I, in some way, realized Ellen DeGeneres is just there attacking people for not being smart blonde public speakers. She finds every little thing about you, mainly, that is wrong, and she doesn't really fix it but does something to compensate for it. She finds reasons for them later, I know, but I don't. It seems she really enjoys small things in life. I don't understand why people relish in my submission. I just know that I don't feel like everyone else just because she's different from most people. She's nice, but she's very weird if you think about her implications, which I believe are obvious, for some reason. I'm not even sure if she's really fully aware of this fact, just yet, in how she will, whereas lots of people are aware only of this. It just tells me she not only has nothing original to say (ah hard to get into, I don't feel well! ah!) and that she's going off what she looked like before and "doesn't really do it" anymore though is encouraged to. It doesn't make me like someone else more. I'm not in a way as fixated as reveling in I think one particular picture of when she was little I may post later when I feel okay. I'm not as bemused and bewildered as most. In a way. Whatever it is I'm thinking of doesn't affect me in a physical way to like think of pondering on because not much does. I guess we should let her be and help people. It's nice I guess when she meets someone who meshes, but I think it's about giving people opportunities. I guess that makes her feel good. She meets lots of neat people, and they're getting younger. I'm used to meeting neat people and feel better when I do. I've gotten over some of them for some reason. Some no. I guess people want to put her in line and not give her too much attention. Maybe, they think she's sorta lose and laid back. A lot of people are interested in living in certain ways more. She's a nice healthy person. I just worry about her, what she deserves and needs. I know she sees her mom and is with a younger, Italian-Australian girl. Maybe, she wants to know more adults. I know I do. I guess there's just not enough. I have her, Tim Burton ... Johnny Depp, Orla Fallon, some people I used to know. Who does she have? No one. I can't force anything on her, but it is a vial topic. After she reaches a certain age, it could be too late because people get older. She seems to always be catering to younger people now. I admit she is older. Maybe, her life wasn't exactly how she wanted and people weren't just right for her. I don't quite understand her fascination with young people so much if we're always worrying about her relationship with older people. Maybe, I'll get back to this, later.
Also, I'm looking up more people online, decided it was safe. :) People of different ages. '}8) Maybe, I can get them into Ellen DeGeneres? Couldn't get them into Johnny Depp.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Why don't you get to the point?
Ellen DeGeneres does not get to the point! Ellen DeGeneres does not have a point! What does that mean? The same thing? Maybe, I know everything about her. '}:)
I need to talk to more people and get them to watch her show. I'm creating a forum for her, as we speak. :| I just got interrupted by some niggerin'.
I need to talk to more people and get them to watch her show. I'm creating a forum for her, as we speak. :| I just got interrupted by some niggerin'.
GO TO HELL!
Quit being a stupid retard because I'm Chinese. Wait, why do we have the word "retard" in our vocabulary, so I don't say stupid?
You can't use me. You think you're so cool and sexy, but you're just a Jewish nigger, and I'm Jewish and I'm not a Jewish nigger.
You can't use me. You think you're so cool and sexy, but you're just a Jewish nigger, and I'm Jewish and I'm not a Jewish nigger.
What the Hell?
I DON'T WANT HELENA BONHAM CARTER'S DAUGHTER AND ELLEN DEGENERES PAIRING UP LIKE THIS, LIKE NIGGERS, ABSOLUTE NIGGERS, which is the good way of using the word, just to teach you that lesson! They planned this out on my blog! 80 If my dad had anything to do with it, I'll *beep* him. Wait, how should I have said that??
ELLEN, YOU *BEEP* - Fine, see if she likes that. See if she "likes" that. '}:| Why don't you just leave me alone? I like talking to you, but you're so mean. I SAID QUIT LISTENING TO MY FATHER. I SAID I DIDN'T CARE IF JOHNNY DEPP *BEEP*ED BECAUSE HE LISTENS TO THE LIKES OF HIM. I'LL SAY THE SAME FOR YOU SINCE YOU PROBABLY WILL ANYWAY. AND THAT'S WHY! Oh, but he probably knew everything. How disgusting! Why don't you just talk to him, pancake! If you agreed to agree to something, you can't get back at me, you GODDAMN NIGGER!
ELLEN, YOU *BEEP* - Fine, see if she likes that. See if she "likes" that. '}:| Why don't you just leave me alone? I like talking to you, but you're so mean. I SAID QUIT LISTENING TO MY FATHER. I SAID I DIDN'T CARE IF JOHNNY DEPP *BEEP*ED BECAUSE HE LISTENS TO THE LIKES OF HIM. I'LL SAY THE SAME FOR YOU SINCE YOU PROBABLY WILL ANYWAY. AND THAT'S WHY! Oh, but he probably knew everything. How disgusting! Why don't you just talk to him, pancake! If you agreed to agree to something, you can't get back at me, you GODDAMN NIGGER!
NEWS FLASH!
Ellen DeGeneres and Helena Bonham Carter channeled bad energy. I just got the image of them ransacking around my mom, unsure how you heard of the word.
They want to hurt the prettiest Chinese girl. It's not really in me to hurt people, but I can't stop it from happening.
They don't seem to be so well off themselves. They don't really seem to eat the best food. They don't seem to know what good food tastes like. I said it because I caught right away they were picking on my mom instead of me because of the food I ate. I don't know why Helena Bonham Carter seems kinda American, and like it seems too American to me.
I find that they and Tim Burton are quite "niggers." I just got the idea of them hurting my supposed future husband's sperm. What do you think that means to me? What if we caused Tim Burton's sperm to be created miserable? What if we bothered my dad so he writhed in pain? I don't want to, but I feel that's what I'm doing all the time. :I I don't think I will, and I won't on purpose. He's kinda stupid and sensitive with suggestions, pretends he's really British but doesn't produce it in the meat for some reason. He and Ellen DeGeneres are like niggers, pristine and in place but can't move because they're not white enough. They don't have much substance, and they don't know their place. They're weak in the world, like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, useless "Whores."
They want to hurt the prettiest Chinese girl. It's not really in me to hurt people, but I can't stop it from happening.
They don't seem to be so well off themselves. They don't really seem to eat the best food. They don't seem to know what good food tastes like. I said it because I caught right away they were picking on my mom instead of me because of the food I ate. I don't know why Helena Bonham Carter seems kinda American, and like it seems too American to me.
I find that they and Tim Burton are quite "niggers." I just got the idea of them hurting my supposed future husband's sperm. What do you think that means to me? What if we caused Tim Burton's sperm to be created miserable? What if we bothered my dad so he writhed in pain? I don't want to, but I feel that's what I'm doing all the time. :I I don't think I will, and I won't on purpose. He's kinda stupid and sensitive with suggestions, pretends he's really British but doesn't produce it in the meat for some reason. He and Ellen DeGeneres are like niggers, pristine and in place but can't move because they're not white enough. They don't have much substance, and they don't know their place. They're weak in the world, like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, useless "Whores."
Kids!
If I don't have kids, I won't let it be because it ruined my eggs from taking my period away so much, for over a year, and now it's not heavy and was so heavy before when I came home from college and after we moved to the city, in Orlando. The psychiatric medicine I didn't need.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
^ Indian ^
Wow, my dad really let it all out. He thinks because I have Native American it counts though it's a little. It's from hime, though! ':0
What the Hell?
Why do I have to sit here and worry about death creeping up my egg sacks, like making my future children not what I want just because of the way I've been talking and made to talk?
Tim Burton
I just realized, I posted on the Pirates of the Caribbean 3 forum on MySpace before I went to other sites, but first I explored Facebook and MySpace, in other ways, became more advanced and got into Tim Burton.
Ellen DeGeneres
I guess she likes people who are 14 and will abandon you when you are 16.
Because she moved then. I don't abandon people when they are a certain age. Well, maybe college age.
Because she moved then. I don't abandon people when they are a certain age. Well, maybe college age.
These Young People
So, these young people post online and act like it's about them but don't tell you who they really are.
What's the use in suing?
Those psychiatrists gave me medicine I don't need! It also made my period go away. It came back but is way light compared to before, not very heavy. It was very light the 3rd time. It took 2 or 3 months to come back, possibly. I can have kids, but I'm wondering if the eggs were affected. I also was trying to grow before but was so excited online! Now, I feel so hated and shitty. For some reason '8I, the medicine made me "shoot up."
Trying to Act Cool
Why does Ellen DeGeneres try to act cool in a bad way just so she doesn't look wrong?
Ellen DeGeneres and Britney Spears
Ellen DeGeneres, as you may know, is from the same area as Britney Spears. I don't know anyone else that famous who lived there a long time. I surveyed the area, but I moved there when I was 12. I lived there all as a teenager. So, I guess Ellen DeGeneres and Britney Spears left when they were a teenager but came back and went to school. It's interesting to see them together. I see Britney Spears looks different now. I know when I lived there I had the same problem. I looked like I wanted to be cool and not cute, but that changed. I changed twice. I'm not sure about people in Orlando, why the young girls, some of them, have very round heads, like it swirls around and around. I wonder if people are like that from the New Orleans area. Britney Spears moved around the area and also lived in Mississippi, but it's very New Orleans feel... I haven't been there a lot, but I've been there maybe 5 times or more, not sure what was there. Anyway, Ellen DeGeneres lived in Texas, too. I guess they can relate in that way. Chloë Moretz is from Georgia. So, I guess they can get along from being from a rural area in the South that's more major. I went to Georgia with my aunt and in-laws and wandered around sometime between Christmas and New Years. So, yea, oooh. I think I walked around for hours, alone, because I thought my aunt was gonna kill me, but I mean she wouldn't physically. My cousin was so annoying, and I stopped when the police chased us and the other kids. It was her fault. She's always very bad, but now she's more withheld. She's nothing like her mom. I don't know why. Her eyes aren't even blue, and her mom had such sparkly eyes. She wears contacts. I think she's an amazing person, as is everyone... It's funny how different people are different weights, too. Like, thin people never feel enough, and neither do the bigger ones. When I lived in the area, in the end, I had a lot of power. I met people from New Orleans, and, as I got more New Orleans influence, I had power over people. I don't have the same kind of power in Orlando, just the power to hurt people's feelings. So, that caroling video on YouTube was cute. Why don't they do more of that? '8^I
Finish Your Thought
I know I can never finish a thought, but I finish it more than most people!
Ugh! Why are we talking about when we were 7 or 8? I mean what year were you 7 or 8? I loved baton when I was 7. Oh, I started stimulating myself, then. I started having weird thoughts at 6. At 4|5, I became unhealthy. That's when I found out my mom was pregnant. They cut my hair. I didn't like where I lived in pre-school, neither, and had a hard time with my family and extended family just because I was mixed as a fact. They treat me like I'm precious, though.
Ugh! Why are we talking about when we were 7 or 8? I mean what year were you 7 or 8? I loved baton when I was 7. Oh, I started stimulating myself, then. I started having weird thoughts at 6. At 4|5, I became unhealthy. That's when I found out my mom was pregnant. They cut my hair. I didn't like where I lived in pre-school, neither, and had a hard time with my family and extended family just because I was mixed as a fact. They treat me like I'm precious, though.
Kinda Trashy
Ellen DeGeneres reminds me of Chloë Moretz. They are pampered by their moms, and their fathers are divorced. Well, it's not the action but the idea that reverberates. I'm not sure what people think. It's like all these people with moms or dads who seem more European let off their reserve. Yet, they want to be American and modern, at the same time. I heard America was cooler, but I don't know. It's kinda trashy.
Americans
Why do people in the U.S. praise English people over Americans, as for other Europeans, and then say well you're not American and your family didn't go through what I went through?
Imagine Ellen DeGeneres. So, her dad is supposedly not from the U.S., but her mom is. So, she "is" important, like that's who she is, precious, whereas like I'm not, pretty much, just shit. I'm not sure if I'm an okay example for comparison, in that way, because I'm different in too many ways. It's funny, I guess I can connect to people in the U.S. with a European mom. I mean, I have a hard time connecting to a lot of people, in the U.S. I can only think of one, now. I don't remember any others well and never did. I get pretty annoyed at people in Europe with an American father and a European mom, for some reason, people in the U.S. with a non-American dad, people with a European dad and an American mom, and child stars.
That reminds me of when I watched the David Letterman show. I saw someone on there, and I thought the show was neat and was gonna watch it but was calling my grandma. :p I guess 3 months later, I started watching Ellen. Oh well. :6
So, all these people with more "real world" European "experience" are really annoying. Then, there's people like Helena Bonham Carter in Europe who are mixed who everyone like protects. Kate Bush, however, seems publicized more secretly. Helena is part Jewish.
These people think they "are" important, as do many, many Americans. They think they don't have some opportunity they deserve, still. I don't know. Americans get along with me pretty well.
Imagine Ellen DeGeneres. So, her dad is supposedly not from the U.S., but her mom is. So, she "is" important, like that's who she is, precious, whereas like I'm not, pretty much, just shit. I'm not sure if I'm an okay example for comparison, in that way, because I'm different in too many ways. It's funny, I guess I can connect to people in the U.S. with a European mom. I mean, I have a hard time connecting to a lot of people, in the U.S. I can only think of one, now. I don't remember any others well and never did. I get pretty annoyed at people in Europe with an American father and a European mom, for some reason, people in the U.S. with a non-American dad, people with a European dad and an American mom, and child stars.
That reminds me of when I watched the David Letterman show. I saw someone on there, and I thought the show was neat and was gonna watch it but was calling my grandma. :p I guess 3 months later, I started watching Ellen. Oh well. :6
So, all these people with more "real world" European "experience" are really annoying. Then, there's people like Helena Bonham Carter in Europe who are mixed who everyone like protects. Kate Bush, however, seems publicized more secretly. Helena is part Jewish.
These people think they "are" important, as do many, many Americans. They think they don't have some opportunity they deserve, still. I don't know. Americans get along with me pretty well.
Tweet @TheEllenShow
Portia is coming with you? I know Tim Burton is always with Helena Bonham Carter. I haven't seen Nell, lately. I used to be alone a lot and don't see people much, in real life. I enjoy when I do.
I hope you|Ellen is having fun! Bon voyage! 8)
I hope you|Ellen is having fun! Bon voyage! 8)
The North and the South
What is your problem? Fine, fetch people who moved here and who never came to the South. See "what" you "get."
Why do you think you can move to L.A. and stuff? '}8| How dare you! What are you even talking about, playing around with me? Well, maybe I should "play around" with you!
Why do you think you can move to L.A. and stuff? '}8| How dare you! What are you even talking about, playing around with me? Well, maybe I should "play around" with you!
WHAAAT!
I don't believe in saying I'm a good person but then like saying other things for no reason. You can try, but I'm not going to accept ... anymore! '}8D
Ellen
I guess what makes Ellen DeGeneres so special is that she has to be European and all because her dad is supposedly not from the U.S., though he doesn't seem to be English.
I guess I'll just die and never live my dreams!
Parting is such sweet sorry that I could say good-bye til it be morrow.
I feel like I'm just a ball of light.
I don't have my personality. I've neutralized it out, with replacing it with that of the stars! Oooh! Laa Laa Laa!
This just in.
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And I realized Ellen DeGeneres wanted to be a veterinarian. She feels good about herself, a phrase which denotes sly sarcasm and stimulation, and sits there and basks in the glory of soaking in the animalistic tendencies of others. I might have just picked up that trait of hers, must be some kind of fetish.
I sorta wanted to be an artist. It would stimulate me a lot and still does in good ways. I've sorta grown with it, like fashion and stuff and seeing backgrounds and things like that.
Oh, well, I think we all enjoy the way people interact with how they feel on like how much attention they get.
After wanting to be an artist, I wanted to be a singer. Soon after, I wanted to be a teacher. I wanted to be a teacher most of the time.
Then, when we moved to New Orleans, I wanted to be in musical theater the whole time.
I sorta wanted to be an artist. It would stimulate me a lot and still does in good ways. I've sorta grown with it, like fashion and stuff and seeing backgrounds and things like that.
Oh, well, I think we all enjoy the way people interact with how they feel on like how much attention they get.
After wanting to be an artist, I wanted to be a singer. Soon after, I wanted to be a teacher. I wanted to be a teacher most of the time.
Then, when we moved to New Orleans, I wanted to be in musical theater the whole time.
See the funny funny clown
Ever wonder about the implications behind the humor of Ellen DeGeneres? Maybe, she's just trying to impress men between her age and my dad's age.
Under Pressure
When I get stressed from too much attention, sometimes I feel like I'm gonna explode in different ways. I have to work a lot often to control what my body does, like the bubbles of energy moving around in it. I feel bubbles of feeling move around in my body. It's not a tingly feeling, just a plain, plastic feeling. It's a feeling I know will go away.
For Later
Why should I accept something I shouldn't have to accept and then worry about accepting it later? That stupid n word thing. Leave me the Hell alone! :0
I might have problems in my life and might not be perfect. F.Y.I., I'm getting around.
I might have problems in my life and might not be perfect. F.Y.I., I'm getting around.
*ly ol ly di i slallow that guy*
AW, did I hurt anyone's feelings? I can't take back some things because they'll come up later and actually come up anyway.
NOW WHAT?
I can see right through you. '}8| My mom left a yellow shirt with a pattern on it on the drying machine ... facing my room.
Stop getting mad at me for going through things that are real issues with you. What are you? Some kind of balloon? I mean, some ting that just floats around and doesn't think? Some figment of my imagination. I know that shirt was put there for a G O D D A M N reason.
Go away, you trashy, good-for-nothing mom. Don't try to stimulate me, you good-for-nothing dad, in that way. Oh, I don't mean go away for good, but maybe I do. You can come back, though.
Stop getting mad at me for going through things that are real issues with you. What are you? Some kind of balloon? I mean, some ting that just floats around and doesn't think? Some figment of my imagination. I know that shirt was put there for a G O D D A M N reason.
Go away, you trashy, good-for-nothing mom. Don't try to stimulate me, you good-for-nothing dad, in that way. Oh, I don't mean go away for good, but maybe I do. You can come back, though.
Looking Ahead
Just because of the n word thing, get it straight through your head, hope that wording doesn't bother you for some stupid reason because phrases COME UP! It hurts people!
You can't just make people turn on me right and left and then find you want to protect other people from it, never make them feel that way. What, is that for the Spanish brunettes? Yes, Spanish brunettes, the only people who would be an attractive mold that we know of for people who resist looking that way.
What a weird world. Why did Johnny Depp change it?
You can't just make people turn on me right and left and then find you want to protect other people from it, never make them feel that way. What, is that for the Spanish brunettes? Yes, Spanish brunettes, the only people who would be an attractive mold that we know of for people who resist looking that way.
What a weird world. Why did Johnny Depp change it?
School
The reason I want to do ballet and singing in college maybe is because I don't want to read nor count.
Watching TV
I haven't really been watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" much. I watched it every day, missed the beginning of season 10, since http://www.imdb.com/user/ur33333333/boards/profile. I got mad at the grocery store. I stomped the floor a few times. I just plainly changed my realization and I guess people left me alone later. Why wouldn't it happen to you, "instead" of to me?
So, I'm wondering why the people who watch her show aren't online. I just feel so out. I mean, I'm enjoying it. I don't know if it's meant to be watched every day. Well, I try not to miss other TV shows, but I have't been watching any. I should probably hack into her Facebook responses and stuff and see what I can find.
So, I'm wondering why the people who watch her show aren't online. I just feel so out. I mean, I'm enjoying it. I don't know if it's meant to be watched every day. Well, I try not to miss other TV shows, but I have't been watching any. I should probably hack into her Facebook responses and stuff and see what I can find.
Check me out.
I'm not sure how people knew about me. I mean, I get views on my blog. Who would check IMDb and not post there? :| Anyway, I just get a feeling of power. I can imagine Johnny Depp and Tim Burton checking because their life is made- I don't know, I mean other feelings come in and out. Like, I feel agitated and very hurt. I stimulate myself over other people acting too stimulated. I do that, anyway. It's because I moved. I didn't do it when I lived in New Orleans. It happened when I was in college in the city. I lived in the area all as a teenager. After the n word thing, people were mean to me all over the world, and it had worried me for years. I suppose before, I felt bad going out in public. It wasn't any weird feeling. It wasn't too like fleshy, like just sorta feeling body parts. I don't worry too much except about weird things happening. I mean, already, I know my reputation is not the cause.
On the Internet
On the internet, I was hoping to wave through the crowd and maybe someday meet some actors. Now, I'm having fun, following Ellen DeGeneres, a sweet girl. Well, older woman. I encourage other people to. I don't know if they really like me following her but act like it. I know I can still follow her on IMDb.
Fame!
How famous is Ellen DeGeneres? I know I've heard of Jay Leno and David Letterman and their shows. Well, isn't she tons more attractive, not that they're not? Maybe, they tickled her fancy, a bit.
How "retarded!"
I can already see the retard. Or the retardation, at least.
Ooh, now I see something really stupid...
Ooh, now I see something really stupid...
Stop!
Stop shoving yourself in my life! See what happens to other people if you treat them the wrong way.
You can be in the shit and suffer.
I'm not gonna submit myself for worthless people. You can be in the shit and suffer.
What a stupid bunch of retards!
I'm tired of you pervs KNOCKING PEOPLE OUT WITH THEIR IDEAS AND SAYING IT MEANS SOMETHING. WHY CAN'T WE KNOCK YOU OUT FOR GOOD?
I'M TIRED OF YOUR DISRESPECT AND DISREGARD FOR ME AFTER THE N WORD THING AND FOR JOHNNY DEPP FOR ACTING LIKE I SHOULD CALL HIM STUPID.
I'M NOT FALLING INTO YOUR TRAP OF CLOWNING AROUND WITH KIDS!!!!! JUST *BEEP* YOURSELF, LOSERS!
I'm not gonna sit here and tickle your fancy as though I'm nothing. WHAT A STUPID BUNCH OF RETARDS!
WHAT AM I GONNA DO FOR MY WEEKEND, NOW? ARE YOU A RETARD? I DESERVE TO GO OUT, TOO!
I'M TIRED OF YOUR DISRESPECT AND DISREGARD FOR ME AFTER THE N WORD THING AND FOR JOHNNY DEPP FOR ACTING LIKE I SHOULD CALL HIM STUPID.
I'M NOT FALLING INTO YOUR TRAP OF CLOWNING AROUND WITH KIDS!!!!! JUST *BEEP* YOURSELF, LOSERS!
I'm not gonna sit here and tickle your fancy as though I'm nothing. WHAT A STUPID BUNCH OF RETARDS!
WHAT AM I GONNA DO FOR MY WEEKEND, NOW? ARE YOU A RETARD? I DESERVE TO GO OUT, TOO!
Pre-Conceived Dispostions
I HATE YOU PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT YOU HAVE TO DO CERTAIN THINGS AND THAT CERTAIN THINGS MEAN THINGS BECAUSE YOU ARE STUPID AND WORTHLESS AND DON'T BARK ON ME FOR THAT. PROVES YOU AREN'T NICE TO ME AND NEVER WANTED TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME. MAYBE, YOUR LIFE IS GUIDED BY FATE AND YOU SHOULD SHUT UP.
Weird Orlando Workers
WHY ARE YOU PEOPLE SO IMPRESSED WITH BEING MEAN? CHANGING ALL OF A SUDDEN? TURNING PEOPLE OFF. WHAT IF WE TURNED YOU OFF? I'M NOT GONNA PLAY AROUND WITH YOUR INABILITY TO MAKE A DECISION.
Complications }8{
Isn't Ellen DeGeneres lame? I bet she feels sorry for that girl, in a way, on Paranormal Activity 4. She just wants to look cool. That doesn't make her cool. That just makes her a perv. I wonder what she thinks of herself. She thinks no one should achieve anything when she sees other people not achieve them.
I guess people have a problem with everyone.
I can tell she already disses people for no good reason, how retarded, for the stupid n word thing! ':0 She's already thought I Was stupid. She would never go out and admit it. I don't believe I think people are stupid that easily.
I don't really know if she's the most famous person in the world nor the most liked because I used to think that of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton. I thought only grade A actors were considered the most famous, more than the President. I think that you just get an elated feeling from performing. I don't know about things like drugs.
So, I was using Tim Burton to help me feel because I think he really wants you to. I can't seem to focus and have to use what I got from him. It's the same processing through what you frrom feel Ellen DeGeneres.
I guess I was upset I thought some people were in pain, but then I left. I am concerned about lesser people in pain.
Also, blondes are better. Brunettes are nice, but they're usually too brunette.
Lots of people could become special actors. I'm having problems with like eating enough. Also, before, I wasn't feeling well, often. I was thinking of going to college and doing ballet + singing. It would be nice to fit in somewhere. Maybe, I should wait until more people come out. I'm 26, so we'll see what happens. Ugh, I'm going back to bed! I want to eat sometime, too. Now, I'm worried about how my parents will react to me. :( I don't think my dad wanted me to answer him. That was so cute, I think, him passing me in the hallway. My mom was coming, too. I was thinking of how they weren't really that good. I mean, like they thought I just wasn't cool and they were like more supple and stuff. Maybe, they're used to showing off around me. Oh, and if you're wondering about how I feel, too, I do like to feel stimulation from my blankets but found that when I lay on the couch I felt it, too, sometimes trying to escape it, there. I see my mom is doing the laundry and now I don't listen to music but have a noisemaker. It doesn't really bother me. Now, what are my parents gonna do? In the background, be fascinated with me throwing the ball against the wall? I saw Ellen throwing stuff on her show, and I tried to do it and posted it on YouTube. Well, she was knocking some men into water. I don't know why she's so weird. I mean, Tim Burton is from L.A. I see people from L.A. I thought in her audience. They're not weird. I guess if you move away from L.A. to direct or move there to host a show, you become mean.
WHY THE HELL DO YOU PEOPLE KEEP POSING PERVERTED IDEAS ON ME? I can take the general public, but why does it seep into my personal relationships? If you want to know me, you will have to respect me. People think I brought them into my life, but people have brought themselves into mine. They want to tear up my life.
Also, no, I didn't take a shower last night. That shouldn't get people riled up and want to make fun of me for it.
Also, I'm not impressed with your impositions and how you get away with everything. I guess my life wasn't good enough.
I guess people have a problem with everyone.
I can tell she already disses people for no good reason, how retarded, for the stupid n word thing! ':0 She's already thought I Was stupid. She would never go out and admit it. I don't believe I think people are stupid that easily.
I don't really know if she's the most famous person in the world nor the most liked because I used to think that of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton. I thought only grade A actors were considered the most famous, more than the President. I think that you just get an elated feeling from performing. I don't know about things like drugs.
So, I was using Tim Burton to help me feel because I think he really wants you to. I can't seem to focus and have to use what I got from him. It's the same processing through what you frrom feel Ellen DeGeneres.
I guess I was upset I thought some people were in pain, but then I left. I am concerned about lesser people in pain.
Also, blondes are better. Brunettes are nice, but they're usually too brunette.
Lots of people could become special actors. I'm having problems with like eating enough. Also, before, I wasn't feeling well, often. I was thinking of going to college and doing ballet + singing. It would be nice to fit in somewhere. Maybe, I should wait until more people come out. I'm 26, so we'll see what happens. Ugh, I'm going back to bed! I want to eat sometime, too. Now, I'm worried about how my parents will react to me. :( I don't think my dad wanted me to answer him. That was so cute, I think, him passing me in the hallway. My mom was coming, too. I was thinking of how they weren't really that good. I mean, like they thought I just wasn't cool and they were like more supple and stuff. Maybe, they're used to showing off around me. Oh, and if you're wondering about how I feel, too, I do like to feel stimulation from my blankets but found that when I lay on the couch I felt it, too, sometimes trying to escape it, there. I see my mom is doing the laundry and now I don't listen to music but have a noisemaker. It doesn't really bother me. Now, what are my parents gonna do? In the background, be fascinated with me throwing the ball against the wall? I saw Ellen throwing stuff on her show, and I tried to do it and posted it on YouTube. Well, she was knocking some men into water. I don't know why she's so weird. I mean, Tim Burton is from L.A. I see people from L.A. I thought in her audience. They're not weird. I guess if you move away from L.A. to direct or move there to host a show, you become mean.
WHY THE HELL DO YOU PEOPLE KEEP POSING PERVERTED IDEAS ON ME? I can take the general public, but why does it seep into my personal relationships? If you want to know me, you will have to respect me. People think I brought them into my life, but people have brought themselves into mine. They want to tear up my life.
Also, no, I didn't take a shower last night. That shouldn't get people riled up and want to make fun of me for it.
Also, I'm not impressed with your impositions and how you get away with everything. I guess my life wasn't good enough.
More Info.
So, when I came out of the movie, my stomach and arms were orange. I guess my family is peering into my blog. Why don't you just knock yourself out?
My Nigger Family
I was trying to feel good, as usual, and was interrupted.
Anyway, I've been sensing a lot of commotion. It definitely means something. I don't want to sense it. I know there's a reason and it's not me.
So, my mom came in and did the laundry. It was at a funny time. I guess she was feeling antsy and wanted to please some niggers or something. I don't know who the niggers are. Anyway, they're racist.
So, then, I went out to go to the bathroom. My dad passed by carrying some things and he like did something stupid and tacky and rubbed up a feeling somehow, what a perverted loser, up my right egg sack, which I've been thinking is a girl, and thought it felt good, kinda like a disconnected feeling of balls, and thought of the word nigger after a snap. He said hello, but I just went into my bathroom and ignored him like my grandma does. I saw my cupboard doors '}:0 were opened. Just *beep* that stupid *beep* Throw her in as a patient in a mental hospital, a real one with beds.
So, I got so mad I looked for my yoga block but instead found a little rubber ball in a basket from my brother and threw it against the wall!!!! Just *beep* the lot of those creeps for propping into my life like worthless retards because it's in a mean way, of course, and if you didn't know that I guess you're not one of many words, yourself. Oh well, too much alcohol? ':0
So, then, I proceeded to hitting my couch.
Now, my parents are worthless *beep* so they'll be focusing on this for their livelihood and stimulation, thinking they deserve to be something.
I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP! ':0
Anyway, I've been sensing a lot of commotion. It definitely means something. I don't want to sense it. I know there's a reason and it's not me.
So, my mom came in and did the laundry. It was at a funny time. I guess she was feeling antsy and wanted to please some niggers or something. I don't know who the niggers are. Anyway, they're racist.
So, then, I went out to go to the bathroom. My dad passed by carrying some things and he like did something stupid and tacky and rubbed up a feeling somehow, what a perverted loser, up my right egg sack, which I've been thinking is a girl, and thought it felt good, kinda like a disconnected feeling of balls, and thought of the word nigger after a snap. He said hello, but I just went into my bathroom and ignored him like my grandma does. I saw my cupboard doors '}:0 were opened. Just *beep* that stupid *beep* Throw her in as a patient in a mental hospital, a real one with beds.
So, I got so mad I looked for my yoga block but instead found a little rubber ball in a basket from my brother and threw it against the wall!!!! Just *beep* the lot of those creeps for propping into my life like worthless retards because it's in a mean way, of course, and if you didn't know that I guess you're not one of many words, yourself. Oh well, too much alcohol? ':0
So, then, I proceeded to hitting my couch.
Now, my parents are worthless *beep* so they'll be focusing on this for their livelihood and stimulation, thinking they deserve to be something.
I WAS TRYING TO SLEEP! ':0
"Paranormal Activity 4"
I just saw "Paranormal Activity 4." When the girl left for the first time, I saw a white sheet, sorta fuzzy coming at me on the left. I really saw white.
Something else scary is I saw a knife jump off a plate on the side of my eye a few months ago. When I was up north in the laundry room, I literally saw a physical machine bug crawl and go into the tile. It was so advanced yet not as advanced as it could be for the world that really existed. Also, I lay on my bed and one arm was glued over my eyes. The other forearm grew a foot and back in a minute. One direction was the most acute pain I've felt. It's not as miserable as most things, though. It felt so alive after for so long! I still feel the effects, of course. There were drops of blood under my armpits, a week on the right one.
Something else scary is I saw a knife jump off a plate on the side of my eye a few months ago. When I was up north in the laundry room, I literally saw a physical machine bug crawl and go into the tile. It was so advanced yet not as advanced as it could be for the world that really existed. Also, I lay on my bed and one arm was glued over my eyes. The other forearm grew a foot and back in a minute. One direction was the most acute pain I've felt. It's not as miserable as most things, though. It felt so alive after for so long! I still feel the effects, of course. There were drops of blood under my armpits, a week on the right one.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Story
There was a little girl in pain in a pink dress. Her mother was a witch, and her daddy was a ghost. She had an older brother and an older sister.
She had just come from a dream of being in Looking Glass Land with her pet kitten, a white and milky bluish, shiny kitten, with beady eyes. It was easy to take care of. You just leave it a creamy drink. You give it your leftover sushi and other seafood. It has a little house in her room, which is spacious.
Anyway, witches weren't being hanged for being witches, but people were hunting down other monsters, like zombies that supposedly existed.
(I just smelled a faint whiff of food and felt disturbed, unsure if I can focus, now. I just had some of what we have left of bagels and some bread, too. Hungry. I sense a wrong suggestion, in the air.)
So, it was almost Halloween. They lived in inland Southern England, and it was getting pretty cold outside. Lots of things were happening, deaths from car accidents, paranormal sitings both here and abroad. Little Lottie was scared. Her mother comforted her, and her father protected them. She had some friends who were a little older than her and helped care for the homeless. She also saw some women who were robust yet shapely and in their 30s and 40s who had no children. There were loads of gentlemen in the area into opera and even the ballet. Lottie was too young for ballet.
So, things got dangerous, and Lottie had to go in and help in the town. She was scared, and one of the ladies held her on her lap and made her feel good. In the spirit of events, they decided to proceed still to a theme park that was a ways away, and Lottie went in a big covered caravan. When it slowed up, she would run alongside. They camped out, and when they saw a wolf, one of the ladies picked her up and put her in the caravan. The rest of the children cowered to the parents. So, they reached the grand carnival. First, Lottie went on the ferris wheel alone. It stopped a lot and was jerky and not that fun. Other people were scared out of their wits or just sat and stared into space. There was a historical ride that featured a recording of a prominent figure in the city. She came from a successful family. Some of the kids around her age were being carried the whole time and tried to be fed. Some of the older ones were dancers and never tired out, the older ones. There were some very interesting boat rides and tunnels of love and erotica. She went on these alone.
Later, she went on a big camping trip with her family, relatives, and some others. It was a lot of fun. They "almost died." She even saw a ghost but was not scared of this ghost. It didn't do anything to her.
So, then, she was back home awaiting Halloween. She ordered a costume. She was going to be a wood fairy from inspiration of A Midsummer Night's Dream. She even got a wand that lit up.
Lottie had a computer. She used it to post online to whoever was brave enough to post whatever.
There was a lot of drama going on about witches. Moreso, I think the drama was about sorcerors. Witches were more common, like pirates. Then, there were the Celtic philosophers and magicians and magic recluses.
One of Lottie's favorite pasttimes was the confidence she had around the young toddlers in the soup kitchen. They were there because of their mental condition. Most of them were homeless.
Lottie took a trip to Africa.
...
She had just come from a dream of being in Looking Glass Land with her pet kitten, a white and milky bluish, shiny kitten, with beady eyes. It was easy to take care of. You just leave it a creamy drink. You give it your leftover sushi and other seafood. It has a little house in her room, which is spacious.
Anyway, witches weren't being hanged for being witches, but people were hunting down other monsters, like zombies that supposedly existed.
(I just smelled a faint whiff of food and felt disturbed, unsure if I can focus, now. I just had some of what we have left of bagels and some bread, too. Hungry. I sense a wrong suggestion, in the air.)
So, it was almost Halloween. They lived in inland Southern England, and it was getting pretty cold outside. Lots of things were happening, deaths from car accidents, paranormal sitings both here and abroad. Little Lottie was scared. Her mother comforted her, and her father protected them. She had some friends who were a little older than her and helped care for the homeless. She also saw some women who were robust yet shapely and in their 30s and 40s who had no children. There were loads of gentlemen in the area into opera and even the ballet. Lottie was too young for ballet.
So, things got dangerous, and Lottie had to go in and help in the town. She was scared, and one of the ladies held her on her lap and made her feel good. In the spirit of events, they decided to proceed still to a theme park that was a ways away, and Lottie went in a big covered caravan. When it slowed up, she would run alongside. They camped out, and when they saw a wolf, one of the ladies picked her up and put her in the caravan. The rest of the children cowered to the parents. So, they reached the grand carnival. First, Lottie went on the ferris wheel alone. It stopped a lot and was jerky and not that fun. Other people were scared out of their wits or just sat and stared into space. There was a historical ride that featured a recording of a prominent figure in the city. She came from a successful family. Some of the kids around her age were being carried the whole time and tried to be fed. Some of the older ones were dancers and never tired out, the older ones. There were some very interesting boat rides and tunnels of love and erotica. She went on these alone.
Later, she went on a big camping trip with her family, relatives, and some others. It was a lot of fun. They "almost died." She even saw a ghost but was not scared of this ghost. It didn't do anything to her.
So, then, she was back home awaiting Halloween. She ordered a costume. She was going to be a wood fairy from inspiration of A Midsummer Night's Dream. She even got a wand that lit up.
Lottie had a computer. She used it to post online to whoever was brave enough to post whatever.
There was a lot of drama going on about witches. Moreso, I think the drama was about sorcerors. Witches were more common, like pirates. Then, there were the Celtic philosophers and magicians and magic recluses.
One of Lottie's favorite pasttimes was the confidence she had around the young toddlers in the soup kitchen. They were there because of their mental condition. Most of them were homeless.
Lottie took a trip to Africa.
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So Uncool
Americans are weak.
They get so affected by not being popular yet are so uncool, you've got me so uncool, you've got me so uncool. Look's like I'm so uncool...
They get so affected by not being popular yet are so uncool, you've got me so uncool, you've got me so uncool. Look's like I'm so uncool...
I'm cooler.
So, I notice older people are acting the way people my age were bad thinking that was pretty sexy, sexily put together.
Unpopular
Why are some people so dischordant with one another, I mean disgusting people? I mean, some people just go by what's popular in a bad way. They try to relish things that are inrelishable.
Orlando
It really affects me. I have guilt in my past, but I rectified it.
Like, physical feelings always overcome me and can affect my thinking and ability to control myself. Oh, and I also stimulate myself.
Like, physical feelings always overcome me and can affect my thinking and ability to control myself. Oh, and I also stimulate myself.
Unwanted Attention
What do you think of people who experience unwanted attention? Like, people get interested in them just because you were friends with them, but they try to "reach them." They don't try to "reach" you and your needs in this life and world. Why do they "reach" for others, like they pose as a threat? That's what life's about, not giving them the time of day.
I think people are interesting, but why keep coming around for nothing?
Nobody is nothing, but some people just are a strange case.
I mean, I guess people exist.
I think people are interesting, but why keep coming around for nothing?
Nobody is nothing, but some people just are a strange case.
I mean, I guess people exist.
Intelligent Attention
What do you think of people who simplify life and try to make unlikely people succeed over others? Get my suggestions? Like, someone will deserve pleasures and not get them. Someone else, they will feed knowledge to and sorta butter them up. They will have this fascination in their mind of being over the person who deserves the attention, and everyone seems to very much agree they deserve a certain kind of intelligent attention.
I guess you can get into intelligent intention. It means that you give the person the right attention and not some twisted attention based on no morals nor fairness in life. Did you know a big thing of the late 90s and earlier 00s was that life isn't fair? It was literally shouted into our heads every time we tried to succeed. Why did this topic come up recently? Intelligent attention. Hmph. I thought maybe I had something. I guess I never will, living in Orlando.
I guess you can get into intelligent intention. It means that you give the person the right attention and not some twisted attention based on no morals nor fairness in life. Did you know a big thing of the late 90s and earlier 00s was that life isn't fair? It was literally shouted into our heads every time we tried to succeed. Why did this topic come up recently? Intelligent attention. Hmph. I thought maybe I had something. I guess I never will, living in Orlando.
Those Times
What do you thnink of those times in the past, like the 90s and more earlier 00s, where life was stressful like on holding yourself together as a person, more physically, like the head bone's connected to the neck bone...
A Cool Person
So, I was looking up Finding Nemo 2 and noticed Ellen DeGeneres is a face you want to see. So, she's been active since 1981, but I only know what she looked like in like 1984. She seemed to look differente before that. She really seems like a dream person to meet for young people. It seems the same way with Kate Bush, except Kate Bush wasn't as big. She got fat as an adult. I mean Ellen was like a beutiful, pretty, smart, astute, sharp, very human yet very elated child. She was a sweet baby. She was also a sweet toddler. So sweet. :) She seemed very nice, for instance. She was very cute and smart. She was pretty. I guess I don't have a big vocabulary and need to get a storybook. So, yea, and she changed as she got older. When she was an older teenager|young adult, she was very mature and there for you and took on a whole new look. She became the sexiest woman alive as an adult, not to mention became the most well-known. Three cheers for Ellen DeGeneres, and have a good time with all that she is and her life's accomplishments. She is the most accomplished person in the world, especially sexually. =} I'm learning a lot under her offerings.
Leaping
My dad is a leaping loser. He can't man the fact I asked him to buy me a Halloween costume. I don't even know if he ordered it, yet. I've been spending my money on songs on iTunes to sing karaoke. I also got a noisemaker, 3 main complex personality sorter topic books ... what else? 8^| No clothes.
Worried
I feel my dad wants to force rape on me.
They won't stop getting complex in my life and leaving messages that pile up, my dad, who is kinda intrusive, in a way. He seemed happy, in real life, but we just don't stop him.
I felt my right egg sack like it was about to explode. I heard some cars go by. I think they're catching onto the very fact I had my dad buy me my costume for Halloween. Why not? What's the big deal? I'm sure other people have their parents buy them stuff...
I thought of something really nasty and perverted, that people reading into my privacy maybe would be "embraced" by my dad, in a way I don't like, that "feels like rape."
Ever since the n word thing, he's lost his respect for me, like he was waiting for it, like an excuse.
I was thinking lots of people call people the n word. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE. If you wanna get mad how Nell Burton was raised to look, you're ASKING THE WRONG GODDAMN PERSON. :S It seems someone is so antsy they can't take anything that reminds them of something, neither. WHAT'S YOUR SORRY IDEA BARKING ON ME FOR THINGS I NEED, things I don't do often, neither?
Oh wow, I thought they all wanted me to do it. She's a girl. What does that mean? Oh, were you so creative and stupid that you got that into my life yet ruined it? People think also that calling someone who usually wouldn't be called it is better than calling someone on the streets that, but times have changed.
Now, I'm worried my dad is stupid enough to think he has to be the one to and that anyone would go out of their way to in a weird, complex way hurt a boy I talk to online from England... He hasn't directly talked to me, in awhile. He was suppoesd to.
So, what about it? What's so special about this non-nigger girl?
They won't stop getting complex in my life and leaving messages that pile up, my dad, who is kinda intrusive, in a way. He seemed happy, in real life, but we just don't stop him.
I felt my right egg sack like it was about to explode. I heard some cars go by. I think they're catching onto the very fact I had my dad buy me my costume for Halloween. Why not? What's the big deal? I'm sure other people have their parents buy them stuff...
I thought of something really nasty and perverted, that people reading into my privacy maybe would be "embraced" by my dad, in a way I don't like, that "feels like rape."
Ever since the n word thing, he's lost his respect for me, like he was waiting for it, like an excuse.
I was thinking lots of people call people the n word. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE. If you wanna get mad how Nell Burton was raised to look, you're ASKING THE WRONG GODDAMN PERSON. :S It seems someone is so antsy they can't take anything that reminds them of something, neither. WHAT'S YOUR SORRY IDEA BARKING ON ME FOR THINGS I NEED, things I don't do often, neither?
Oh wow, I thought they all wanted me to do it. She's a girl. What does that mean? Oh, were you so creative and stupid that you got that into my life yet ruined it? People think also that calling someone who usually wouldn't be called it is better than calling someone on the streets that, but times have changed.
Now, I'm worried my dad is stupid enough to think he has to be the one to and that anyone would go out of their way to in a weird, complex way hurt a boy I talk to online from England... He hasn't directly talked to me, in awhile. He was suppoesd to.
So, what about it? What's so special about this non-nigger girl?
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Why did you just associate a thought with my brother and with being Asian?
WHAT'S YOUR GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM?
WHAT'S YOUR GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM?
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Please leave me the Hell|fuck alone. I just woke up to the bathroom #2 and got the message I wasn't white associated with the thought of like before you have sex.
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Flag Team ---u
I made it, but my friend didn't. The boy I liked didn't stay, who the whole school wanted to stay. So, I didn't do it. I wish I did, but I shouldn't have auditioned. It was stressful but may have been a learning experience.
I was thinking of band my 3rd year but couldn't play the oboe my 2nd year.
I was thinking of band my 3rd year but couldn't play the oboe my 2nd year.
My Pleasure
Why do people think me doing an activity is a bad thing or doing anything at all that is pleasurable?
* ballet class *
I guess there aren't any special ballet classes I can find out about for actors in movies.
Bait
Why would Tim Burton bait people to get interested in him to just taunt them with the fact he's taunting everyone to get interested in him, but he, Johnny Depp, Ellen DeGeneres, and Orla Fallon admit that they are only dedicated to their immediate family?
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I did gymnastics at home for fun when I was only 1 - 1 1|2 and started class when I was 1 3|4 and did it off and on. I took it once or twice a week until I was 8. I noticed I looked ugly after I did gymnastics. I should have been put in singing. I was told I was a chatterbox, though. I did art, too. I think I was a cute person at 1 point. When we went up north. I don't have many pictures since the hurricane but used to have a bunch. My head got big when I added gymnastics, and I never was good at remembering the moves. I think most kids were babied in a different way. It might not have been the most prestigious thing. I should have gotten into more movies. I don't know if I was allowed to listen to any music I wanted. My mom's sister is in music. Piano was fun. It was very theraputic being so involved in the community via it. Well, now, I am just singing popular songs I somehow found out about. I saw this picture of a ballerina in Slidell. http://www.nola.com/community/st-tammany/index.ssf/2010/12/segreti_featured_as_clara_in_t.html I should have went to that school when we moved. It looked too hard. I just looked at a picture of a teen dancer, and she looked older than me, still. http://orlandoballet.org/company/employment-opportunities/company-dancer-audition/ I don't know if I'm well fed enough for this. Maybe, I'll do this: http://www.abt.org/education/nationalaudition.asp.
* Fishing *
Why should we wait for other people in order to do something we like? What if they never do it?
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I'm trying to narrow down my options. I keep coming back for stuff.
I'll probably get tired of music, but I could keep coming back and singing old songs. Eventually, I'd find new ones.
I can't concentrate well doing ballet all day. I used to.
Just posting about Tim Burton, eventually I want to be an actor.
I tried to escape to music school but picked the wrong major. Now, I'm too old. After awhile, I didn't feel good and just felt too old. I left the beginning of my junior year. I also didn't get in a good major. I guess it was a good thing I did what I did, might have been more relaxing some other way. Now, I should think of getting out a CD. Maybe, I should get a TV show on supernatural things. And touching people. That doesn't really match. I still feel like a kid, though. I like kids more and more, still. I get to feeling like funny. Maybe, I should be a singer. I mean like Charlotte Church, except I am older and not from Europe. I'm not looking forward to getting the rights. I'm all over YouTube. I didn't get much interaction there, but I'm there. My voice isn't very strong. It used to be, but it's better now. I was supposed to make a Christmas CD a year ago. I was gonna do it by the summer. Maybe, I'll do some different songs and get a better background and do some dancing. I wonder why other people don't sing. Maybe, they want to see other people sing, first. Something just escaped me. I was gonna be a singer, then I decided to go to college, but I don't know why. Now, I can't pick a major. I looked at a college I was at and see I could go back and they offer Ballet IV. They also took away Ballet I, which I never took at my college in New Orleans though was suggested to go back and do or maybe level II again. :( So, I could do Voice there. I wish my parents would move there. Oh well. I guess I'm just worried about my health. So, how do you watch TV at college? I guess I could watch it online. :) I still feel kinda old to be seen in a college. Maybe, I'll get a job at Disney. I feel too old to be a performer nor be in the college program. I could make a lot of money if I recorded a CD. I'm not sure what I'll do if I don't go to college, but I don't like travelling around Orlando. I just don't feel like working now. The n word thing put me back, too. It also handicapped me.
Thank you, so much, for your help and inspiration! I still fail to see why Hollywood doesn't matter. I'm tailgaiting Tim Burton.
I'll probably get tired of music, but I could keep coming back and singing old songs. Eventually, I'd find new ones.
I can't concentrate well doing ballet all day. I used to.
Just posting about Tim Burton, eventually I want to be an actor.
I tried to escape to music school but picked the wrong major. Now, I'm too old. After awhile, I didn't feel good and just felt too old. I left the beginning of my junior year. I also didn't get in a good major. I guess it was a good thing I did what I did, might have been more relaxing some other way. Now, I should think of getting out a CD. Maybe, I should get a TV show on supernatural things. And touching people. That doesn't really match. I still feel like a kid, though. I like kids more and more, still. I get to feeling like funny. Maybe, I should be a singer. I mean like Charlotte Church, except I am older and not from Europe. I'm not looking forward to getting the rights. I'm all over YouTube. I didn't get much interaction there, but I'm there. My voice isn't very strong. It used to be, but it's better now. I was supposed to make a Christmas CD a year ago. I was gonna do it by the summer. Maybe, I'll do some different songs and get a better background and do some dancing. I wonder why other people don't sing. Maybe, they want to see other people sing, first. Something just escaped me. I was gonna be a singer, then I decided to go to college, but I don't know why. Now, I can't pick a major. I looked at a college I was at and see I could go back and they offer Ballet IV. They also took away Ballet I, which I never took at my college in New Orleans though was suggested to go back and do or maybe level II again. :( So, I could do Voice there. I wish my parents would move there. Oh well. I guess I'm just worried about my health. So, how do you watch TV at college? I guess I could watch it online. :) I still feel kinda old to be seen in a college. Maybe, I'll get a job at Disney. I feel too old to be a performer nor be in the college program. I could make a lot of money if I recorded a CD. I'm not sure what I'll do if I don't go to college, but I don't like travelling around Orlando. I just don't feel like working now. The n word thing put me back, too. It also handicapped me.
Thank you, so much, for your help and inspiration! I still fail to see why Hollywood doesn't matter. I'm tailgaiting Tim Burton.
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Hey, you could sit in my lap. Why are you too big to sit in a lap as a tween? I wonder why people think I'm small. I used to have a big period when I came home from college, but the medicine made me lose it. I'm eating a lot more, now, and that might make it come back faster. I was even wearing senior diapers, all the time, and had up on my website that I always used wipes after using the bathroom, which I ended up using frequently. I think my website was MySpace. Sometimes, about other people, I have seriously thought on things like, I guess, you'd wonder, if I'd feel good sitting in their lap like when they touch me... Funny when you're old enough to feel that, you're too big, and when you're younger I guess less social. Maybe, it just took me awhile. I grew up thinking you didn't necessarily experience those things. I also grew up with the idea that you had to do something yourself to really do it others. Also, we are all different, so it wouldn't be exactly the same. I just get that feeling, honestly, when you bring that up, that I would want to sit in somebody's lap. I find that popular people relate to me well. So, it would be very possible, if I wanted to be small. I'm trying to get big, now, and I could get small again. Oh well, I don't know if I'll ever find the answer to my question because I'm 4 races. I guess I have concluded that to like relate to someone you can't just be like big and bad. You have to be like a good stature. Eating a lot, you won't necessarily get too wide nor maybe tall.. I'm not sure how I'm structured, but I do seem to be fatter than I used to be and am certainly heavier since going up north and thinking my life was an experiment and having trouble trying to diet again. I had fasted before and gained weight after that, as well. I don't know why I'm still heavy. I think I lack the good resources. The food in Orlando is different. When I moved to the New Orleans area, I had a fetish with Pizza Pockets, and then they didn't exist like before. I used to watch Cats and have 2 lousy Pizza Pockets. After awhile, they would lose their taste. I also ate a lot of pasta, and my mom said it would make me fat. I'm having a dessert fetish and may get diabetes. I guess I can't diet. I was gonna go eat now but I guess was excited to get on Twitter and may go to bed. I found that older people tend to have a more physical stature, all the time, strange. No one is smaller than me, totally, even my mom. Her thumbnails are bigger than mine, and she's much smaller and shorter. I think I'm bigger than all my aunts. I bet my older one, who is shorter now, would carry me. She never has. Maybe when I was a baby. Neither did the other one. I don't remember sitting in my mom's lap except like on a plane. I don't really remember much. I remember her carrying me a lot when I was scared and hiding behind her skirt when I was a little older, 4 or 5. After that, my life became very fake. I think I remember how my mom felt when I was an infant. She held me in a wrap. It was just a big, overwhelming, not very feeling, feeling of bliss. I think she's graduated, now that I'm 25|26. That's how old she was when I was conceived. 8| Maybe, you did, obviously, I'm sure find your way to those pictures I made, perhaps, I'm pretty sure, even, right away, of you fondling some people. I find the practice stimulating, and it'd be nice to experience real life like that. I'm finding that people are so robotic, but in the arts you find they're the kind you want. I know you're pretty particular. You have like well-behaved kids on your show, and you don't like touch people too much. I am not sure why people in New Orleans don't touch much. I know sometimes. In Florida, I masturbated as a kid and thought of weird things first. It was a little satisfying posting about Tim Burton. When I was up north, I felt the most, but we don't live there. I think I belong in the Midwest. I'd like to find and help more people like you, though. Well, both. Wouldn't it be fun if we went there, unless you still just like your show and that's all and the people who go through it. I'm just imagining stuff because I guess that's how I got into masturbating. When I was up north, I didn't really relate to people physically, other than my relatives in Pennsylvania|New York.
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