of other weird things that have happened to me or that I did, sorta meshed together.
About Ellen DeGeneres, it seems we've decided that simply my brother will pointedly off his feeling of his daughter. He was mean to me about mine, and I thought the same thing ricocheted in worth over me. He seemed to have an orgasm, and I'm worried that was supposed to be his future daughter! D^8{'
Okay, I'm taking a shower!
I did get the feeling back and that no one would have kids for no reason, this as I was running, the first I think about my house, alone.
Reminds me, my dad only takes long walks for his sisters. He now treats them with more of a proper respect than me and my mom. Hard to think about before.
About Ellen DeGeneres, it seems we've decided that simply my brother will pointedly off his feeling of his daughter. He was mean to me about mine, and I thought the same thing ricocheted in worth over me. He seemed to have an orgasm, and I'm worried that was supposed to be his future daughter! D^8{'
Okay, I'm taking a shower!
I did get the feeling back and that no one would have kids for no reason, this as I was running, the first I think about my house, alone.
Reminds me, my dad only takes long walks for his sisters. He now treats them with more of a proper respect than me and my mom. Hard to think about before.
^*^ Edit ^*^
About Me
"The only video game I played was Frogger. I saw these really advanced ones when computers first came out or became popular, rather, the advanced ones that weren't like typewriters. It was about flying and landing a ship in space, kinda complex, didn't understand it, really. Also, there was one with such gooey blood, going through like a tomb like one of those things at MGM. I did get to all the levels and was pretty good at it, really. I'm not sure if I'd go back and do it. I think I have, like those handheld ones. It was very easy. I forgot, I also played Zoo Tycoon and SIM Safari. It was my brother's. I remember SIM City, too. I stayed up all night playing Zoo Tycoon several times, with my brother sleeping on the couch. I had so many Bengal Tigers, like 100, which isn't like something advanced to do. I might have had like 500. They even have Yetis, I think. This was back in 2003.
"The only video game I played was Frogger. I saw these really advanced ones when computers first came out or became popular, rather, the advanced ones that weren't like typewriters. It was about flying and landing a ship in space, kinda complex, didn't understand it, really. Also, there was one with such gooey blood, going through like a tomb like one of those things at MGM. I did get to all the levels and was pretty good at it, really. I'm not sure if I'd go back and do it. I think I have, like those handheld ones. It was very easy. I forgot, I also played Zoo Tycoon and SIM Safari. It was my brother's. I remember SIM City, too. I stayed up all night playing Zoo Tycoon several times, with my brother sleeping on the couch. I had so many Bengal Tigers, like 100, which isn't like something advanced to do. I might have had like 500. They even have Yetis, I think. This was back in 2003.
It's
also funny, my brother got a Golden Retriever when I went to bed early
to play for church. The priest of 30 years retired. We got a new one
with a couple in music, but the man was the active one. The woman just
sang. He played organ and directed. He was Italian and Cajun. They
had a cute daughter with mousy medium brown kinda bright brown long hair
who was about 5. She was so cute with her hair wrapped up for Girl
Scouts. We used to stay up and watch Atlantis 2, Scooby Doo and the
Alien Invaders, and The Rescuers."
Another Animal Computer Game
About Me
Continued About Frogger
"I did get to all the levels and was pretty good at it, really. I'm not sure if I'd go back and do it. I think I have, like those handheld ones. It was very easy. I forgot, I also played Zoo Tycoon and SIM Safari. It was my brother's. I remember SIM City, too. I stayed up all night playing Zoo Tycoon. I had so many Bengal Tigers, like 100, which isn't like something advanced to do. I might have had like 500. They even have Yetis, I think. This was back in 2003."
Continued About Frogger
"I did get to all the levels and was pretty good at it, really. I'm not sure if I'd go back and do it. I think I have, like those handheld ones. It was very easy. I forgot, I also played Zoo Tycoon and SIM Safari. It was my brother's. I remember SIM City, too. I stayed up all night playing Zoo Tycoon. I had so many Bengal Tigers, like 100, which isn't like something advanced to do. I might have had like 500. They even have Yetis, I think. This was back in 2003."
About Me: Frogger '8^)
About Me
"The only video game I played was Frogger. I saw these really advanced ones when computers first came out or became popular, rather, the advanced ones that weren't like typewriters. It was about flying and landing a ship in space, kinda complex, didn't understand it, really. Also, there was one with such gooey blood, going through like a tomb like one of those things at MGM."
"The only video game I played was Frogger. I saw these really advanced ones when computers first came out or became popular, rather, the advanced ones that weren't like typewriters. It was about flying and landing a ship in space, kinda complex, didn't understand it, really. Also, there was one with such gooey blood, going through like a tomb like one of those things at MGM."
Blogger is weird.
When post, I have to go back and edit an Enter at the top. However, if it's a link at the top, I don't have to. When I posted about PotC3, this guy said, "How do I google the ling?" '8^|
Upper Body Workouts '8^}
I did the upper body workouts before, but then I tried the whole DVD and then didn't work out again for awhile, not being able to go to the grocery store for some reason. I just didn't feel like it and ended up waiting but shouldn't have.
I just did core and upper + core, today.
I just did core and upper + core, today.
Pictures of Me! :D
About Me
"I have some good pictures of me that might be developed from the hurricane|flood Katrina. There's one when I was 7 doing baton where I smile oh so brightly and tilt my head with a star and vest, purple, over black, with sequins. I have some good pictures when I was 3-4. I wore ponytails when I was 2, 3, & 4, all the time. Well, pigtails. I wore them sometimes until I was 7. I also have good pictures when I was 9, 10, and 11 and probably 8."
"I have some good pictures of me that might be developed from the hurricane|flood Katrina. There's one when I was 7 doing baton where I smile oh so brightly and tilt my head with a star and vest, purple, over black, with sequins. I have some good pictures when I was 3-4. I wore ponytails when I was 2, 3, & 4, all the time. Well, pigtails. I wore them sometimes until I was 7. I also have good pictures when I was 9, 10, and 11 and probably 8."
My Dad
For some reason, I was in my room, and I looked and there my dad was. I expected him to be there. This was probably 3 weeks ago on a weekend. I think he was telling me he was going to the mall and asking if I wanted to go, but I didn't feel like it.
Herd
If I didn't say this, I saw someone taking a walk who picked up and said, "It's not in it in the next herd." I think they graduated to being a person eating at Burger King.
If I Didn't Say This Already
I found that like someone born when my dad was was supposed to be born like people 10 years later, like his youngest sister. People born before are like me with people born later, don't want to be "reduced" to that.
My Ear v
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I have a pimple in my left ear. It's not where it hurts, like it has before, so much, and made me stay home from movies. I went underwater without earplugs. I have these pink and yellow foam ones now with like extra padding on the outside. I got them online for like $5, and you could get more, too, like 80.
I have a pimple in my left ear. It's not where it hurts, like it has before, so much, and made me stay home from movies. I went underwater without earplugs. I have these pink and yellow foam ones now with like extra padding on the outside. I got them online for like $5, and you could get more, too, like 80.
glllitch
At last-names.net at ancestry.com, I can't look up the last names right away after looking up one. '};{ I look up who's on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
I have an account there, whoops forgot to cancel it. Anyway, I put up my Facebook on "Ellen's Energy Adventure" and my Twitter, which is an interesting coincidence.
I have an account there, whoops forgot to cancel it. Anyway, I put up my Facebook on "Ellen's Energy Adventure" and my Twitter, which is an interesting coincidence.
I caught you red-handed! '};{
You can't make a point against me eloquently but not on a rapport if I can't make one on a rapport. '};{
Also, I'm too soft to be a pervert and hurt any of you. '};{
I see Ellen DeGeneres likes to make fun of people in pleasure.
Also, she doesn't believe points ever slip. She thinks she's European and always right. I guess that means we could have done anything to her we wanted.
Also, I'm too soft to be a pervert and hurt any of you. '};{
I see Ellen DeGeneres likes to make fun of people in pleasure.
Also, she doesn't believe points ever slip. She thinks she's European and always right. I guess that means we could have done anything to her we wanted.
All Things Bright and Good ;o
I don't think that you should count like sometimes just the more physical things and avoid what's really happening to only, in turn, get attention and to play around in the same way doing what's really wrong, taking all things into consideration.
My Pubes
Or whatever, egg sacks. I'm a bit upset. I haven't been able to control them, but they're feeling better now. That surprises me, and I know it will feel bad again. They've been tumultuos but have been feeling like pleasured, like along the sides, like. A car just went by, and I felt better, even without sound protection. Maybe, it's from eating and sleeping and taking a break from exercising, as well. I'll never know because things changed since this has happened, more regularly as time went on, to the point of being very annoying.
Blogger
So, all the browsers have been giving me problems.
Like, when I post, it skips a line. Some don't copy double spaces when you paste from Notepad. So, I have to go an edit it and luckily it works then. I have one more browser to try. I'm just lucky this one is consistent.
Like, when I post, it skips a line. Some don't copy double spaces when you paste from Notepad. So, I have to go an edit it and luckily it works then. I have one more browser to try. I'm just lucky this one is consistent.
In Bed 8^|
When I was in bed, instead of masturbating, I felt that same effect like I was combined with like a person. I think I did it 3 times. It was because I've been masturbating like to for example when I look up kids on the internet. Even the child stars. They're so dirty and disgusting. I had to get it out in another way. I can only know how I ended up doing that but not exactly the way how.
If you're wondering, it's not really the kind of thing I want to do. I think I was getting something out.
Dream
I was crouched over in bed, like in my old room, and I thought Ellen DeGeneres was being very attractive, condense, and controlled, like rubbing my back and stuff, as I realized, slowly waking up. It turned out I was dreaming of my aunt.
Feeling Good B)
I realized I've been feeling good in the way my mom makes me feel.
In my dream, it was more warm and like physical. I think I just felt it in mostly my waist, the warm and physical part. It's funny to be describing it. It's just something that needs to be touched on. We all like to feel it, and it's best to feel it in a less humiliating way. I know I was surprised to feel that way.
It's just a sorta nice feeling I've picked up from like Kate Bush and then Orla Fallon. Kate Bush was a real inspirer. I really like the affects of Orla Fallon.
In my dream, it was more warm and like physical. I think I just felt it in mostly my waist, the warm and physical part. It's funny to be describing it. It's just something that needs to be touched on. We all like to feel it, and it's best to feel it in a less humiliating way. I know I was surprised to feel that way.
It's just a sorta nice feeling I've picked up from like Kate Bush and then Orla Fallon. Kate Bush was a real inspirer. I really like the affects of Orla Fallon.
* Dreams *
}:) I guess the nicest one was the part where I met Ellen DeGeneres. I've been following her online and stuff. What happened when I met her was she came right up to me. She was looking more brown and sorta worn. I didn't feel much but sensed what was happening, and she put her arm around me, in some way, and I put my arm around her, kinda whiny for her, thpough that's the opposite of the mood I was in. For some reason, I felt assertive with her and like faced her and was hugging her saying, "I don't feel well," you know, sorta mumbling. I wouldn't really do this to her, but I suppose I wanted to think about doing it. So, then, I felt so good and she was rubbing my waist readily with both hands. It's that feeling I used to get when I was a tween. It was very strong, though, and not as humiliating.
Sometime after, I was walking down a hallway, like a dark, silvery airport that had the feel of a college campus. I wanted to look up a person on the computer, I think her. I think her name was Marion something, and I later found out what it was and that she was with another girl in a picture or something. My mom and maybe before brother was looking for me. They were talking to some people. Funny, my dad had me take a walk last night after Cracker Barrel near a movie theater.
There was another tedious part where a boy was following us for a long time, who was threatening us most of the way. I think he was related to her. He was nice in the end and opened our door somehow with our key.
Before I hugged Ellen DeGeneres, I was supposedly entering an old college. The principle was big, maybe 5'6", but kinda attractive, short grayish gold hair that was fluffed up. She followed me and said something and asked if I wanted a hug. So, it was real, but not feasible, I hugged her and put one leg up her side so she was picking me up without any effort.
For a lot of the time, I was searching around a college bookstore. I saw these statues. I kept going back seeing the same thing. They were the little birthday girls. They seemed kinda vintage yet classical. Like, some had fluffy, flat-topped looking dresses, like thick layers underneath. I wanted the 16 one, which had a dress that flared out and curled under. It had a fairly small head with curly, medium hair, as most had. They looked good. All of them weren't there. I guess there was a big one that looked good, kinda bent over. It reminds me of "Beauty and the Beast" at Disney World. Then, there was a small one that was sorta like folded over at an angle, more.
So, I can't really recreate the exact feeling of my waist being rubbed. I can tap into it. I guess it was funny. Now, I forget what I was going to say. It was like I had to react, for fun, to get someone to like touch me. Oh yes, before, I was dreaming of being, well, visions almost of me being carried a lot, which I didn't really like, at least in the end.
When I was in bed, I was feeling uncomfortable without my head covered but very comfortable otherwise and wanted to stay. When I moved, I didn't feel as good and ended up waking up and am going to eat. I just feel like kinda fat. I don't really feel like walking and guess I will chose some circuits.
Sometime after, I was walking down a hallway, like a dark, silvery airport that had the feel of a college campus. I wanted to look up a person on the computer, I think her. I think her name was Marion something, and I later found out what it was and that she was with another girl in a picture or something. My mom and maybe before brother was looking for me. They were talking to some people. Funny, my dad had me take a walk last night after Cracker Barrel near a movie theater.
There was another tedious part where a boy was following us for a long time, who was threatening us most of the way. I think he was related to her. He was nice in the end and opened our door somehow with our key.
Before I hugged Ellen DeGeneres, I was supposedly entering an old college. The principle was big, maybe 5'6", but kinda attractive, short grayish gold hair that was fluffed up. She followed me and said something and asked if I wanted a hug. So, it was real, but not feasible, I hugged her and put one leg up her side so she was picking me up without any effort.
For a lot of the time, I was searching around a college bookstore. I saw these statues. I kept going back seeing the same thing. They were the little birthday girls. They seemed kinda vintage yet classical. Like, some had fluffy, flat-topped looking dresses, like thick layers underneath. I wanted the 16 one, which had a dress that flared out and curled under. It had a fairly small head with curly, medium hair, as most had. They looked good. All of them weren't there. I guess there was a big one that looked good, kinda bent over. It reminds me of "Beauty and the Beast" at Disney World. Then, there was a small one that was sorta like folded over at an angle, more.
So, I can't really recreate the exact feeling of my waist being rubbed. I can tap into it. I guess it was funny. Now, I forget what I was going to say. It was like I had to react, for fun, to get someone to like touch me. Oh yes, before, I was dreaming of being, well, visions almost of me being carried a lot, which I didn't really like, at least in the end.
When I was in bed, I was feeling uncomfortable without my head covered but very comfortable otherwise and wanted to stay. When I moved, I didn't feel as good and ended up waking up and am going to eat. I just feel like kinda fat. I don't really feel like walking and guess I will chose some circuits.
About Me ~
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So, I was born a little brown baby with dark blue eyes that turned grayish blue when I got fat and white. I think I wanted to keep looking that detailed, but I think my mom made me very plastered. I think my dad made my brother plastered, in a different way... Like, he had that crew cut look, in a way, but also developed most of his life a bowl cut look. He is born November 26, 1990, 11:30 P.M., Monday. I was born May 20, 1986, about 2:05-2:10 P.M., I think, on a Tuesday. We were both born on the east coast. He was born inland more north near where I was conceived on the beach, and I was born in the major city of the area above Miami, which is very major. I don't believe it is known outside of the area, but people who travel to Miami in Florida must know about it. It's a very homey place... Like, yea. Like, the technology and stuff makes you feel cozy, very much, a sort of astounding feel to it. It's very nice. Like, it just feels so cozy to sit there and watch TV. Going outside is so rich to see all the palm trees. I miss it so much. I moved away from the area when I was 5. I used to think I lived in all these cities. I think at age 2, I lived where Johnny Depp mostly grew up. Maybe, I'll formulate another map, later. I don't really feel so well, right now.
So, I grew up. When I moved to Jacksonville, the major city in Northeastern Florida, people asked if I was Chinese, but I don't know why. I had like big Anime eyes. I looked very sculpted.
I forgot to add, I think as a baby, I was a bit like grotesque in my fascinations, though I wouldn't want to be that way. I think I was sassy to my mom, though I was kinda fat and clumpy, yet smoothed over. Like, I had roles of fat, kinda glossed over flat. I probably looked so realistic because I found my dad has Jewish blood, Polish Jewish and Swiss Jewish. He also might be part German|Leichtensteiner|Austrian|French plus other French and German from his dad. The part I mentioned first is from his mom. The Jewish is from his mom. I think his dad has Scottish blood, as well as she, though I grew up thinking not. That makes me wonder about how much other people have. I think I have it major, like in dominant last names from males. Not much substace, though.
Also, when I went up north, this is kinda grotesque in how it popularized as a peak of interest, my grandma acted brutally racist to me and then was indirect, as for others, in their doings to me thereafter, when I didn't accept it in my unconscious attitude. I noticed I do stuff without thinking now. I think with my mom, I had predicted the late 90s, like 1996 or 1995 or even 1994, as a baby, and was sassy about being fat. Like, I know in my picture I positioned my head in a weird way to the side and probably twitched, like I do now, a lot. I was just mad about being mixed race. I don't know why I had it so bad for having the right goals in mind as a mixed person.
I guess, when I was born, I didn't look as healthy as I could have. I looked a little disgusting after birth, as well, laid out. Not really dirty. I should put the pictures back up in a sub-album.
I think I had very wood, sorta illuminated, emotional colored hair, but it looked pleasantly black from afar. It got so dark. My brother had medium brown hair, but I never noticed, and then it got very black. He's not as naturally dark as me and was born fat and red. I posted his picture once, but I wasn't supposed to. I'm not sure why I did. I think I thought I wanted to show some people, but I talked to the world. He's on Facebook but not my friend. He posts pictures, like a whole bunch from trips.
You can guess from other evidence what my life was like. I have lots of good stories to tell I may tell later because it would take a long time.
So, I was born a little brown baby with dark blue eyes that turned grayish blue when I got fat and white. I think I wanted to keep looking that detailed, but I think my mom made me very plastered. I think my dad made my brother plastered, in a different way... Like, he had that crew cut look, in a way, but also developed most of his life a bowl cut look. He is born November 26, 1990, 11:30 P.M., Monday. I was born May 20, 1986, about 2:05-2:10 P.M., I think, on a Tuesday. We were both born on the east coast. He was born inland more north near where I was conceived on the beach, and I was born in the major city of the area above Miami, which is very major. I don't believe it is known outside of the area, but people who travel to Miami in Florida must know about it. It's a very homey place... Like, yea. Like, the technology and stuff makes you feel cozy, very much, a sort of astounding feel to it. It's very nice. Like, it just feels so cozy to sit there and watch TV. Going outside is so rich to see all the palm trees. I miss it so much. I moved away from the area when I was 5. I used to think I lived in all these cities. I think at age 2, I lived where Johnny Depp mostly grew up. Maybe, I'll formulate another map, later. I don't really feel so well, right now.
So, I grew up. When I moved to Jacksonville, the major city in Northeastern Florida, people asked if I was Chinese, but I don't know why. I had like big Anime eyes. I looked very sculpted.
I forgot to add, I think as a baby, I was a bit like grotesque in my fascinations, though I wouldn't want to be that way. I think I was sassy to my mom, though I was kinda fat and clumpy, yet smoothed over. Like, I had roles of fat, kinda glossed over flat. I probably looked so realistic because I found my dad has Jewish blood, Polish Jewish and Swiss Jewish. He also might be part German|Leichtensteiner|Austrian|French plus other French and German from his dad. The part I mentioned first is from his mom. The Jewish is from his mom. I think his dad has Scottish blood, as well as she, though I grew up thinking not. That makes me wonder about how much other people have. I think I have it major, like in dominant last names from males. Not much substace, though.
Also, when I went up north, this is kinda grotesque in how it popularized as a peak of interest, my grandma acted brutally racist to me and then was indirect, as for others, in their doings to me thereafter, when I didn't accept it in my unconscious attitude. I noticed I do stuff without thinking now. I think with my mom, I had predicted the late 90s, like 1996 or 1995 or even 1994, as a baby, and was sassy about being fat. Like, I know in my picture I positioned my head in a weird way to the side and probably twitched, like I do now, a lot. I was just mad about being mixed race. I don't know why I had it so bad for having the right goals in mind as a mixed person.
I guess, when I was born, I didn't look as healthy as I could have. I looked a little disgusting after birth, as well, laid out. Not really dirty. I should put the pictures back up in a sub-album.
I think I had very wood, sorta illuminated, emotional colored hair, but it looked pleasantly black from afar. It got so dark. My brother had medium brown hair, but I never noticed, and then it got very black. He's not as naturally dark as me and was born fat and red. I posted his picture once, but I wasn't supposed to. I'm not sure why I did. I think I thought I wanted to show some people, but I talked to the world. He's on Facebook but not my friend. He posts pictures, like a whole bunch from trips.
You can guess from other evidence what my life was like. I have lots of good stories to tell I may tell later because it would take a long time.
* * Shower Time! * *
I don't think I'll take a bath. I will do my nails though and guess I get to pick out an outfit for tomorrow!
Website Update
"When I was little, I used to have this good tea. It's hard to describe, but it seemed like this purest tea, this general, traditional, fancy, complex tea. I guess it's kinda like coffee in how sorta it has that feel of something that rubs a lot.
For some reason, we stopped having it. I remember for some reason always getting antsy when we had it. It just happened. I think my mom grew up having tea.
I started having it again. The first thing I had, though, was a mocha, and I don't drink coffee. I'm the least coffee person in the world. However, I do like the smell a lot and when I do have a drink."
For some reason, we stopped having it. I remember for some reason always getting antsy when we had it. It just happened. I think my mom grew up having tea.
I started having it again. The first thing I had, though, was a mocha, and I don't drink coffee. I'm the least coffee person in the world. However, I do like the smell a lot and when I do have a drink."
Cheese
Today, at Olive Garden, I had to put down my pizza because I couldn't take any more cheese. I was known as a cheese person as a young adult.
Website Update
"I don't know much about alcohol, but I found that having food with it tasted trashy, after awhile, but I will still go back and have it, maybe. At first, I thought it was the most divine thing, like."
White
I wonder if my brother will ever be able to look white. I must have been through some rough stuff with my parents. I know a lot of Asians stand more of a chance of being more European and intelligent in that way.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
My Hand! '8^0
I feel that the influence of Renee Fleming or someone channeling her somehow, maybe through me being an experiment, again! made my hand feel like a person for some reason, you know in a disgusting way that is possible, I guess. Needless to say, it's pinpointing key hot spots. It was my right hand first, and it happened again. Something adverse happened, and I thought that she made me turn on my dad and I used the word nigger in the same sentence describing the occurrence.
*Up*
Did you ever consider the movie Up? It features a young Japanese or Chinese or Korean boy with an old English man who looks like he's gonna die.
I was thinking of my brother. He is feisty and something of a devil who's calmed down later in life. He thinks it's funny to be everything I don't want to be and test me for it. What a ditzy thing to do. Why didn't my parents guide him?
Oh, yea, and my mother wanted me to baby my brother. She thinks that's what I'm for. Well, he didn't listen and for some reason he wanted to be with her too much, though he was not accepting of her race, at the core.
So, it seems all these people are acting bad just to make you feel like you're better. I shouldn't get in trouble for it. I already don't want to go there but try to convince them otherwise. People are so silly and think maybe I need to be bad like them. What outlandish idea made that happen? '8^.
I was thinking of my brother. He is feisty and something of a devil who's calmed down later in life. He thinks it's funny to be everything I don't want to be and test me for it. What a ditzy thing to do. Why didn't my parents guide him?
Oh, yea, and my mother wanted me to baby my brother. She thinks that's what I'm for. Well, he didn't listen and for some reason he wanted to be with her too much, though he was not accepting of her race, at the core.
So, it seems all these people are acting bad just to make you feel like you're better. I shouldn't get in trouble for it. I already don't want to go there but try to convince them otherwise. People are so silly and think maybe I need to be bad like them. What outlandish idea made that happen? '8^.
The New Baby ^ ^
Ellen DeGeneres is weird. She is like putting all this stuff over my head set to happen because of other people and the n word thing.
Well, I found that people realize what they did before this happened that was wrong, and that seems to consume them.
Like, I feel that she's like stereotyping me in bad ways like she's afraid of me. I don't know, but it seems Kate Bush did that. At first, I was feeling good from them. Then, I felt them turn on me because of the n word thing. Like, they made me unappealing, the same influence rubbed off from Tim Burton and the world looking like Winona Ryder.
I guess Ellen DeGeneres will never be her brother. She seems to think the youngest should always be the cutest. My mom seems to have made my brother feel more innocent. Well, I'm a girl, and she seems to know about that kind of thing, maybe. I don't really like to think I'm supposed to be like unimportant because I have a little brother. I seem a lot whiter than him, as put in my website, like in my outward desires.
I'm mad at my parents. They truly cannot control me, and sometimes they act like that's okay.
I think my mom really threw me away like trash, ashamed at what she did.
My brother was a bit feistier than me, for whatever reason, and not as fresh. I guess girls are made to be more fresh, and people with older moms tend to feel more in a certain way though maybe may not have as much punch as some people. You get it, it's complicated and too much to go into for me because I'm mixed.
Well, I found that people realize what they did before this happened that was wrong, and that seems to consume them.
Like, I feel that she's like stereotyping me in bad ways like she's afraid of me. I don't know, but it seems Kate Bush did that. At first, I was feeling good from them. Then, I felt them turn on me because of the n word thing. Like, they made me unappealing, the same influence rubbed off from Tim Burton and the world looking like Winona Ryder.
I guess Ellen DeGeneres will never be her brother. She seems to think the youngest should always be the cutest. My mom seems to have made my brother feel more innocent. Well, I'm a girl, and she seems to know about that kind of thing, maybe. I don't really like to think I'm supposed to be like unimportant because I have a little brother. I seem a lot whiter than him, as put in my website, like in my outward desires.
I'm mad at my parents. They truly cannot control me, and sometimes they act like that's okay.
I think my mom really threw me away like trash, ashamed at what she did.
My brother was a bit feistier than me, for whatever reason, and not as fresh. I guess girls are made to be more fresh, and people with older moms tend to feel more in a certain way though maybe may not have as much punch as some people. You get it, it's complicated and too much to go into for me because I'm mixed.
Change the channel!
Ellen DeGeneres seems to be channeling negative energy. She is cynical, and she may be aware of that, already. Why wouldn't she be?
Anyway, I get the feeling she wants to reduce me to my brother. She happens to have a brother, and he's more like what people stereotyped me as when I lived where she lived.
Who would want you to be exactly like someone else? She seems to be well aware she has a fetish.
I don't know, but I don't think it affected me. I just found it insulting.
Anyway, I get the feeling she wants to reduce me to my brother. She happens to have a brother, and he's more like what people stereotyped me as when I lived where she lived.
Who would want you to be exactly like someone else? She seems to be well aware she has a fetish.
I don't know, but I don't think it affected me. I just found it insulting.
A Shot
All my problems are caused by the n word thing, and before that people weren't as honest with me in their emotions and doings, punishing but not as much, still giving me something of a shot.
2 Peas in a Pod
Why do people think that doing "the right thing" or "what you're supposed to do.." 8^. is offensive to them?
Magic 8^|
I'm pretty sure I've seen magic. One example is that when I was in college in Cleveland during Katrina, I was in bed and one arm was over my eyes, like glued to them, and the other forearm grew a foot and back in a minute. I know it was magic because then I woke up and there were blood drops under my armpits.
My Eye! 3^(
Isn't it funny when you feel like a certain way sorta mapped out like you know when people cross their eyes? One of my eyes sorta popped out.
Something Weird
Something weird that has been happening to me was that when I talked to my grandma, my cheeks got bigger. Since I thought something upset at my grandma, my right cheek has been swirling around, but I concentrated it elsewhere. It's kinda a hard disconnected feeling.
..So, did you notice?
Clumsy thumbsy...
Would you say some people go out of their way to hurt people? Also, do you see Tim Burton knocking people out as having a point?
Would you say some people go out of their way to hurt people? Also, do you see Tim Burton knocking people out as having a point?
Scottish
What do you think of people who grow up learning to read like suggestions, like people with major Scottish blood? I grew up thinking I wasn't Scottish but found out I had names that were originally from Scotland, one for sure though being from the northern islands.
*Immersion*
I realized if it's not about the kids immersing into culture, it's not about the parents, neither.
That Guy
I feel like that guy from Peanuts who walks around with the cloud around him, like my dad wants to brand me as a secretly bad person who can't fix it.
Did you ever think of the rules this way?
Like, I called someone the n word, so people can do anything they want to me. Except, I think the person is getting away with making me think they wanted me to do it. Instead, they think they can do bad stuff, stuff that they'd been doing, anyway, sorta unobtrusively. They might think they deserve it. Now, however, they have peaked their pleasure and decided to take certain traits away from me. I think a bunch of people do this, see things in different ways, but have no point and shouldn't be doing this because it isn't smart... It's mean, and that's not okay because I'm not allowed to do the wrong things to them.
Very Good Advice
"Ever since I went to college in Cleveland, which is at the Great Lakes, I've felt like my blankets were a person touching me."
Bread
I didn't get any biscuits because I thought they were better out. I guess next time I will get them. I open them with a knife.
For the first time, I actually got burger and dog buns that weren't wheat. :6 Except I didn't get any hamburgers nor hot dogs the past 2 times.
For the first time, I actually got burger and dog buns that weren't wheat. :6 Except I didn't get any hamburgers nor hot dogs the past 2 times.
Practice makes perfect.
So, I "shouldn't participate" because of the n word thing?
You know how practice makes perfect?
You're supposed to do things that people like to do and not think you're like waiting for someone else to do it or that no one will ever really do it like that, while other people get away with easy, unaccomplished lives.
You know how practice makes perfect?
You're supposed to do things that people like to do and not think you're like waiting for someone else to do it or that no one will ever really do it like that, while other people get away with easy, unaccomplished lives.
Tweet @ARobles125
You are really a sweet guy. =} You look a lot like my second cousin. Her mom was 15 when she was born. She has 2 children, Haylie and Noah. Oh, she's a few months younger than me, the last to pass through the higher grade born at that point in September. The funny thing is that her 2nd child is half black and oh so cute. I'm half Chinese-Indonesian, but I just look Caucasian.
Tweet @Iamcheerbear
Good for people who are able-bodied and well enough to tune in to what's on television as a part of their lives. Ello! 8^)
Wasted Money
I shouldn't have had to have gotten those 3 personality books this month.
Moreoff, I should have already have had the noisemaker.
I also got a movie that was cool but not like as interesting as you'd want.
What else? I was overspent on iTunes. I guess I just kept wasting money.
I have some cash to put on my credit card that I took out of another credit card. I've been using it on the other, and there is a small fee.
My dad is getting me my Halloween costume, though, which should be okay. We started going to the movies since a certain time, too, when I was in my room sick, kinda, like feeling tired. I just posted online. I didn't go to IMDb, though, until later. My dad was laid off when I was 16, when I lost my 4.0, too, and somehow he got by trying to give presentations. He went to Las Vegas and brought me back a souvenier, which I asked for, I think a pen.
The Halloween costume I am getting is at ebay and costs like $25 but comes with shoes and a hat and is very nice. I guess I'll wait and look for a trick-or-treat bag, around. :6
Moreoff, I should have already have had the noisemaker.
I also got a movie that was cool but not like as interesting as you'd want.
What else? I was overspent on iTunes. I guess I just kept wasting money.
I have some cash to put on my credit card that I took out of another credit card. I've been using it on the other, and there is a small fee.
My dad is getting me my Halloween costume, though, which should be okay. We started going to the movies since a certain time, too, when I was in my room sick, kinda, like feeling tired. I just posted online. I didn't go to IMDb, though, until later. My dad was laid off when I was 16, when I lost my 4.0, too, and somehow he got by trying to give presentations. He went to Las Vegas and brought me back a souvenier, which I asked for, I think a pen.
The Halloween costume I am getting is at ebay and costs like $25 but comes with shoes and a hat and is very nice. I guess I'll wait and look for a trick-or-treat bag, around. :6
Lame
What do you think of the way people are reacting, it seems, that like it's outrageous we want to be treated like the person who is an adult to us like as a parental figure age is sorta domineering over us, emotionally, and sorta dark and sexy? It seems to have spun off all around in various ways in the hidden background with hidden motives, too. 80
What do you think of people who shrug off this kind of thinking as disrespectful, when they define themselves to have the kinks of the majority? Like, they claim they are downplaying themselves not to look as good because they are not inherently perfect, but they are not more perfect than you are.
What do you think of people who shrug off this kind of thinking as disrespectful, when they define themselves to have the kinks of the majority? Like, they claim they are downplaying themselves not to look as good because they are not inherently perfect, but they are not more perfect than you are.
^ Living a Life of Misery 86 ^
Just because my dad's mom's dad's dad is part Native American indian does not mean I have to live my life tortured even in private as though I messed up when I wasn't even a person yet.
Also, I would only think it a blessing to have a minority of a most non-white race.
I'm not sure. I mean, it's my dad's mom's side that has Native American. I'm not sure which of his sides has it, guessing his dad's dad's or his mom's, but it may not matter. We're all different...
Also, I would only think it a blessing to have a minority of a most non-white race.
I'm not sure. I mean, it's my dad's mom's side that has Native American. I'm not sure which of his sides has it, guessing his dad's dad's or his mom's, but it may not matter. We're all different...
Dream
My first dream was scary.
While I remember the 2nd dream, I was hugging someone and they were hugging me and it felt really good.
Hard to remember the 1st one now, but I woke up to go to the bathroom.
Ah, yes, a car woke me up as it roared by.
So, I felt the hug because of my sheets. When I lie in bed, I feel kinda like that, like a person is touching me. Usually, I have to think of a real person, and then for a long time it sorta fuels me. I try not to, but I usually end up doing that now. I remember a time when it wasn't like that. It started, I think, after I was in college or thought my life turned into like an experiment...
Speaking of which, having your life be like an experiment is kinda weird. I hope there are other people like me in the same experiment.
Time for breatkfast. :)
While I remember the 2nd dream, I was hugging someone and they were hugging me and it felt really good.
Hard to remember the 1st one now, but I woke up to go to the bathroom.
Ah, yes, a car woke me up as it roared by.
So, I felt the hug because of my sheets. When I lie in bed, I feel kinda like that, like a person is touching me. Usually, I have to think of a real person, and then for a long time it sorta fuels me. I try not to, but I usually end up doing that now. I remember a time when it wasn't like that. It started, I think, after I was in college or thought my life turned into like an experiment...
Speaking of which, having your life be like an experiment is kinda weird. I hope there are other people like me in the same experiment.
Time for breatkfast. :)
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